<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:googleplay="http://www.google.com/schemas/play-podcasts/1.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[Knowing Yourself Through Fiction: Daily Dose of Fiction]]></title><description><![CDATA[A Daily Dose of Fiction - short daily stories centered on a weekly theme of friendship, connections and purpose. Featuring the characters from my novels. ]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/s/daily-dose-of-fiction</link><image><url>https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4Oo8!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ff8647c-3056-4121-b678-04b3d5a69aac_600x600.png</url><title>Knowing Yourself Through Fiction: Daily Dose of Fiction</title><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/s/daily-dose-of-fiction</link></image><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Sun, 19 Apr 2026 04:11:21 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/feed" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><copyright><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:owner><itunes:email><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></itunes:email><itunes:name><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></itunes:author><googleplay:owner><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></googleplay:owner><googleplay:email><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></googleplay:email><googleplay:author><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></googleplay:author><itunes:block><![CDATA[Yes]]></itunes:block><item><title><![CDATA[Those Who Stay ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Where the story continues, long after the others have gone. A Dose of Fiction from Echo Canyon]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-stay</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-stay</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 03 Apr 2026 12:31:28 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!scX-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28ae5930-678b-4fb3-ad60-dfa0fe1465c5_1526x984.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!scX-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28ae5930-678b-4fb3-ad60-dfa0fe1465c5_1526x984.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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Someone opened the back door to the veranda without saying anything, and one by one, they drifted outside and down to the fire pit.</p><p>The fire had been started earlier in the evening. It didn&#8217;t need much. Just a small shift of wood, a nudge to the embers, and it came back to life.</p><p>No one said they were sticking around.</p><p>They just&#8230; stayed.</p><p>Raven settled into her chair and looked around at the others. &#8220;Funny, isn&#8217;t it? All week I kept thinking, why do we always end up the last ones? And then I realized&#8230;because we like it that way.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn smiled into her mug. &#8220;At the library, the whole meeting was polite. You know the kind. Everyone saying the right things, no one really saying anything. The real conversation didn&#8217;t start until it was just Skylar and me. I almost left. If I had, I would&#8217;ve missed the part where she told me beginnings come when the room empties.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar let out a soft laugh. &#8220;I was only half-serious. But there&#8217;s truth in it. I used to think leaving early meant I was being considerate. Now I think staying might be the more honest choice.&#8221;</p><p>Val tipped her chair back slightly, balancing without thinking. &#8220;At the dance hall, Raven and I stayed behind to help clean up. We grabbed the brooms and ended up waltzing across the floor. No music left, no one watching. Just us, laughing like we were twenty again. I couldn&#8217;t tell you what songs they played earlier, but I&#8217;ll remember that dance.&#8221;</p><p>Riley ran her finger along the rim of her mug, the motion slow, thoughtful. &#8220;I used to leave first. I told myself I was just ready to go home. One night I stayed, and Ben was still outside, tending the fire. I sat down for a minute, and somehow that turned into a conversation I didn&#8217;t know I needed. Turns out the best part hadn&#8217;t even started yet.&#8221;</p><p>Raven glanced toward the edge of the canyon where the desert night pressed close, quiet but present. &#8220;The canyon does that too. Remember the trail ride? Everyone else pushed ahead, but when Skylar slowed down, the rest of us followed. That light&#8230; it didn&#8217;t show up until it was just us out there. Like the canyon was waiting.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar nodded, her voice softer now. &#8220;That was the first time I stopped trying to keep pace with everything around me. I let things meet me where I was instead. I think that&#8217;s why these moments feel different. They&#8217;re not rushed. They don&#8217;t belong to anyone else.&#8221;</p><p>Val leaned forward, her tone shifting, not heavier, just more grounded. &#8220;It&#8217;s more than the time. It&#8217;s what we get from each other when we&#8217;re not trying to get somewhere else. I told you I&#8217;d trade my stars for their city noise, Skylar. I meant that. These moments&#8230; they give something back.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn nodded. &#8220;People think staying late means holding on. But it doesn&#8217;t feel like that. It feels like choosing. Choosing not to leave the part that matters.&#8221;</p><p>Riley reached for the teapot and poured slowly, steady hands, no need to rush. &#8220;It&#8217;s like the garden after pruning. Once you clear out what isn&#8217;t needed, what&#8217;s left has room to breathe. Staying does that. It leaves space for what&#8217;s real.&#8221;</p><p>No one spoke for a while after that.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t the kind of silence that needed filling. It was the kind that settles in comfortably, as if it&#8217;s been invited. The desert carried on in its own rhythm, a bird calling once, then again, a breeze moving through as if it had somewhere to be but wasn&#8217;t in a hurry to get there.</p><p>Raven broke it first, a small smile returning. &#8220;So maybe we&#8217;ve had it wrong. We&#8217;re not the last to leave.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar lifted her mug slightly. &#8220;We&#8217;re the ones who choose to stay.&#8221;</p><p>There was a soft clink as the mugs met, nothing formal, nothing announced.</p><p>Just a quiet agreement.</p><p>And as the night deepened around them, no one reached for their keys.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Stay Inside the Story&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Stay Inside the Story</span></a></p><p>This story isn't a full chapter.</p><p>It's a moment.</p><p>The kind that happens after most people have gone home.</p><p>The new chapters start soon.</p><p>You don&#8217;t have to leave.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Not Now. Not Yet. ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Five women at the edge of what comes next, and the courage it takes to wait without disappearing.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/not-now-not-yet</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/not-now-not-yet</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 17 Jan 2026 22:09:30 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QH_6!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F21ea78f3-5da8-4889-aa55-5113006535b6_2145x2382.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Like my life right now  </p><p>Nothing gets decided. No one has a breakthrough. The women are still carrying the same questions they were last week, but now they&#8217;re listening to them more carefully.</p><p>Skylar asks for help she knows she&#8217;ll need.</p><p>Raven has to say not now.</p><p>Quinn opens the boxes of a finished life.</p><p>Riley feels the edge of not knowing, and lets it stay there.</p><p>This is a week about timing. About restraint. About learning the difference between not now and not yet.</p><p>Here are the five stories, together.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; You didn&#8217;t ask yet, but not now.</strong></p><p>Skylar calls before she drives out.</p><p>&#8220;Are you home?&#8221;</p><p>Then, after a pause, &#8220;And do you have time?&#8221;</p><p>Raven says yes, though she already knows time is the wrong word.</p><p>Skylar arrives without a bag, without papers. They walk the fence line together. Skylar asks careful questions. About who decides what gets shared. About how trust works when history isn&#8217;t yours.</p><p>Raven answers what she can. She notices what Skylar doesn&#8217;t ask.</p><p>When they stop, Skylar turns to her.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going to need your help,&#8221; she says. Not asking yet. Just stating it.</p><p>That night, Raven opens her calendar.</p><p>Not now, she thinks.</p><p>And closes it.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Publishing Teaches Patience</strong></p><p>Skylar tells herself she understands.</p><p>She&#8217;s waited before. Publishing teaches patience, whether you want it or not. Still, the pause sits heavier than she expected.</p><p>She rereads her notes. Edits a paragraph that doesn&#8217;t need editing. Starts a list she doesn&#8217;t finish.</p><p>Not now sounds too much like maybe never when the ground you&#8217;re standing on isn&#8217;t yours.</p><p>She doesn&#8217;t call Raven.</p><p>She waits.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Volumes of Journals</strong></p><p>Quinn hasn&#8217;t opened the boxes in years.</p><p>They&#8217;re stacked neatly, labeled in her handwriting. Dates. Locations. Case names that still carry weight.</p><p>She and Riley sit on the floor. Quinn lifts a lid.</p><p>Inside are journals. Hundreds of pages. Observations. Decisions. Consequences. All of it reviewed, approved, redacted, released.</p><p>&#8220;This is my life,&#8221; Quinn says. Not proudly. Just factually.</p><p>Riley flips through a few pages, careful.</p><p>&#8220;So what will you do with them?&#8221; she asks.</p><p>Quinn shrugs. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. But they&#8217;re done.&#8221;</p><p>Riley feels it before she understands it.</p><p>Done is a word she can&#8217;t use yet.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Who Am I Now?</strong></p><p>Riley talks too much at dinner.</p><p>She circles ideas she doesn&#8217;t believe in. Teaching. Consulting. Something adjacent. Something useful.</p><p>Quinn listens. She doesn&#8217;t interrupt.</p><p>Finally, she says, &#8220;You don&#8217;t have to decide tonight.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I know,&#8221; Riley snaps back, sharper than she means to.</p><p>But what she hears is something else.</p><p>You don&#8217;t know yet.</p><p>Later, when Ben stops by, he doesn&#8217;t ask how she&#8217;s doing.</p><p>He asks if she wants to ride tomorrow.</p><p>&#8220;Bring your sketchbook,&#8221; he says, already turning away.</p><p>Riley hesitates.</p><p>Then she says yes.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Not Empty</strong></p><p>Ben takes them higher into the canyon than Riley expects.</p><p>The trail narrows. The horses move easily, sure-footed. When they stop, it isn&#8217;t at a lookout with a sign or a bench. It&#8217;s a bend in the trail where the canyon rises straight up.</p><p>Riley dismounts. The rock face towers in front of her, layered and uneven, catching the light along one sharp edge.</p><p>She pulls out her sketchbook.</p><p>For thirty years, she&#8217;s drawn buildings. Plans. Structures meant to hold.</p><p>She studies the rock the way she once studied sites. Where it breaks. Where it holds. Where it refuses symmetry.</p><p>She draws one edge of the canyon wall as it climbs, then cuts back on itself.</p><p>A short distance away, Ben and Quinn sit talking quietly. She can&#8217;t hear the words.</p><p>Riley finishes the edge and stops. She doesn&#8217;t fill it in. She doesn&#8217;t label it.</p><p>She closes the sketchbook.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/184905554?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>By the end of the week, nothing is solved.</p><p>But something has shifted.</p><p>A pause has weight now. Waiting has shape. Not knowing isn&#8217;t quite as empty as it felt a few days ago.</p><p>The canyon doesn&#8217;t offer answers. It never has. But it does offer edges. Places to stand. Something solid to look at when the path forward isn&#8217;t clear.</p><p>Next week, the women will move again. Not all at once. Not in the same direction.</p><p>For now, this is where they are.</p><p>And it&#8217;s enough to stay here a little longer.</p><div><hr></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Stop Talking Yourself Out of What You Want]]></title><description><![CDATA[A Dose of Fiction - Five women face the pull they&#8217;ve been postponing for years.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/stop-talking-yourself-out-of-what</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/stop-talking-yourself-out-of-what</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 09 Jan 2026 13:02:53 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg 424w, 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Not goals. Just the quieter questions that tend to surface later in life. Why did I stop wanting things? What would it mean to start something now? What if I can&#8217;t stay with it?</p><p>No one made a plan. No one announced a new identity.</p><p>What happened instead was smaller and more honest. They named a pull they&#8217;d been managing quietly for years.</p><p>Below is the full collection from this week, read straight through.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Question That Wouldn&#8217;t Stay Small</strong></p><p>They were halfway through dinner on Riley&#8217;s veranda when the conversation drifted, the way it often did, toward what came next.</p><p>Not plans. Not goals. Just that loose, unsatisfying word. Next.</p><p>Val picked at her food. &#8220;I&#8217;m so tired of saying this but I&#8217;m going to anyway. I still don&#8217;t know what I want anymore,&#8221; she said, almost apologetically.</p><p>Riley nodded too quickly. &#8220;I&#8217;m right there with you.&#8221; She felt that familiar tug toward the notebook she kept near her desk, the one she told herself was just for lists and sketches. She rarely allowed herself to reach for it.</p><p>Quinn leaned back in her chair. &#8220;I keep thinking I should want something,&#8221; she said. &#8220;But I can&#8217;t tell if that&#8217;s real or just leftover momentum from work.&#8221;</p><p>Raven listened. She always did. Calm, grounded, entirely at ease in herself. She&#8217;d made her choices and lived inside them long enough to trust her footing. Her thought went to her horse and rider training center. Her legacy.</p><p>Skylar hadn&#8217;t spoken yet. The others knew her story. Three novels. All published. All bestsellers. When she did speak, it was usually because it mattered.</p><p>She lifted her glass, then set it down untouched.</p><p>&#8220;It seems we&#8217;ve all asked that question as we get older. When we leave our jobs, or pivot from them.&#8221; she said evenly. &#8220;We don&#8217;t know how to answer it. I believe I have suggested at some point, to most of you, to try journaling&#8221;</p><p>The table went still.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s face flushed. She remembered the very day she and Val shook hands on that very suggestion. She stole a quick glance at Val who lifted her shoulders in an apologetic shrug.</p><p>Neither said anything. They didn&#8217;t need to. The question had already landed, and it wasn&#8217;t leaving.</p><p>Breaking the silence, Riley picked up the casserole dish and passed it to Quinn. &#8220;Seconds anyone?&#8221;</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; What&#8217;s the Point of Starting Now</strong></p><p>Knowing the answer, Raven asked Skylar how her new book was going. Everyone stopped eating to listen.</p><p>Skylar didn&#8217;t hesitate. &#8220;I&#8217;m deep in the research. I&#8217;ve met several times with the Sab&#225;kari Council of Elders. It&#8217;s going to be the most challenging book I&#8217;ve done. It&#8217;s not about old bones and their mysteries this time.&#8221;</p><p>No one was surprised. If Skylar wrote it, it would be published. That wasn&#8217;t up for debate.</p><p>&#8220;This one&#8217;s different,&#8221; Skylar added. &#8220;It&#8217;s about the Sab&#225;kari, their lives, culture, beliefs. Their stories. Their first ancestors. It&#8217;s&#8230; important.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And terrifying?&#8221; Val said gently, smiling.</p><p>Skylar smiled. &#8220;That too.&#8221;</p><p>Riley watched Skylar closely. She&#8217;d expected excitement. Pride. What she saw instead was concern.</p><p>&#8220;Do you want to go through all of it again?&#8221; Quinn asked. &#8220;Agents, editors, deadlines?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar shrugged. &#8220;Eventually. Maybe. Right now, it just needs to exist.&#8221;</p><p>That caught Riley off guard. She frowned. &#8220;What if it doesn&#8217;t go anywhere?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar met her eyes. &#8220;Then it will still have been written.&#8221;</p><p>Riley felt a flush of something she couldn&#8217;t name. She thought of her notebook. Of the guilt that came with wanting to sketch when she had nothing to build. Of the voice that said it was frivolous now.</p><p>Skylar leaned back. &#8220;The point isn&#8217;t publishing. The point is not ignoring the pull.&#8221;</p><p>No one argued. They didn&#8217;t need to. The point had already been made.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Who Decides What Counts</strong></p><p>The talk turned practical, almost by habit.</p><p>&#8220;How long does something like that take?&#8221; Quinn asked.</p><p>Skylar answered easily. Timeframes. Research. Discipline. She didn&#8217;t romanticize it.</p><p>&#8220;And the industry?&#8221; Val asked. &#8220;Does it even want stories like that anymore?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar paused. &#8220;Publishing is a way,&#8221; she said. &#8220;It isn&#8217;t the only way.&#8221;</p><p>That surprised them.</p><p>Quinn thought of the boxes in her storage unit. Case journals from Homeland Security. Notes she&#8217;d written every night on assignment. She&#8217;d never called it writing. It never occurred to her to.</p><p>Riley stared at the grain of the table, her fingers itching to draw something, anything.</p><p>&#8220;I wouldn&#8217;t even know how to start,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;I&#8217;m too old to learn a whole new thing.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar shook her head. &#8220;You&#8217;re not learning a new thing. You&#8217;re just writing. There&#8217;s a difference. You learned how to nurse. After you got your license, you learned by doing. That&#8217;s how it is. You just write &#8230;. something. Anything.&#8221;</p><p>Raven finally spoke. &#8220;You don&#8217;t lose the ability to learn just because time has passed.&#8221;</p><p>Her confidence wasn&#8217;t loud. It didn&#8217;t need to be. She knew who she was.</p><p>Skylar added, &#8220;Getting something onto the page matters long before anyone else sees it.&#8221;</p><p>The room shifted. Something heavy moved aside.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; The Fear of Not Finishing</strong></p><p>Later, when the light softened and the food was mostly gone but the wine glasses were full, the doubts crept in. Not loudly. The way they always did, once no one was pretending anymore.</p><p>&#8220;What if I start and can&#8217;t finish?&#8221; Val asked.</p><p>She didn&#8217;t say the rest, but everyone heard it anyway.</p><p>What if I disappoint myself. What if I prove I waited too long.</p><p>Riley felt that one land hard. Energy wasn&#8217;t endless anymore. Neither was time. Starting something felt heavier now, not because she couldn&#8217;t do it, but because she didn&#8217;t want to abandon it halfway through like so many other quiet desires.</p><p>Skylar nodded. &#8220;This book scares me more than the others,&#8221; she admitted. &#8220;Not because of sales. Because of responsibility.&#8221;</p><p>No one interrupted her.</p><p>&#8220;If I begin it,&#8221; Skylar continued, &#8220;I have to stay with it. I can&#8217;t rush it. I can&#8217;t fake it. And I can&#8217;t walk away without knowing I listened all the way through.&#8221;</p><p>Raven watched the canyon darken beyond the railing, the shadows settling into familiar shapes. &#8220;My prot&#233;g&#233; writes every day,&#8221; she said. &#8220;She&#8217;s sixteen. No goal. No audience. She just writes because she has to.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That must be nice,&#8221; Quinn said.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s not about age,&#8221; Raven replied. &#8220;It&#8217;s about permission. Somehow she has it. Her mother and grandmother never told her to make it practical. They gave her the space.&#8221;</p><p>Riley swallowed. She thought about how often she pushed past her own signals. How often she told herself later, when there was more time, more clarity, more reason.</p><p>Skylar said quietly, &#8220;Finishing isn&#8217;t the promise. Depending on what you&#8217;re writing, it might be listening. Or patience. Or just staying present long enough to see what wants to happen.&#8221;</p><p>That settled something Riley hadn&#8217;t realized she&#8217;d been holding.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t about failing to finish.</p><p>It was about starting something honest and being willing to stay with it, even when it got uncomfortable.</p><p>No one rushed to speak. They didn&#8217;t need to. The fear had finally been named, and it no longer held the room.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Because You Can&#8217;t - Not</strong></p><p>By the time the evening began to wind down, no one was trying to convince anyone of anything.</p><p>The conversation had slowed. Plates were stacked. The canyon air cooled, moving across the veranda in steady breaths.</p><p>Riley reached for her notebook without comment and began to sketch. Not a plan. Not an idea she intended to explain. Just a few lines. A doorway. A shadow. Enough to start.</p><p>Quinn watched her for a moment, then said, almost to herself, &#8220;I might open one box of journals. Just one. I&#8217;ve never looked at them all together.&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded. &#8220;I want to write something that doesn&#8217;t have to be useful. Just something that sounds like me.&#8221;</p><p>Raven didn&#8217;t say anything. She didn&#8217;t need to. She sat back in her chair, certain in a way that came from having already chosen her own work in the world. She trusted what she was seeing.</p><p>Skylar looked around the table and felt something ease. Not excitement. Not triumph. Recognition.</p><p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t think this starts with wanting to write,&#8221; she said. &#8220;I think it starts with realizing we can&#8217;t not.&#8221;</p><p>Riley kept sketching. &#8220;Maybe I&#8217;ll write in sketches,&#8221; she said. &#8220;That might be how it comes out.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar smiled. &#8220;Then that&#8217;s how you write.&#8221;</p><p>No one applauded. No one announced a plan. No one promised to finish anything.</p><p>But something had shifted.</p><p>Not toward publishing.</p><p>Not toward outcomes.</p><p>Toward honesty.</p><p>Toward listening to ourselves, to the signals we&#8217;ve learned to ignore.</p><p>Toward letting what had already been waiting finally have a place to land.</p><p>And that was enough to begin.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/a0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/183502130?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>I wrote these pieces while thinking about how many women carry the urge to write for years without knowing what to do with it. Not because they lack discipline or confidence, but because they don&#8217;t want to turn it into a whole new project they have to manage.</p><p>For readers who want a way to begin without overcomplicating it, I put together a short free resource called<strong> 3 Steps to Finally Start Writing the Stories Only You Know</strong>.</p><p>It isn&#8217;t expert-driven. It doesn&#8217;t assume you&#8217;re trying to publish. It simply offers three methods for getting something honest onto the page and staying with it, even when it gets uncomfortable.</p><p>You will get the link when you join as a subscriber.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p>No pressure. No timeline. Just a place to start if the pull you felt this week isn&#8217;t going away.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[You’re Not Broken — The Path Just Changed ]]></title><description><![CDATA[This Week&#8217;s Dose of Fiction]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/youre-not-broken-the-path-just-changed</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/youre-not-broken-the-path-just-changed</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 20 Dec 2025 13:01:57 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ij-9!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F554ed81d-9f97-46e5-b4b3-211b8cbe1295_939x515.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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We&#8217;re trained to fix. To patch. To return things to the comfort of what once worked.</p><p>But sometimes, the old path isn&#8217;t wrong. It&#8217;s just finished.</p><p>That&#8217;s what this week&#8217;s fiction explores.</p><p>Not collapse, but a quiet change.</p><p>Not drama, but adjustment.</p><p>If something in your life has stopped flowing, this story is for you.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Shift</strong></p><p>Riley noticed the change because she walked the canyon every morning.</p><p>About halfway down the usual route, where the wall curved inward and held the night&#8217;s cool a little longer, the ground no longer felt right. The gravel slid under her boot instead of holding. The slope pulled in a way it hadn&#8217;t before.</p><p>She stopped and looked around. The canyon itself looked the same. Same walls. Same scrub. Same quiet.</p><p>Only the path had shifted.</p><p>Riley assessed it the way she always did. Angle. Drainage. What the last storm might have done. It wasn&#8217;t dangerous. Not yet.</p><p>She felt a brief hesitation in her body, a tightening she didn&#8217;t have a name for. She stepped past it and kept going.</p><p>At breakfast she mentioned it to Val, casually.</p><p>&#8220;Part of the canyon path slipped,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Val looked up. &#8220;Which section?&#8221;</p><p>Riley told her.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll walk it tomorrow,&#8221; Val said.</p><p>The canyon sat outside the windows, unchanged, as if it had nothing to add.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Canyon Resists</strong></p><p>Val went early, before the sun reached into the canyon.</p><p>She followed Riley&#8217;s route until she felt the shift under her own feet. The canyon wall rose close on one side, rock dark and cool. The ground there had thinned, the gravel no longer settled the way it should.</p><p>Val knelt and touched the soil. She didn&#8217;t think of it as damage. She thought of it as imbalance.</p><p>She gathered flat stones and reset the edge of the path, reinforcing the section that had slipped. It took time, but by late morning the canyon path looked stable again.</p><p>That evening, Val felt satisfied in the quiet way she trusted.</p><p>The next morning, she returned.</p><p>The stones had moved. Not far. Just enough. The canyon path had softened again in the same place.</p><p>Val stood there longer this time. The canyon wasn&#8217;t dramatic about it. It hadn&#8217;t washed the work away. It had simply declined to hold it.</p><p>Later, she told Riley, &#8220;It didn&#8217;t stay.&#8221;</p><p>Riley nodded. She didn&#8217;t ask why.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Standing in the Canyon</strong></p><p>They stood together where the path narrowed, canyon walls rising on either side.</p><p>Riley talked through solutions. A wider cut. A more permanent grade. Something that would hold, no matter what the canyon did next.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s workable,&#8221; she said. &#8220;I can make it solid.&#8221;</p><p>Val listened, eyes on the ground, then on the rock face beside them.</p><p>&#8220;Why this path?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>Riley answered quickly. It was efficient. Familiar. It had always been the best way through this part of the canyon.</p><p>As she spoke, she felt something tighten in her chest. She kept going anyway.</p><p>Val didn&#8217;t argue. She didn&#8217;t agree either.</p><p>The canyon stayed quiet. Wind moved higher up, out of reach.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; How Heavy is Waiting?</strong></p><p>Riley drew the plan that afternoon.</p><p>It would solve the problem. It meant cutting deeper into the canyon slope and redirecting how they moved through that section. Not a disaster. Just a change they&#8217;d feel every day.</p><p>Val studied the drawing. She felt her usual instinct rise, the one that wanted to soften the impact, to suggest an alternative.</p><p>She noticed the instinct and let it pass.</p><p>Riley watched her, waiting for a response. The lack of one landed heavier than approval would have.</p><p>Outside, the canyon held its shape. No signal. No resistance. No permission.</p><p>Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction</p><p>You&#8217;re Not Broken &#8212; The Path Just Changed</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Moving Through the Canyon</strong></p><p>They didn&#8217;t talk it through again.</p><p>They took a different route through the canyon instead. Longer. Less direct. It required more attention, more pacing.</p><p>After a few days, it stopped feeling like a decision and started feeling like reality.</p><p>The original path remained unreliable. Not blocked. Just uninterested.</p><p>Riley noticed how often her body had registered a change before she&#8217;d allowed herself to consider it.</p><p>Val noticed how often she&#8217;d stepped in out of habit, not necessity.</p><p>The canyon didn&#8217;t change. But it breathed more easily.</p><p>They moved through it differently now, enjoying the fresh breeze, knowing they would listen more closely to what they felt before trying to make it cooperate.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/182141927?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p>A familiar path in Echo Canyon stops holding the way it always has. Nothing dramatic happens. No collapse. No danger. Just a quiet refusal to cooperate.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s instinct is to fix it. Val&#8217;s instinct is to stabilize it. Neither approach works. Over the course of the week, they stop trying to force a solution and instead adjust how they move through the canyon.</p><p>The shift isn&#8217;t external. The canyon stays the same. The change happens in how they listen to their bodies and instincts, and the limits they&#8217;ve been overriding.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Do I want this to become my life now?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Dose of Fiction - A week when one decision changed everything]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/do-i-want-this-to-become-my-life</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/do-i-want-this-to-become-my-life</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 14 Dec 2025 21:23:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3sIx!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F430b44b8-a06d-4262-8b20-16042e7a0ce3_1024x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>The Choice That Shifted the Ground</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a 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class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><em>This week&#8217;s Daily Dose follows Raven through a decision that looks simple from the outside and anything but simple on the inside.</em></p><p><em>An offer arrives. Prestigious. Time-consuming. Impressive.</em></p><p><em>She can say yes. She has every credential to do so.</em></p><p><em>But she has also just claimed the life she wants.</em></p><p><em>What unfolds across these five short episodes is not about ambition. It&#8217;s about alignment. It&#8217;s about the pivots we make later in life when the question shifts from &#8220;Can I?&#8221; to &#8220;Does this belong to me now?&#8221;</em></p><p><em>Below is the full arc.</em></p><p><em>If you want to step inside the deeper layers of her decision, I wrote a Life&#8217;s Threads reflection that grew directly from this story. You can find that here.</em></p><p>Raven did not plan to pivot again.</p><p>Not after the Centennial Celebration. Not after deciding she was done traveling and ready to build a life where the horses came to her. But this week reminded me of something real. Later in life, the pivots don&#8217;t arrive with fanfare. They arrive in a single message, a quiet offer, or a question that forces us to stop and ask what we actually want now.</p><p>Raven can do anything. That has never been the question.</p><p>The real tension is whether she should.</p><p>This arc follows her through the kind of decision women make every day in their sixties and seventies, even if the world doesn&#8217;t notice. The cost of saying yes. The truth of saying no. And the possibility of shaping a third option that fits who she has become.</p><p>Here is the full story.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Holo-Message at Dawn</strong></p><p>Raven was brushing down Spirit when her comm blinked with a soft blue ring she did not see often. A secure message. National Equine Therapeutics Council. She wiped her hands on her jeans before opening it.</p><p>The holo projection rose above her palm, clear and formal. An invitation. A request for her to lead a three-month advanced training for horse trainers across the country. All expenses. High honor. Prestigious placement. Something she would have accepted without hesitation years ago.</p><p>She read it twice. Then turned off the projection and slipped the comm into her pocket.</p><p>Her rhythm with the horses was off. Spirit felt it. Sam noticed from across the corral. Val, cutting herbs for the day, watched Raven&#8217;s jaw tighten as she adjusted a saddle that did not need adjusting.</p><p>They had no idea the world was about to shift.</p><p>Just when she had decided she was done traveling, she was being asked to reconsider everything.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Impossible Choice</strong></p><p>Raven told Sam first. She always did. They stood by the feed bins, early light catching dust in the air.</p><p>&#8220;I will not leave for three months,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Shik&#225;ni cannot do this alone.&#8221;</p><p>Sam studied her. &#8220;You earned the offer.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That is not the point.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;It might be.&#8221;</p><p>Later, Ben found her stacking hay bales one at a time, too methodically for a woman who usually worked in a rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s a good thing,&#8221; he said gently.</p><p>&#8220;It is also a bad time.&#8221;</p><p>Val brought over a thermos of tea and sat beside her on the fence.</p><p>&#8220;What do you want?&#8221; Val asked. &#8220;Not what the canyon needs. Not what everyone expects. What do you want?&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not answer.</p><p>Not because she didn&#8217;t know.</p><p>But because she did.</p><p>She wanted to go.</p><p>She wanted to stay.</p><p>And both truths carried weight.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; The Council Calls Back</strong></p><p>By mid-afternoon, the Council called her directly. Not a holo message this time. A live call.</p><p>&#8220;We would like your decision,&#8221; the organizer said. &#8220;Your methods after the Centennial event drew national attention. We designed the program around your approach.&#8221;</p><p>Raven stepped outside the barn. The canyon wind met her face. She listened. She thought. She tried to find a compromise.</p><p>&#8220;I cannot leave Echo Canyon for three months,&#8221; she said. Her voice was steady. &#8220;My people need me. My animals need me. And there is no one ready to take my place.&#8221;</p><p>She expected the organizer to thank her and end the call.</p><p>Instead, there was a pause.</p><p>A long, thoughtful pause.</p><p>Then the organizer said, &#8220;If you cannot come to us, perhaps we should come to you. Would you consider hosting the training in Echo Canyon?&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not speak.</p><p>Not out of fear.</p><p>Out of calculation.</p><p>This was a different kind of game-changer.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Do What Instead?</strong></p><p>Raven repeated the words quietly. &#8220;Host it here.&#8221;</p><p>Sam had been nearby and froze.</p><p>Ben, carrying tack from the truck, stopped mid-stride.</p><p>Val nearly dropped her basket of tools.</p><p>Echo Canyon was small.</p><p>Beautiful.</p><p>Sacred.</p><p>But small.</p><p>They did not have lodging for dozens of trainers.</p><p>Or enough space for their horses.</p><p>Or infrastructure for a national program.</p><p>The organizer continued. &#8220;Your demonstration proved Echo Canyon is a place of learning. We would adjust our scale. We would work with your limitations. We want the training centered on your methods, in your environment.&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not commit.</p><p>She only said, &#8220;I will consider it.&#8221;</p><p>When the projection faded, the quiet that followed was thick.</p><p>Sam finally spoke. &#8220;This would change everything.&#8221;</p><p>Val added, &#8220;It would lift all of you, not just you.&#8221;</p><p>Ben said nothing, but his expression told her he agreed.</p><p>Raven looked out across the canyon and felt the pull of two futures.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Living With the Decision at Dusk</strong></p><p>Raven gathered everyone that evening. Sam. Shik&#225;ni. Ben. Val. Quinn. Skylar. Riley. They sat outside the barn, the last of the sun turning the canyon walls deep gold.</p><p>She showed them the message. Both offers.</p><p>She told them the truth.</p><p>&#8220;I do not want to leave. But I do not want to shut the door on something that could lift this place.&#8221;</p><p>They talked in low voices.</p><p>Not over each other.</p><p>Not quickly.</p><p>Like a community that understands decisions have weight.</p><p>They discussed lodging, access roads, feed storage, water constraints.</p><p>They discussed pride.</p><p>Possibility.</p><p>Growth.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni, who had been silent most of the time, finally spoke.</p><p>&#8220;If they come here,&#8221; she said, &#8220;they learn our way. On our land. With our horses. That matters.&#8221;</p><p>Raven nodded slowly.</p><p>Then lifted her comm.</p><p>She sent a short message back.</p><p>&#8220;We will host it.&#8221;</p><p>No announcement.</p><p>No applause.</p><p>Just a choice that shifted Echo Canyon in the space of a breath.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/181605985?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Raven did not chase the offer. She didn&#8217;t shut the door on it either. She let herself stand in the space between ability and desire, between what was possible and what was right for her life now.</p><p>In the end, she didn&#8217;t choose the old path or the expected one.</p><p>She shaped something new.</p><p>A pivot that fit her age, her wisdom, her community, and the woman she has grown into.</p><p>Most of us learn this late in life.</p><p>The question is not &#8220;Can I?&#8221;</p><p>The question is &#8220;Do I want this to belong to my life now?&#8221;</p><p>Raven answered in her own way.</p><p>And the canyon shifted with her.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>Coming next this week is my reflection on this story and for Story Insiders, (paid subscribers), an invitation to sit at my desk and the next entry to Riley&#8217;s Private Journal. I invite you to &#8230;</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Turn the page&#8230;&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Turn the page&#8230;</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Call No One Wants]]></title><description><![CDATA[The kind of news that pulls the ground out from under a person.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-call-no-one-wants</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-call-no-one-wants</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 06 Dec 2025 18:42:38 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg 424w, 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One moment it was an ordinary morning, sunlight on marigolds, quiet between neighbors. The next, everything in him shifted. A brother he had not spoken to in years. A voice asking him to come. The kind of news that pulls the ground out from under a person.</p><p>Most of us have had a moment like that. A call that sends us back into a part of our life we thought was settled. A choice we do not feel ready for. A fear we hoped we would never have to face.</p><p>This is the full arc of that week. Quiet courage, one decision at a time. No drama. No quick fixes.</p><h2>Here is the whole story.</h2><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; No Ordinary Morning</strong></p><p>Ben was watering the flower beds between his house and Riley&#8217;s. He liked starting the day this way. Hoses, soil, sunlight, nothing complicated.</p><p>Riley was on her porch drinking coffee when his comm buzzed on the table beside him. A Florida number.</p><p>He almost let it ring.</p><p>&#8220;Hello?&#8221; he said, still watching the stream of water arc over the marigolds.</p><p>Then his whole body went still.</p><p>Riley set her cup down. She knew the difference between everyday silence and the kind that redraws a life.</p><p>Ben turned off the hose but did not move.</p><p>He looked at Riley, confused, pale, trying to form the words.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s my brother,&#8221; he said quietly. &#8220;He&#8217;s really sick. They want me to come.&#8221;</p><p>The hose dripped onto his boots.</p><p>The marigolds waited for more water.</p><p>Nothing in the yard moved.</p><p>In a single breath of an ordinary morning, everything changed.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Choice He Did Not Want</strong></p><p>They sat in Riley&#8217;s kitchen, the late-morning light warming the tile. Ben kept his hands around the mug she had given him, but he never drank from it.</p><p>&#8220;I have not talked to him in ten years,&#8221; he said. &#8220;Not since the fight. I do not even know if he wants me there.&#8221;</p><p>Riley did not tell him what to do. She never did. She just listened. It made it harder to look away from the truth.</p><p>He stared out the window at the path between their houses.</p><p>&#8220;You think it means something that he asked?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You know it does,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Ben closed his eyes for a moment. The years between them rose like a tide.</p><p>If he went, everything unresolved could surface again.</p><p>If he stayed, regret would follow him for the rest of his life.</p><p>The trap was not his brother.</p><p>It was time, and how little of it anyone ever gets.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; When the Day Forced His Hand</strong></p><p>By afternoon, the call came from his brother&#8217;s partner. The words were simple. The tone was not.</p><p>&#8220;He is fading in and out. If you want to come, you should come now.&#8221;</p><p>Ben walked outside and tried to start his truck.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>Tried again.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>He put both hands on the steering wheel and breathed, slow and uneven. For the first time all day, he looked like a man trying not to break.</p><p>Raven found him that way. Sam behind her.</p><p>&#8220;We will cover the ranch,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Ben Junior will too. You go.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I do not even know what I will say to him,&#8221; he whispered.</p><p>Raven touched his shoulder. &#8220;You do not have to know that yet.&#8221;</p><p>Riley came out with her keys.</p><p>&#8220;I am driving you to the station,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Ben did not argue.</p><p>Sometimes the moment decides for us.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; The Door He Chose to Walk Through</strong></p><p>The station was quiet, late-day sun warming the benches. Ben carried one small bag. That was all he had packed. That was all he could manage without shaking.</p><p>Riley waited beside him, her turn to be steady.</p><p>&#8220;You can still turn back,&#8221; she said.</p><p>He shook his head. &#8220;No. I can&#8217;t.&#8221;</p><p>When the transport opened its doors, he paused.</p><p>&#8220;I do not know how this ends,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t get to know that. I&#8217;m sorry Ben,&#8221; Riley said.</p><p>She placed a folded photo into his hand.</p><p>The five women. The canyon behind them. His other family.</p><p>&#8220;Bring yourself back. That&#8217;s all we ask.&#8221;</p><p>Ben stepped inside.</p><p>The doors closed.</p><p>The world shifted.</p><p>One image stayed with him as the transport lifted.</p><p>His brother&#8217;s face, the last time they spoke, tight with anger, neither of them willing to bend. He wasn&#8217;t even sure what the argument was about.</p><p>Now that same face waited for him, changed by years he wished he had not wasted.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; After the Visit, the Quiet</strong></p><p>Five days later, Ben returned.</p><p>No announcement. No fanfare.</p><p>Just the sound of his boots on the gravel path between his house and Riley&#8217;s.</p><p>She met him at their gate.</p><p>He looked older. Softer. Something in him had been revised.</p><p>He sat at her table and let the quiet settle.</p><p>Finally he said, &#8220;He looked at me when I walked into the room.&#8221;</p><p>Riley did not move.</p><p>Ben&#8217;s voice thinned. &#8220;He just said, &#8216;You came.&#8217; That was it. Like it was the only thing that mattered.&#8221;</p><p>He reached into his pocket and set a small seashell on the table. Faded white. Smooth from years in water.</p><p>&#8220;I found it on his nightstand,&#8221; he said. &#8220;So I brought it home.&#8221;</p><p>Riley closed her hand over his. She did not try to fill the silence.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/180897889?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Some moments do not need words.</p><p>Some moments change us without asking permission.</p><p>Ben took one step toward what he feared most.</p><p><strong>If you were sitting at the table with Ben, what would you hope he does next?</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>I&#8217;m writing the stories I always wished existed for women our age. The private moments. The secret pages the women never meant anyone to see. Come inside to hear what they never say out loud.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Turn the page&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Turn the page</span></a></p></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Thanksgiving at Echo Canyon ]]></title><description><![CDATA[The older we get, the more grateful we become for the people who sit beside us at the end of the day.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/thanksgiving-at-echo-canyon</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/thanksgiving-at-echo-canyon</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 26 Nov 2025 16:28:37 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<h1>Happy Holidays!</h1><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">The Women of the Canyon, (L-R) Raven, Riley. Quinn, Val, Skylar</figcaption></figure></div><p>Thanksgiving in Echo Canyon never arrives all at once. It builds slowly, one small kitchen disaster at a time. Riley destroying the first three pies. Val hunting for cranberries in a store that ran out. Skylar and Shik&#225;ni covering half the kitchen in flour. Quinn trying to wrangle Cameron and Channing in the wine aisle. All of it ordinary. All of it theirs.</p><p>What I love about this week is how simple it is. Every character preparing in their own way, making messes, magic, and showing up at Raven&#8217;s house with food, laughter, and a little chaos. One of those rare weeks where nothing dramatic needs to happen for a story to feel full.</p><p>This is the whole arc. A celebration of the people who have become family, even the ones who arrived by accident.</p><p>Here is the full story.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; Riley&#8217;s Pie Disaster</strong></p><p>Riley decided she would make the pumpkin pies this year. It seemed simple. Flour. Spice. A recipe Sam swore by. What she forgot was that every oven she had ever used ran colder than the one in her Echo Canyon kitchen.</p><p>The first pie puffed too high. The second spilled over. The third baked unevenly. By the fourth, Riley leaned against the counter, laughing so hard she had to hold her side. Ben walked over from next door after hearing the smoke alarm chirp.</p><p>He took one look at the row of lopsided pies and the scorch mark on the bottom rack.</p><p>&#8220;You need help,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;I do not,&#8221; Riley insisted.</p><p>Her fifth pie came out perfectly.</p><p>Ben said it was because she finally let him turn down the oven.</p><p>Riley said it was because she refused to be defeated by dessert.</p><p>Either way, the house smelled like Thanksgiving.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Val and the Missing Cranberries</strong></p><p>Val started the morning the way she always did before a holiday. A list on the counter. Ingredients lined up like soldiers. A quiet confidence that came from decades of knowing how to pull a meal together even when everything else in life felt unpredictable.</p><p>She was halfway through rinsing sage leaves when she stopped.</p><p>Cranberries.</p><p>Not in the bowl.</p><p>Not in the tote.</p><p>Not anywhere.</p><p>She checked the pantry twice.</p><p>Opened the tote again even though she had already looked.</p><p>Stepped outside and checked the truck bed as if the universe might have tucked the bag under a tarp just to be kind.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>She sat in the driver&#8217;s seat for a moment before turning the key. Holidays had a way of reminding her that she was the one who kept traditions alive now. No one else.</p><p>At the small market outside the canyon, the cranberry shelf looked like a battlefield someone else had won. Empty.</p><p>Sam stood in line with flour and yams. He saw her face and held up a bag.</p><p>&#8220;You are not going to like this,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;What?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I bought the last two.&#8221;</p><p>Val crossed her arms.</p><p>Sam handed one over without a comment, just a soft smile she pretended not to notice.</p><p>Back home, she tipped the berries into the pot. The kitchen filled with their bright popping.</p><p>For a moment, standing there alone in the warm, sweet air, Val felt something settle.</p><p>The day had not gone the way she planned.</p><p>But the sauce would be perfect.</p><p>And that counted for something.</p><p>And she&#8217;d remember to thank Sam.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Skylar and Shik&#225;ni Make a Mess</strong></p><p>Skylar offered to bring bread and stuffing. Shik&#225;ni insisted on helping. It should have been simple. It never was.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni chopped vegetables with the precision of a surgeon. Skylar measured nothing.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni followed a recipe. Skylar &#8220;felt it out.&#8221;</p><p>Halfway through, flour covered the table, the cat, and most of Skylar&#8217;s sweater. Shik&#225;ni had sage in her hair.</p><p>But there was laughter. Big, belly-deep laughter. The kind that only shows up when two women who adore each other attempt to cook from completely different worlds.</p><p>When the bread finally came out of the oven, warm and golden, Skylar tore off a piece and handed it to Shik&#225;ni.</p><p>&#8220;We did this,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni nodded. &#8220;Even though you refused to measure.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar bumped her shoulder. &#8220;Some things do not need measuring.&#8221;</p><p>The kitchen smelled like home.</p><p>The mess could wait.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Quinn, Cameron and Channing - Do the Impossible</strong></p><p>Quinn had one job. Bring the wine.</p><p>Cameron and Channing insisted on tagging along.</p><p>The problem began when Cameron announced that they should &#8220;pair the wines properly.&#8221; The second problem arrived when Channing decided they needed something &#8220;fun,&#8221; which Quinn suspected meant sparkling with fruit in it.</p><p>The third problem was that Quinn did not actually like asking for help, but she was stuck with these two and their overflowing enthusiasm.</p><p>At the store, Cameron debated oak versus steel barrel. Channing announced she found &#8220;the cutest cider ever.&#8221; Quinn looked at her list and wondered why she had not gone alone.</p><p>In the end, they bought everything.</p><p>Quinn hated the chaos.</p><p>She loved the company.</p><p>Back in the canyon, she set the bottles on Raven&#8217;s counter.</p><p>Raven raised an eyebrow.</p><p>Quinn said, &#8220;Do not ask.&#8221;</p><p>Raven replied, &#8220;I was not going to.&#8221;</p><p>They both laughed. The good kind.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Thanksgiving at Raven&#8217;s House</strong></p><p>Raven&#8217;s home filled slowly. First the smells. Then the voices. Then the warmth of people who have lived through enough years to know what gratitude feels like.</p><p>Ben brought Riley&#8217;s perfect fifth pie, but snuck in another - the best imperfect one of the four. Val carried her cranberry sauce in both hands like a fragile treasure. Skylar and Shik&#225;ni brought bread still warm from the oven. Quinn placed her towers of wine on the counter and shook her head at the memory of it.</p><p>Cameron and Channing helped set the table, arguing joyfully about which napkins were &#8220;festive enough.&#8221;</p><p>Sam checked on the turkeys in the smoker.</p><p>Raven watched everyone move through her home and felt it. This was family, even the ones who were not born into it.</p><p>They ate. They talked. They teased each other.</p><p>There was no formality.</p><p>Just a group of people who had made it through another year, sitting shoulder to shoulder.</p><p>When the plates were cleared, Raven looked at them and smiled.</p><p>She did not say it out loud, but the truth settled in her chest.</p><p>They had built a life here.</p><p>Together.</p><p>Closer.</p><p>Thanksgiving ended the way the best evenings do. The dishes stacked in the sink, chairs pulled close, and the kind of quiet that settles when people feel safe together.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s pie. Val&#8217;s sauce. Skylar&#8217;s bread. Quinn&#8217;s mountain of wine. All of it part of the same table. All of it a reminder that the older we get, the more grateful we become for the people who sit beside us at the end of the day.</p><p>This was one holiday in Echo Canyon. There will be others.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/180035537?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[A CRAVING TO BELONG ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction, A 5-chapter series of micro-fiction stories. On trust, belonging, and the beauty of being invited in.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-craving-to-belong</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-craving-to-belong</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2025 13:02:46 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4Oo8!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ff8647c-3056-4121-b678-04b3d5a69aac_600x600.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16462,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/178374415?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Have you ever been invited behind the scenes?</p><p>Before everything was ready. The lights still warming up.</p><p>That moment when you&#8217;ve been invited into something still in the making. There&#8217;s a kind of magic in that space.</p><p>Pride for being included. Trusted with the mess. That quiet thrill of being part of what comes before the world sees it.</p><p>It stirs something deeper too.</p><p>A craving to belong. To be asked inside before the others.</p><p>See how this unfolds for the five friends from Echo Canyon in a recent micro-fiction series, Doses of Fiction. </p><h3><strong>Being Asked Inside Before the Others</strong></h3><h4>1&#65039;&#8419; Before The Doors Open</h4><p>Jack met Riley at the back door with a paper cup of coffee and the ring of keys.</p><p>&#8220;Maryanne is icing cinnamon rolls,&#8221; he said. &#8220;You get the patio.&#8221;</p><p>He set one key apart from the rest. &#8220;Yours, if you want it.&#8221;</p><p>Riley turned it over in her palm. Not heavy, but it felt like something.</p><p>The caf&#233; was quiet the way a stage is quiet before the curtain lifts. Chairs stacked. Floor swept. The hush of a room that remembers last night and still forgives you for it.</p><p>Maryanne waved from the kitchen window, flour on her cheek. &#8220;Go,&#8221; she mouthed, smiling. &#8220;Before everyone arrives.&#8221;</p><p>Outside, the air was cool against the stone. The old wall caught the first light. Riley walked the perimeter, fingertips grazing the rough edge where the new rail would run. She could already see it, the way chairs would angle toward each other, how people would lean in without noticing, how laughter would travel along the flagstone like water finding its line.</p><p>She took out her notebook and wrote the sentence her father gave her years ago.</p><p>Please, help us make this a place people want to sit.</p><p>Being invited in, before the doors, did something to her breathing. She didn&#8217;t feel hired. She felt trusted. It was the difference between consulting and belonging, between plans on paper and a key in your hand.</p><p>Behind her, the lock clicked as Jack opened the side door.</p><p>&#8220;Need anything?&#8221; he asked.</p><p>Riley looked up at the empty morning. &#8220;Just time,&#8221; she said. &#8220;And a few good chairs.&#8221;</p><h4><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Horse Troughs and Thyme</strong></h4><p>Val backed her truck up to the patio with the precision of someone who&#8217;d done this a few times too many.</p><p>Six galvanized troughs rattled in the bed.</p><p>&#8220;Please tell me these aren&#8217;t all for herbs,&#8221; Riley inquired, not scolding.</p><p>Val smirked. &#8220;Herbs, color, and conversation. We&#8217;re building a mood, remember?&#8221;</p><p>Jack poked his head out the caf&#233; door. &#8220;Maryanne says to make it smell like hope.&#8221;</p><p>Val grinned. &#8220;Mint and basil it is.&#8221;</p><p>They worked through the morning in companionable silence, hands in the dirt, sleeves rolled up.</p><p>Riley handed Val the water hose. &#8220;You know,&#8221; she said, &#8220;when my dad talked about design, he always said, &#8216;Don&#8217;t build for the view. Build for the pause.&#8217;&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded, pressing a clump of thyme into soil. &#8220;Then we&#8217;d better give them a reason to linger.&#8221;</p><p>By noon, the troughs lined the stone wall, soft green against silver.</p><p>Maryanne appeared with lemonade. &#8220;Looks like somewhere I&#8217;d want to stay awhile,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Riley stood back, brushing dirt from her palms. &#8220;That&#8217;s the idea.&#8221;</p><p>The breeze shifted, carrying the scent of mint through the open doorway.</p><p>Inside, chairs scraped against tile. The day crowd would come soon, but for now, it was just them. The ones who got to see it first.</p><h4>3&#65039;&#8419; <strong>The Recipe That Remembers</strong></h4><p>The kitchen filled with a kind of music. Metal spoons on bowls, oil hitting hot pans, the low hum of voices that knew how to work together.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni stood beside her grandmother, who rolled dough with a steady rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;Food tastes different when it knows your story,&#8221; she said without looking up.</p><p>Riley leaned against the counter, notebook forgotten. She watched their hands, measured, patient, sure.</p><p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t really use recipes, do you?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>Navari smiled. &#8220;Memory is the recipe.&#8221;</p><p>Raven sprinkled roasted corn across a sheet pan. &#8220;She&#8217;s right. You don&#8217;t learn it, you feel it.&#8221;</p><p>Riley nodded. &#8220;That&#8217;s how I design. You build with memory, not measurements.&#8221;</p><p>Jack peeked in from the hallway, arms crossed, smiling. &#8220;I should&#8217;ve hired a poet.&#8221;</p><p>Maryanne swatted his shoulder. &#8220;You did. You just call her an architect.&#8221;</p><p>Laughter rippled through the kitchen, but it quieted into something else. A shared stillness that felt like reverence.</p><p>The scent of corn and warm dough rose around them, and Riley thought, <em>This is what it means to belong in the making of something.</em></p><p>Outside, the patio waited, the herbs catching afternoon light.</p><p>Inside, the room breathed as one.</p><h4>4&#65039;&#8419; <strong>A Place That Holds You</strong></h4><p>The patio was finished.</p><p>Ramada complete. Lights strung. Tables set. The herb troughs shimmered silver under the first light of day.</p><p>Riley arrived early, coffee in hand, the key still warm from her pocket.</p><p>She walked the perimeter like she had that first morning, but this time the air felt different, settled, expectant.</p><p>She chose a table near the wall, the one angled perfectly for conversation.</p><p>The kind of table her father would have lingered at, sketching plans on napkins.</p><p>Maryanne stepped outside, wiping her hands on a towel. &#8220;You came before the crowd again.&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled. &#8220;I like the quiet. It&#8217;s the only time you can feel what you built.&#8221;</p><p>Maryanne nodded. &#8220;You gave us a place that holds people.&#8221;</p><p>Riley looked around at the empty chairs and thought about all the hands that had shaped them. Contractors she knew she&#8217;d see again, Val&#8217;s soil-streaked, Raven&#8217;s flour-dusted, her own worn from years of designing spaces for everyone but herself.</p><p>A hummingbird darted between the planters, quick as breath.</p><p>She whispered, &#8220;A place that holds you,&#8221; and knew her father would&#8217;ve approved.</p><p>Inside, the first sound of dishes began, the start of the day. Maryann paused before going back in, a little shade of worry covered her face. &#8220;There&#8217;s more to come, Riley.&#8221;</p><p>5&#65039;&#8419; <strong>The Soft Opening - Come Inside</strong></p><p>The Canyon Caf&#233; glowed under the desert twilight.</p><p>The doors were still locked to the public, but inside, Jack and Maryanne had set the tables for twelve.</p><p>&#8220;Just family,&#8221; Maryanne said. &#8220;The ones who helped us build it.&#8221;</p><p>The gang arrived one by one. Raven, Navira and Shik&#225;ni carrying bread warm from the oven, Val with herbs clipped fresh from the troughs, Skylar balancing a tray of glasses, Quinn trailing behind with her camera.</p><p>The evening unfolded without fanfare.</p><p>No ribbon, no speeches. Just the easy clink of forks and the hum of conversation that fills a room when everyone already knows each other&#8217;s stories.</p><p>Riley watched from the edge for a moment, taking it in. The glow of the patio lights, the smell of frybread, the way laughter curled into the corners.</p><p>Maryanne came over in the quiet space. &#8220;Riley, I didn&#8217;t mean to say anything to you earlier. I don&#8217;t want you to think there&#8217;s anything to worry about.&#8221; Jack approached them, unknowingly cutting off his wife.</p><p>He pulled Maryanne in with his arm around her shoulder and looked into Riley&#8217;s eyes. &#8220;You made this happen.&#8221;</p><p>Riley shook her head. &#8220;We did.&#8221;</p><p>Later, as plates emptied and the sky deepened to indigo, Maryanne raised her glass.</p><p>&#8220;To the builders, the planters, the storytellers.</p><p>And to the ones who stayed long enough to see it come alive.&#8221;</p><p>For a heartbeat, the room was quiet.</p><p>Then someone laughed, someone sighed, and Riley thought, This is what inside feels like.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come Inside!&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" 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flowers. Instead, they uncovered a buried story, a forgotten promise, and the kind of friendship that changes a neighborhood. Each piece this week invites you to imagine how an ordinary patch of dirt can become sacred ground.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg" width="736" height="416" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/eedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:416,&quot;width&quot;:736,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:471608,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/177206687?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Day They Said Yes&#8221;</strong></p><p>Margaret stared at the strip of dirt between the women&#8217;s shelter and the chain-link fence. Weeds choked the ground; broken glass glittered in the sun. The fence sagged in places, offering zero privacy from the street.</p><p>&#8220;We could make this beautiful,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Her friend Linda snorted. &#8220;We&#8217;re seventy-two, Margaret. My knees creak when I stand up.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;So we&#8217;ll bring chairs.&#8221; Margaret scrolled through photos of climbing vines and latticework. &#8220;The shelter director said they&#8217;d love a garden. The kids have nowhere to play outside. The mothers feel exposed every time they step out the door.&#8221;</p><p>By Friday, they had five members and a plan. Rose brought her late husband&#8217;s tools. Patricia had seeds saved for years. Doris showed up with a pickup nobody knew she owned, bed loaded with cedar posts.</p><p>&#8220;For the new fence sections,&#8221; she said. &#8220;My nephew works construction. He donated materials and will help us install them.&#8221;</p><p>Margaret looked at the sad strip of earth. &#8220;We&#8217;re not just planting flowers. We&#8217;re planting safety.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And hope,&#8221; Rose added quietly.</p><p>&#8220;When do we start?&#8221; Doris asked.</p><p>Margaret grinned. &#8220;How about now?&#8221;</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Box Beneath the Roots&#8221;</strong></p><p>Week three, and the fence was taking shape. Cedar posts stood tall, waiting for the lattice panels. Patricia dug near the back corner, preparing a bed for climbing jasmine that would one day create a living privacy screen.</p><p>Her shovel hit something solid.</p><p>&#8220;Probably a rock,&#8221; Linda said, wiping sweat from her forehead.</p><p>But it wasn&#8217;t a rock. It was a metal box, rusted shut. About the size of a shoebox.</p><p>Rose grabbed a crowbar from Doris&#8217;s truck. The box opened with a screech that made them all wince.</p><p>Inside: old photographs, yellowed letters tied with ribbon, and a wedding ring with a small diamond that caught the light.</p><p>Margaret picked up a photo. A young couple, arms around each other, laughing. &#8220;Look at the back. &#8216;Love always, Thomas and Helen, 1952.&#8217;&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Someone lost their whole story,&#8221; Patricia whispered.</p><p>They stood in silence, five women holding someone else&#8217;s memories, aware that the shelter residents nearby understood loss in ways they probably didn&#8217;t.</p><p>&#8220;We find who this belongs to,&#8221; Margaret said.</p><p>The others nodded. Some things are too precious to leave buried.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Post That Changed Everything&#8221;</strong></p><p>Linda discovered Facebook was good for more than cat videos and arguments about politics.</p><p>She photographed the items carefully, posted them to local history groups:</p><p>&#8220;Found buried near Oak Street Women&#8217;s Shelter, 1952. Anyone recognize this couple?&#8221;</p><p>By noon, sixty shares.</p><p>By dinner, a woman named Carol commented: &#8220;That&#8217;s my parents. They lived in that house before it became a shelter. In the fifties.&#8221;</p><p>Patricia&#8217;s hands shook as she dialed the number Carol provided.</p><p>&#8220;Your mother&#8217;s wedding ring is here,&#8221; she said. &#8220;And love letters. About forty of them.&#8221;</p><p>Silence on the other end. Then soft crying.</p><p>&#8220;Mom died last year,&#8221; Carol said. &#8220;Dad&#8217;s in memory care now. He has Alzheimer&#8217;s. He talks about losing that ring every day. Says he failed her.&#8221;</p><p>Rose leaned in close to the phone. &#8220;Not anymore, honey. Tell him he protected it. He kept it safe all these years. It was just waiting for the right time to come home.&#8221;</p><p>More silence. Then: &#8220;Can I bring him to see where you found it?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Absolutely,&#8221; Margaret said. &#8220;And bring him to see what we&#8217;re building here.&#8221;</p><p>4&#65039;&#8419;<strong> &#8220;The Man Who Remembered&#8221;</strong></p><p>They met Carol and Frank at the shelter on Saturday morning. The garden was taking shape now. New fence sections were up, morning glories already beginning their climb.</p><p>Frank moved slowly with his walker, Carol steadying his elbow. He looked fragile and confused, his eyes distant and vacant.</p><p>Margaret knelt beside him as he sat on the new bench Doris&#8217;s nephew had built. &#8220;Frank? We found something that belongs to you.&#8221;</p><p>She opened her hand. The ring caught the morning sun, scattering tiny rainbows across the dirt.</p><p>Frank&#8217;s eyes sharpened. His fingers trembled as he took it, turning it over and over.</p><p>&#8220;Helen,&#8221; he whispered. &#8220;I lost Helen&#8217;s ring. I was supposed to keep it safe.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You did,&#8221; Carol said through tears. &#8220;You buried it so it wouldn&#8217;t be lost. You were protecting it, Dad. You kept your promise.&#8221;</p><p>Frank looked up at the shelter, at the fence, at the women covered in dirt and hope.</p><p>&#8220;She would have liked this,&#8221; he said clearly. &#8220;Helen always said a garden could heal anything.&#8221;</p><p>He smiled. First time in months, Carol would tell them later.</p><p>&#8220;I kept my promise,&#8221; he said.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Garden That Remembered&#8221;</strong></p><p>Word spread through the neighborhood like wildflowers.</p><p>The garden drew donations: more lattice for privacy, shade trees, a small fountain that burbled softly. Someone planted climbing roses that would one day cover the fence, creating a living wall, and another donated motion-sensor lights.</p><p>Frank visited weekly with Carol, sitting among the flowers, telling stories about Helen to anyone who&#8217;d listen&#8212;shelter residents, their children, other volunteers.</p><p>The five original women kept gardening, but they weren&#8217;t alone anymore. Teenagers earning community service hours. A veteran who found peace in the early morning watering. Mothers from the shelter whose children now played safely, hidden from the street, protected by cedar, vine, and the watchful eyes of women who knew what sanctuary meant.</p><p>Margaret looked around one Saturday, dirt under her nails, back aching, heart impossibly full. A little girl laughed, chasing a butterfly between the tomato plants.</p><p>&#8220;We were just going to plant flowers,&#8221; Linda said softly.</p><p>&#8220;We planted something better,&#8221; Margaret replied. &#8220;We planted a place where people can remember they&#8217;re not just surviving. They&#8217;re living.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;We planted hope,&#8221; Rose added.</p><p>And watching from his bench, Frank smiled.</p><p>&#127802; They called it a garden. But it became something larger. A place that remembered every hand that helped it grow. This week&#8217;s story was one patch of earth in a much wider landscape. There are more. And they&#8217;re still blooming.</p><div class="pullquote"><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption"><strong>Knowing Yourself Through Fiction</strong> is where every story is a mirror, and every heroine shows us what&#8217;s still possible.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Is It Time to Set the Table Again? ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Not because you know who&#8217;ll come&#8212;but because you want to believe someone might.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/is-it-time-to-set-the-table-again</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/is-it-time-to-set-the-table-again</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 18 Oct 2025 23:29:23 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!UUAY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F07aaa18a-417d-4b28-96c6-0fe2dc9780e3_736x416.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Just six chairs and a hope.</p><p>Riley and Ben didn&#8217;t call it a potluck. It wasn&#8217;t a reunion. It was a gentle experiment: What would happen if they made space every week for something that looked like belonging?</p><p>And one by one, the women showed up. Some with food, some with stories, some with nothing but the ache of being missed. Together they filled the seats&#8212;and the silences&#8212;with what they didn&#8217;t know they&#8217;d been craving.</p><p>This week&#8217;s stories aren&#8217;t about grand confessions or dramatic gestures. They&#8217;re about showing up with store-bought rolls and mismatched chairs, sitting down anyway, and letting the pie be crooked. They&#8217;re about finding your place even if it wobbles a little.</p><p>Maybe your table&#8217;s been empty lately. Or maybe it&#8217;s been full, but missing something quieter. A pause. A joke. A second glass of lemonade.</p><p>What if it didn&#8217;t have to be perfect?</p><p>What if it just had to be shared?</p><p>Pull up a chair. There&#8217;s still room.</p><h4>1&#65039;&#8419; The Invite Wasn&#8217;t a Command. But It Felt Like One</h4><p>Riley had arranged the napkins three times. Folded. Unfolded. Diagonal. Then square again.</p><p>&#8220;This isn&#8217;t a restaurant,&#8221; Ben said gently.</p><p>She gave a tight smile. &#8220;I know.&#8221;</p><p>But she didn&#8217;t stop.</p><p>The table was too big for two, too hopeful for an ordinary Sunday.</p><p>Six chairs. Three candles. A vase of garden basil, already wilting.</p><p>Ben brought out the bread and set it down quietly. &#8220;Should we&#8217;ve called it a potluck?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No,&#8221; Riley said. &#8220;It had to be a dinner. A real one. The kind I&#8217;ve missed for too long. Since I lived with my father.&#8221;</p><p>When the knock came, she nearly dropped the forks.</p><p>Val stood in the doorway, holding a plastic grocery bag. &#8220;I brought rolls. Don&#8217;t judge me.&#8221;</p><p>Ben grinned. &#8220;Store-bought counts.&#8221;</p><p>Val stepped onto the veranda and eyed the setup. &#8220;I&#8217;m just here early to pick my chair.&#8221; She took the seat to Riley&#8217;s left, the one with the better view into the garden, flickering with fairy lights.</p><p>They had just started to pass the olives when familiar boots sounded from the steps. No bag this time. Just Raven, in her faded denim shirt and that way she had of looking like she knew what this was all about.</p><p>&#8220;You asked,&#8221; she said. &#8220;So I came.&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled and nodded, hesitating before moving in to hug her. This time, Raven did not resist. </p><p>Ben welcomed his cousin and guided her to a chair next to Val. Val poured the wine. The candles flickered once, then held.</p><p>And in the space of three bites, the canyon whispered to those listening. &#8216;The other chairs will not be empty for long.&#8217;</p><h4>2&#65039;&#8419; She Almost Didn&#8217;t Go</h4><p>Skylar wasn&#8217;t avoiding the dinner. She just hadn&#8217;t said yes.<br>The invite sat on her counter beside a stack of unread mail. It wasn&#8217;t formal. Just a message from Riley: Sunday. Real food. No excuses.<br><br>She&#8217;d stared at it all morning, arms crossed, mentally cycling through reasons to stay home.<br>Her back hurt. She hadn&#8217;t cooked in a while. It was probably one of those touchy-feely things.<br><br>She opened the fridge, closed it again.<br>Then spotted the blue-striped apron hanging from the pantry door.<br>It still had a faded sauce stain across the front. Years ago, she&#8217;d worn it while running a pop-up kitchen for displaced elders&#8212;comfort food on a card table, mashed potatoes served with dignity.<br><br>Skylar reached for the apron like a dare. What the heck she muttered. Jim&#8217;s away. Why not?<br>Then, I pulled out the cast iron and began to cook.<br><br>She arrived twenty minutes late, arms full. A casserole in one hand, a glass bowl of coleslaw in the other, warm rolls wedged under her elbow.<br>Ben opened the door and blinked. &#8220;You brought five sides?&#8221;<br>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t want to come empty-handed.&#8221; She said it like a joke, but her eyes searched the table.<br><br>Raven scooted over. Val stood to help.<br>Riley offered the chair nearest the candles.<br><br>Skylar hesitated, then sat.<br>The chair creaked a little. But it held.</p><h4>3&#65039;&#8419; No One Knew</h4><p>Quinn sat in her truck, engine off, hands on the wheel. She had just gotten back to town from Hawaii. No one knew she was coming.</p><p>Through the windshield, she could see shadows flickering on the veranda, laughter, candlelight, and the shape of people leaning in.<br><br>She didn&#8217;t dislike gatherings. She disliked being expected to come. That&#8217;s why she didn&#8217;t tell. Not even Riley. <br><br>Somehow she knew they would all be there. It was Sunday. The day Riley&#8217;s family always had dinner.</p><p>Now, parked at the edge of the trees, she watched the dinner from a safe distance, the same way she&#8217;d once watched Fourth of July fireworks from her roof instead of joining the neighbors.<br><br>She reached for the door. Didn&#8217;t open it.<br><br>A laugh rang out. Skylar&#8217;s surprisingly warm.<br>Then Riley&#8217;s voice rose: &#8220;You&#8217;re not missing dessert, Quinn!&#8221;<br><br>She smiled. Of course, Riley knew she was there. Of course, she was going to call her bluff.<br><br>Quinn finally stepped out, adjusted her scarf, and took her time walking up the path.<br><br>When she reached the gate, no one stared.<br>Ben gave a nod. Val waved her fork in greeting.<br>Raven pulled out the last chair. An old patio rocker that didn&#8217;t match the rest.<br><br>Quinn sat down. The rocker leaned but didn&#8217;t tip. Riley handed her a drink and gave her a wink. <br>And for a minute, no one said a word.<br><br>She liked that.</p><h4>4&#65039;&#8419; Finding What Matters</h4><p>The wind rose just as Ben lit the citronella candle.</p><p>The flame bent sideways, then steadied again.</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s napkin took flight, landing squarely in her wine.</p><p>She fished it out, wrung it over the railing. &#8220;Adds body,&#8221; she said, and the laughter that followed loosened the edges of the night.</p><p>Plates were pushed aside, forks stacked like small truce flags.</p><p>It was the hour when the conversation got slower, deeper and truths crept in sideways.</p><p>Val swirled the candlelight in her glass.</p><p>&#8220;When I imagined this chapter of life,&#8221; she said, &#8220;I thought I&#8217;d be&#8230; more certain. That I&#8217;d finally know what mattered.&#8221;</p><p>Raven looked over, quiet but steady.</p><p>Riley reached for the basil centerpiece, brushing her fingers through the leaves. &#8220;You taught me how to grow these,&#8221; she said softly.</p><p>Val smiled. &#8220;I did, didn&#8217;t I?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn leaned back in her chair. &#8220;You also taught me to stop overwatering everything.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Except your jokes,&#8221; Ben muttered, and they all laughed.</p><p>Raven nodded toward Val. &#8220;And you got back on a horse this year. That counts for something.&#8221;</p><p>Val felt her face warm. &#8220;Maybe it does.&#8221;</p><p>The wind caught again, rustling through the lanterns.</p><p>Skylar refilled Val&#8217;s glass without asking.</p><p>Val looked around the table. Their mismatched faces in the glow of candlelight, the hum of friendship still new but real.</p><p>&#8220;I guess you&#8217;re right,&#8221; she said, &#8220;I just didn&#8217;t notice I&#8217;d already found what I was looking for.&#8221;</p><p>The candle flared, and blew out.</p><p>The canyon said good night,</p><p>but no one got up to leave.</p><p>5&#65039;&#8419; <strong>To what isn&#8217;t perfect</strong></p><p>Riley brought out a blueberry pie.<br>It had cracked in the middle. The crust drooped on one side.<br><br>She set it down and sighed. &#8220;It&#8217;s crooked.&#8221;<br><br>Quinn leaned forward, elbow on the table.<br>&#8220;So are we,&#8221; she said, slicing the air with her fork. &#8220;That&#8217;s why it fits.&#8221;<br><br>Riley smiled, but her eyes misted.<br>She&#8217;d made this pie every year with her mother. Years had passed and this was the first time without her.<br><br>Val reached for the pie cutter. &#8220;I say we eat the broken side first. Give the rest a chance to settle.&#8221;<br>Skylar passed clean plates without comment.<br>Raven poured what was left of the wine.<br><br>Ben cut six slices.<br>Quinn took the first one, crooked and warm, and lifted her fork like a toast.<br>&#8220;To what isn&#8217;t perfect,&#8221; she said.<br>&#8220;And why it doesn&#8217;t matter,&#8221; Skylar added softly.<br><br>No one reached for their phone.<br>No one looked at the clock.<br><br>And no one left early.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#129681;&#129383;&#128682;</p><p>No one tried to fix the empty spaces.</p><p>They just showed up with store-bought rolls and mismatched chairs, sat down anyway, and let the pie be crooked.</p><p>By the time dessert was gone, something softer had settled among them.</p><p>The quiet kind of knowing you can stay a little longer.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe 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fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>What begins as a tucked-away envelope becomes a key. This week, Riley found a letter she had written to Marisol on a winter night in Vermont and never mailed. It was not a manifesto. It was a half-formed truth about leaving, fear, and the air she needed to breathe. Finding it now loosened something the whole circle could feel.</p><p>As Riley&#8217;s story unfolded, each of her friends shared the times when dreams began to take hold of the daylight.</p><p>Rewriting, it turns out, does not erase. It reveals. It widens margins on each page. It lets what was unsaid finally stand in daylight and ask, kindly, what comes next.</p><h3>The Letter She Never Sent, Waited</h3><p>Riley found the envelope wedged in the back of her desk drawer, its edges yellowed, the flap unsealed. Her handwriting, steady and sure, spelled out Marisol. She remembered every line before she unfolded it. Words written on a night when the snow pressed against the windows and the house felt so small, a belt tightened around her.</p><p>The letter was not logistics. It was not a list of reasons. It was the truth she could not say to Marisol&#8217;s face. That the winters had soaked into her bones. That standing still felt louder than the wind. That leaving Vermont might be the only way to hear her own voice again.</p><p>She had planned to stop at the studio with hot coffee and goodbye. She had told herself she would. But when the morning came, fear got there first. Quinn&#8217;s place in Hawaii was a bridge to something new. The letter was supposed to be the apology left behind. The letter never reached Marisol&#8217;s hands.</p><p>The canyon breeze lifted the edge of the paper, as if the past was breathing. Riley pressed it flat and whispered, &#8220;I see it now.&#8221;</p><p>Some stories do not end. They wait. And sometimes they ask you to speak the part you swallowed.</p><p><strong>Read Between Lines That Were Never Written</strong></p><p>Quinn leaned forward, elbows on the table. &#8220;You came straight to Hawaii after that. Do you remember?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;How could I not?&#8221; Riley gave a wry smile. &#8220;I arrived at your house pretending I was fine. You poke bowl, like it was any other Tuesday. You didn&#8217;t ask questions.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t have to,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;Your silence was louder than your words. I knew there was someone you hadn&#8217;t said goodbye to.&#8221;</p><p>Riley looked at her, startled. &#8220;You knew?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Of course.&#8221; Quinn shrugged, smoothing the sleeve of her blouse. &#8220;I&#8217;ve made a career out of reading between lines. You didn&#8217;t need to tell me there was a letter. I could hear it in the way you avoided saying Marisol&#8217;s name.&#8221;</p><p>Riley pressed her palms flat against the table. &#8220;Why didn&#8217;t you ever bring it up?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn smiled, small and sad. &#8220;Because patience has its own kind of love. I figured one day you&#8217;d be ready. And here we are.&#8221;</p><p><strong>Sketches Breathing Again in Sunlight</strong></p><p>The box under Val&#8217;s bed wasn&#8217;t labeled, but she knew its weight. She slid it out and lifted the lid, releasing the faint scent of old paper. Inside lay stacks of her drawings: desert marigolds with petals so detailed you could feel the ridges, oak leaves shaded in green pencil, the anatomy of a dahlia blossom sketched from memory.</p><p>She had filled sketchbooks once, during evenings when the world quieted. She told herself it was practice, cataloging plants, capturing their form. But it was more. It was how she stayed tethered to beauty while life demanded so much else.</p><p>For years, she had thought the drawings were just a hobby, nothing serious. Yet here, spread across her bed, they looked like a record of devotion. A garden that had grown only on paper.</p><p>Val traced the edge of one sketch: a wildflower she remembered finding by the roadside decades ago. Its delicate form reminded her that not everything had to last forever to matter.</p><p>The question wasn&#8217;t whether she could draw again.</p><p>It was whether she was ready to let those quiet hours bloom once more.</p><p><strong>The Heritage Garden She Always Imagined</strong></p><p>Skylar leaned on the shovel, sweat beading at her temples. The neighbors shook their heads when they passed. &#8220;At her age? Too ambitious,&#8221; they whispered.</p><p>But Skylar knew this wasn&#8217;t about age. This was about time, finally hers.</p><p>For years, travel had kept her moving, her passport her garden. She collected not seeds but notebooks filled with notes and photographs of gardens she loved: cloistered courtyards in Spain, formal alleys in France, desert oases in Morocco. She&#8217;d promised herself, one day, she&#8217;d gather all those impressions into something of her own.</p><p>Now the beds curved with intention, echoing a monastery&#8217;s symmetry. Terracotta pots lined a path toward a carved wooden gate. Lavender filled the air, just as it had when she first fell in love with Provence.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t just a garden. It was a memory made solid. A heritage of everywhere she&#8217;d been, translated into soil and stone.</p><p>She pressed her palm into the earth and smiled.</p><p>This wasn&#8217;t indulgence. It was arrival.</p><p><strong>What If?</strong></p><p>The plane lurched, and Raven steadied herself against the window. Below, a blur of desert gave way to city sprawl. Another ranch, another rancher, another hotel where her boots felt out of place.</p><p>She had once loved the rhythm of travel. The way airports hummed, the chance to work in new places, the feeling of being sought after. But lately, the hum had turned to static. The canyon tugged at her in the silence between events.</p><p>In her notebook, she had scribbled ideas for the training facility she&#8217;d dreamed of building at home: apprenticeships, cultural exchange, a place where horses taught more than humans demanded. The vision grew sharper each time she sketched it.</p><p>The thought startled her. Maybe it was time to stop moving outward, and let the world come to her.</p><p>Raven closed her eyes as the plane droned on.</p><p>The real question wasn&#8217;t whether she could keep traveling.</p><p>It was whether she still wanted to.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>If there is a sentence you never spoke, a note you never sent, a plan you shelved because life was louder, consider this your gentle nudge. The page is still here. The pen still works. If you rewrote one small line of your story this week, where would you begin?</p></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/e2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16254,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/175982604?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="pullquote"><p>The stories we bury don&#8217;t die. They wait.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s unsent letter wasn&#8217;t about leaving. It was about what she feared staying for.</p><p>What have you tucked away&#8212;under receipts, under years&#8212;that still wants to speak?</p><p>That&#8217;s the conversation we&#8217;re opening here.</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe Today &#128394;&#65039;&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Subscribe Today &#128394;&#65039;</span></a></p><p></p><p></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Why Did I Stop Dreaming?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Stories of women who dared to ask again.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/why-did-i-stop-dreaming</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/why-did-i-stop-dreaming</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 19 Sep 2025 12:01:23 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Somewhere along the way, many of us stop dreaming. We tell ourselves it&#8217;s too late, or too impractical, or that we should be satisfied with what we have. Dreams feel like a luxury meant for someone younger, someone freer, someone else.</p><p>But what happens when we let the question back in?</p><p>This week in Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction, the women of the canyon discovered what surfaces when you linger with that question. Around tables, in gardens, in quiet moments, they found themselves drawn toward long-buried desires and surprising wants. What began as hesitation turned into confession. What felt lost began to stir again.</p><p>Dreaming, they realized, isn&#8217;t about age or timing. It&#8217;s about aliveness.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" width="740" height="765" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:765,&quot;width&quot;:740,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:1118128,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F4b98e034-7232-431f-8b14-ffdf1887b361_750x1624.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>Sunday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>Dreams Don&#8217;t Expire, They Wait</strong></em></p><p>Riley leaned against the veranda rail, moonlight brushing the canyon walls. She thought about Vermont, about the sketches rolled in cardboard tubes under her bed. Designs she never built, ideas she shelved with the excuse that they were &#8220;impractical.&#8221;</p><p>But here, in the desert hush, she wondered: were they really impractical, or just unfinished?</p><p>She opened her journal, the one that still smelled faintly of cedar. A page from years ago caught her eye. A greenhouse with soaring glass, framed by stone arches. She traced the lines with her finger, almost tenderly.</p><p>It startled her, how much it still tugged. The dream hadn&#8217;t died. It had only waited.</p><p>Riley closed the book, exhaling slowly. &#8220;What else have I hidden from myself?&#8221; she whispered.</p><p>The night didn&#8217;t answer, but the sketch felt alive again, as if daring her to return.</p><p>This wasn&#8217;t nostalgia. It was a beginning waiting to be named. Tomorrow she thought. I&#8217;ll think about the question again.</p><p><strong>Monday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>She Realized She&#8217;d Stopped Imagining</strong></em></p><p>Quinn set down her coffee, staring at the canyon rim. For decades, her life was measured in schedules, border reports, and classified memos. Homeland Security demanded precision, not possibility.</p><p>Now, retired, she caught herself thinking only in errands. Groceries. Bills. A dentist appointment in Sab&#225;ka. She frowned. When had her mind stopped wandering?</p><p>Riley joined her, barefoot, a sketchbook under her arm. Quinn tilted her head. &#8220;Do you ever just&#8230; imagine something wild? Something pointless?&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled gently. &#8220;Last night, actually.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn laughed, short and uneasy. &#8220;I can&#8217;t remember the last time I did. My whole career was built on anticipating threats, not daydreams. Somewhere along the way, I forgot how to dream.&#8221;</p><p>The admission sat heavy but freeing in the morning air.</p><p>&#8220;Then start small,&#8221; Riley said. &#8220;Don&#8217;t build a fortress. Build a doorway.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn looked back at the horizon. A doorway, not a wall. She could almost see it.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t loss she felt&#8212;it was space. And space begged to be filled.</p><p><strong>Tuesday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>One Wish, Spoken Out Loud</strong></em></p><p>Dinner plates clinked, laughter softening into a lull. Raven leaned forward, elbows on the table. &#8220;All right,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Let&#8217;s be brave. Name one thing you still want. Not what you&#8217;ve done. Not what you&#8217;ve given. What you still want.&#8221;</p><p>The table went quiet.</p><p>Val shifted. Quinn cleared her throat. Skylar reached for her glass.</p><p>Finally, Riley said, &#8220;A greenhouse. One that&#8217;s mine.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn added, &#8220;To travel without duty attached. Just for me.&#8221;</p><p>Val whispered, &#8220;To feel wanted.&#8221;</p><p>The words seemed to loosen something in the air.</p><p>Skylar spoke without making eye contact. &#8220;To not be afraid.&#8221;</p><p>Then all eyes turned to Raven. She smirked, but her voice softened. &#8220;I want to fall in love again.&#8221;</p><p>A hush followed&#8212;not shock, but recognition.</p><p>The circle felt different now, like a flame had been lit in the middle.</p><p>Raven raised her glass. &#8220;There. I said it.&#8221;</p><p>And once one wish was spoken, the others couldn&#8217;t stay hidden for long.</p><p><strong>Wednesday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>What If Wanting Was Enough?</strong></em></p><p>Val sat on the stone bench, twilight painting the garden silver. She&#8217;d spent years pretending her life was full. Volunteering, nursing, helping others. But inside, there was a hollow shaped exactly like desire.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve always told myself wanting was selfish,&#8221; she admitted. Skylar sat beside her, listening. &#8220;Even when I wanted something small, like more laughter, more touch. I&#8217;d bury it under being sensible.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar reached for her hand. &#8220;Maybe wanting is sensible. Maybe it&#8217;s how you find what&#8217;s real.&#8221;</p><p>Val blinked back sudden tears. She&#8217;d never said it out loud before. Not like this.</p><p>The garden smelled of rosemary and earth. The lamps flickered as if they understood.</p><p>&#8220;What if wanting is enough?&#8221; Val asked softly, more to herself than to anyone else.</p><p>Skylar squeezed her hand. &#8220;Then I hope you never stop.&#8221;</p><p>The air shifted, as if her admission had opened a door. And tomorrow, Val would walk through with her own story.</p><p><strong>Thursday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>The Dream She Almost Forgot to Claim</strong></em></p><p>Skylar crouched by the fountain she&#8217;d coaxed from stone, her palms wet with its cool spray. The garden stretched around her. Arches of bougainvillea, desert willows trained like sculptures, pots bursting with improbable color.</p><p>&#8220;This was my gallery,&#8221; she told Val, who lingered with her. &#8220;Not with paintings or clay, but with living things. I dreamed of it for years but told myself it was foolish. Too expensive. Too indulgent.&#8221;</p><p>She laughed, shaking droplets from her hands. &#8220;And then one day, I decided indulgence was exactly what I needed.&#8221;</p><p>Val gazed at the lanterns, at the sheer audacity of beauty carved from desert rock. &#8220;It&#8217;s extraordinary.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s eyes softened. &#8220;It&#8217;s me. Every piece of it. And I almost let the dream wither.&#8221;</p><p>They sat together, listening to the trickle of water, the steady pulse of a dream brought to life.</p><p>Dreams don&#8217;t always roar. Sometimes they bloom, quietly, waiting for you to notice. And this week, the circle had begun to notice again.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg" width="204" height="45" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:45,&quot;width&quot;:204,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:3394,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="pullquote"><p>Maybe you&#8217;ve had a dream you told yourself was finished. But what if it wasn&#8217;t gone, only waiting? This was one week in Echo Canyon. The next thread is already tugging at the edge.</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16254,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Those Who are Last to Leave—and Love It]]></title><description><![CDATA[Seven stories of women who stayed a little longer&#8212;and found what mattered most.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-are-last-to-leaveand-love</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-are-last-to-leaveand-love</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 14 Sep 2025 12:02:16 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/34d35796-e37e-4a80-863c-0c60a4ad8ce3_500x500.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There&#8217;s something about the moment after the crowd thins. The music fades, chairs scrape, and most people hurry home. But for a few who linger, the air shifts. Conversations deepen, laughter rings truer, and sometimes a new beginning sneaks in through the quiet.</p><p>This week&#8217;s Dose of Fiction follows Skylar, Quinn, Raven, Val, Riley&#8212;and even Ben&#8212;through those in-between minutes. From a half-empty library to a broom-swept dance floor, from the hush of a garden bench to the gold light of the canyon, these are the stories of being &#8220;the last to leave,&#8221; and loving every second of it.</p><p>Each story ends where another one begins, weaving into a circle that holds friendship, discovery, and hope. By the time you reach the final night at Raven&#8217;s ranch, you may find yourself wishing the lights never went out.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173537262?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>Day 1 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>When the Meeting Ends, the Story Begins</h2><p>The library smelled like paper and cinnamon tea. Folding chairs scraped, goodbyes floated, and the circle thinned to two. Skylar stacked paperbacks while Quinn reshelved a stack with sure hands.</p><p>&#8220;Your archaeology years,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;When did you write? Between flights?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Airport floors,&#8221; Skylar laughed. &#8220;And hotel bathtubs, rickety bus seats, notebook on my knees.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn&#8217;s smile was soft and curious. &#8220;I keep telling myself there&#8217;s a next chapter. I just don&#8217;t know the first sentence.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar tipped her head toward the quiet stacks. &#8220;Sometimes it begins when the room empties.&#8221;</p><p>They walked the aisles slowly, reading spines like old friends. The librarian waved from the desk, lights a little dimmer now.</p><p>&#8220;Tell me one thing you loved that had nothing to do with duty,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>Quinn looked at a worn map of Vermont taped to a shelf. &#8220;Mornings at the border when fog wrapped the pines. I felt awake there.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Then we start with awake,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>They reached the door, but neither touched it.</p><p>The best part of book club had arrived, finally.</p><p>This was where the real story started. There was more on the next shelf.</p><p><strong>Day 2 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>The Last Dance Wasn&#8217;t on the Playlist<br></h2><p>The string lights blinked tiredly, but the wooden floor still felt alive. Volunteers swept in long swishes. Raven took a broom, spun it once, and Val snorted with laughter.</p><p>&#8220;Partner with good posture,&#8221; Raven said, hand to the broom&#8217;s imaginary waist.</p><p>Val slipped off her shoes. &#8220;I only dance with those who can keep time.&#8221;</p><p>They glided across the floor, bristles whispering like silk. A teenager collecting cups stopped to watch. &#8220;You two look like queens,&#8221; she said.</p><p>&#8220;Queens who know how to close a night,&#8221; Val answered.</p><p>Raven&#8217;s smile tilted. &#8220;Remember when we left early because we worried about being in the way?&#8221;</p><p>Val nudged her. &#8220;We were never in the way. We were the way.&#8221;</p><p>The last song lingered, the brooms made little crescents of sawdust that looked like moons.</p><p>&#8220;Next week?&#8221; the teen asked.</p><p>&#8220;If there is a floor and a broom,&#8221; Raven said, &#8220;there is a dance.&#8221;</p><p>They bowed to their bristled partners.</p><p>Sometimes the encore happens after the applause. Tomorrow would prove it.</p><p><strong>Day 3 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>What Starlight Reveals When You Stay<br></h2><p>Solar lanterns winked along the path, rays of sun spread wide on the ground. The laughter from the party had trailed off an hour ago. She used to leave with the crowd. Tonight she stalled, alone on the path connecting the cul-de-sac neighbors.</p><p>Ben&#8217;s fire pit sent up a new ribbon of smoke with sparks seeking the air. His porch light clicked on, then off, then on again. Riley stood, curiosity tugging her toward the low fence.</p><p>&#8220;You out here, Riley?&#8221; Ben&#8217;s voice, warm as a setting sun.</p><p>&#8220;I am,&#8221; she called. &#8220;Coyote patrol.&#8221;</p><p>He chuckled. &#8220;They&#8217;re stubborn. Kind of like me.&#8221;</p><p>They met at the fence line. The desert air held a hint of mint from someone&#8217;s crushed herb.</p><p>&#8220;Do you ever wish the party lasted longer?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>&#8220;I like when it gets quiet enough to hear what I have been thinking,&#8221; Ben said.</p><p>Riley looked at the ember glow. She thought of all the times she had packed up early to avoid being seen leaving alone. Yet here was company, precisely because she stayed.</p><p>&#8220;Coffee tomorrow?&#8221; Ben asked.</p><p>Riley smiled and nodded.</p><p>She would handle the aloneness until tomorrow.</p><p><strong>Day 4 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>The Golden Hour Belongs to those who stay<br></h2><p>The group photo was a blur of hats and sun. Trucks rumbled away one by one, tires crunching gravel. Skylar rolled her shoulders and slowed. Riley noticed. She eased back until their steps matched.</p><p>&#8220;You good?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Good enough,&#8221; Skylar said, breath steady but careful.</p><p>Ben waited under the juniper. Val and Raven saw the pause and drifted back. The canyon&#8217;s golden hour was arriving, cliffs taking on honey.</p><p>&#8220;Look at that,&#8221; Quinn said, pointing where light braided through a narrow cut.</p><p>They stood together, six figures in a pocket of quiet while the last engine faded on the road.</p><p>&#8220;I used to push to keep up,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;Now I ask the canyon to keep pace with me.&#8221;</p><p>Ben tapped his hat brim. &#8220;It just did.&#8221;</p><p>They watched a hawk balance on the evening wind. No one checked a watch. The trail gave them back the minutes they thought they had lost.</p><p>&#8220;Next week, same pace,&#8221; Raven said.</p><p>&#8220;Same gold,&#8221; Val added.</p><p>They did not win the race. They won the view. And it changed what they planned next.</p><p><strong>Day 5 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>Laughter Rose with the Steam</h2><p>Steam rose in soft ghosts from the clean dish. Someone&#8217;s peach cobbler clung to the pan like a secret. Raven and two church friends, Ada and Lila, worked in a cheerful rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;Who brought the jalape&#241;o cornbread?&#8221; Lila asked.</p><p>&#8220;Confess and be praised,&#8221; Raven said.</p><p>Ada grinned. &#8220;It was me. Extra kernels for courage.&#8221;</p><p>They laughed, and the sound filled the small kitchen better than any choir.</p><p>&#8220;Funny,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;During the meal I felt a little invisible. Now I feel seen.&#8221;</p><p>Ada bumped her hip. &#8220;That is because this is the part where we tell the truth.&#8221;</p><p>They traded stories over the hum of the sanitizer. Lila admitted she was learning to date again. Ada was considering a road trip alone. Raven spoke about a dream she kept filing under &#8220;later.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Later is a slippery shelf,&#8221; Ada said.</p><p>Raven set the clean pan to dry. &#8220;Then I&#8217;ll put it on the counter where we allcan reach it.&#8221;</p><p>They locked up, last to leave, lights ticking off behind them.</p><p>The recipe was simple. Stay a little longer. Something good always rises.</p><p><strong>Day 6 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>When the Quiet Turns Loud<br></h2><p>The community garden slept in tidy rows. Val brushed soil from her knees and dropped onto the bench. Skylar sat beside her, wedding band catching a lantern glint.</p><p>&#8220;I still forget to take the ring off when I pull weeds,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>&#8220;It reminds the lettuce who is boss,&#8221; Val replied.</p><p>They both laughed. The laughter softened into a companionable hush.</p><p>&#8220;Some nights I go home and the house is so quiet I can hear my heartbeat,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;I did not know quiet could be that loud.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s hand found hers. &#8220;I go home to noise. Dishes and shoes and a man who loves me. Some nights I still miss the part of me that wandered late with friends.&#8221;</p><p>Val squeezed. &#8220;So we share. You lend me noise. I lend you stars.&#8221;</p><p>A moth tapped the lamp glass, a tiny drummer.</p><p>&#8220;What is next for you?&#8221; Skylar asked.</p><p>&#8220;More benches,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;More nights like this.&#8221;</p><p>They stayed until the moth found the dark again.</p><p>When the crowd thins, the truth sits down beside you. Tomorrow, they would all take a seat.</p><p><strong>Day 7 &#8212; </strong></p><h1>When the Best Nights Never End on Time</h1><p>Raven&#8217;s ranch house still hummed after the potluck. Stray napkins. A guitar leaning in the corner as if it had something left to say. The big group had trickled away with hugs and foil parcels. What remained was the part they never planned and always loved.</p><p>Raven poured tea into mismatched cups. &#8220;There is cobbler left,&#8221; she announced. &#8220;Evidence that we exercised restraint.&#8221;</p><p>Ben raised a fork. &#8220;I call it foresight.&#8221;</p><p>They gathered around the fire pit, their favorite spot to end a night. As always, Ben claimed the wicker rocker. Quinn tucked her feet under her on the glider. Skylar stretched carefully, listening to her body. Val stole the Adirondack chair. Riley leaned against the chair where Raven sat, eyes on the slice of moon.</p><p>&#8220;This is the best part,&#8221; Val said.</p><p>&#8220;The party after the party,&#8221; Quinn added.</p><p>They traded small treasures from the week. Ben listened, smiling in that way elders do when the night is exactly as it should be. &#8220;You know,&#8221; he said, &#8220;people think staying late is clinging. The host wondering if they would ever leave. Looks to me like choosing.&#8221;</p><p>Raven nodded. &#8220;Choosing our own pace and knowing when the welcome lives on.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn lifted her cup. &#8220;Choosing the minutes no one else noticed.&#8221;</p><p>They sat while the house settled, boards giving tiny sighs. A night bird stitched a string of notes together.</p><p>&#8220;Same time next week?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Next week,&#8221; they echoed.</p><p>They did not bother to define what &#8220;this&#8221; was. They only knew to keep a space for it.</p><p>This was just one night on Raven&#8217;s porch. There are more. And the next thread is already tugging at the door.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Don&#8217;t miss these stories.&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Don&#8217;t miss these stories.</span></a></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RBdM!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F846656ee-81d0-4c54-8b61-58e8a99ddf29_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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It calms our minds, asking us to slow down with the seasons. And it draws us together&#8212;around herbs in the kitchen, laughter on the veranda, and even the rustle of a night visitor.</p><p>This week in the canyon, Riley, Skylar, Val, Raven, Ben, Cameron, and Channing each found their own kind of medicine in the soil. Sometimes it looked like rosemary and sage, other times it looked like friendship held steady in the cool autumn air.</p><p>Here&#8217;s the full arc, gathered for you to read straight through. May it stir your own reflections on how tending a garden, and tending each other, carry us toward the holidays ahead.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/172966439?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><h3><strong> The Garden Between Seasons<br></strong></h3><p><strong>Riley</strong></p><p>The pumpkins in Riley&#8217;s raised bed had taken on that deep, burnished orange that meant fall was truly here. She pressed a palm against one, feeling its cool weight. Her body moved slower these days too, joints aching when the mornings turned crisp. But the garden gave her reason to stretch, lift, bend. A kind of movement the gym had never offered.<br><br>As she clipped dried zinnias, she thought about how the season pulled everything inward, plants conserving, people gathering, the canyon itself leaning into its quiet. Yet, in that stillness, she felt something stir. A tug toward connection she couldn&#8217;t name.<br><br>When Quinn called from the veranda, Riley wiped her hands and turned. From the front of the house came a call she hadn&#8217;t expected. A voice that carried too many memories to mistake.</p><p><strong>Skylar &#8212; The Weight She Didn&#8217;t Expect</strong></p><p>Skylar always said she didn&#8217;t need exercise. &#8220;I lift life every day.&#8221; Yet as she carried a watering can down Riley&#8217;s path, her breath caught. She paused, leaning against the rosemary. The air was sharp with its scent, almost medicinal.</p><p>She laughed softly to herself. Who knew that lifting water, bending for weeds, stretching toward sagging trellises would become her training? Not for beauty, but for staying strong enough to keep showing up.</p><p>When she straightened, she caught Riley watching her. A quick look, then turned away, distracted. Skylar frowned. Riley wasn&#8217;t usually the one to drift off mid-moment.</p><p>Skylar whispered to the rosemary: &#8220;Don&#8217;t let me fade.&#8221; Then louder, with her old sparkle, &#8220;Who&#8217;s ready for cider?&#8221;</p><p>The others cheered from the veranda, unaware of the private conversation she&#8217;d just had with a plant.</p><p>But Riley was still listening to something else. A voice Skylar hadn&#8217;t heard. A voice that seemed to come from beyond the garden&#8217;s edge.</p><p>And later that night, Skylar would wonder &#8212; what had unsettled her friend in the middle of such a simple task?</p><p><strong>Val - Little Can Escape Her</strong></p><p>Val arrived with her basket of herbs, still damp from the garden. Basil, thyme, and sage. The scents reminded her of kitchens once filled with noise and laughter, before she moved away.</p><p>She laid the leaves on Riley&#8217;s table, inhaling deeply. Cooking together had become their ritual. Chopping, stirring, tasting, each woman adding a piece of herself. Tonight they&#8217;d make a stew hearty enough for the coming chill.</p><p>But as Val reached for the thyme, Riley slipped outside, almost unnoticed. When she returned, her eyes seemed brighter, though she said nothing. Val didn&#8217;t press. But later, as they stirred the pot, Val caught Riley touching her own wrist as if it had just been held.</p><p>And Val wondered, who was strong enough to shift Riley&#8217;s mood in the space of a single breath?</p><p><strong>Raven &#8212; The Breath Between Tasks</strong></p><p>The others worked quickly &#8212; chopping, stirring, and setting the table. Raven lingered outside, crouching by the late marigolds. Bees still hummed lazily, gathering what little remained.</p><p>She rose and turned toward the veranda. Just for a moment, she thought she saw someone slip past the fence. A figure too tall for Skylar, too quick for Ben. Raven blinked and it was gone.</p><p>When she finally returned inside, Skylar teased, &#8220;Lose your way among the flowers?&#8221;</p><p>Raven only smiled. &#8220;Maybe I found it.&#8221; But her thoughts drifted back to that shadow near the garden beds.</p><p>And she wondered, what else was the canyon holding between its silences?</p><p><strong>Ben &#8212; The Garden Drinks Too</strong></p><p>Ben was in charge of mixing drinks, which meant half the herbs vanished into cocktails instead of stew. Mint, basil, rosemary, each sprig muddled into a glass.</p><p>&#8220;Plants like a little celebration too,&#8221; he grinned, lifting a pitcher of sangria dangerously close to a flowerpot. The women shrieked in mock protest, laughter spilling into the night.</p><p>He raised his glass higher. &#8220;To the soil that feeds us. To the friends who keep us standing.&#8221;</p><p>The words hung longer than he expected. For a beat, silence. Then, from somewhere beyond the garden, a laugh joined theirs. Soft, unmistakably human.</p><p>Ben froze. The others glanced around. Riley&#8217;s face betrayed something more than surprise.</p><p>And in that moment, Ben realized this gathering was larger than the circle he could see.</p><p><strong>Cameron &amp; Channing &#8212; The Night Visitor</strong></p><p>The pair arrived late, flashlights in hand, after chasing the rustle near the garden beds. &#8220;We found tracks,&#8221; Cameron announced, dust on her knees. &#8220;Not deer. Maybe javelina.&#8221;</p><p>The group leaned close as she described the trail. But Riley&#8217;s gaze stayed fixed on the darkness beyond.</p><p>Channing lifted a half-eaten pumpkin. &#8220;Guess someone else is decorating early for the holidays.&#8221; Laughter rippled, but faltered when Riley turned sharply toward the fence. A shape moved there. Not an animal, not an illusion.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s lips parted as though to call out, then closed just as quickly.</p><p>And while the others argued about animals, Riley knew the garden had already welcomed someone else in.</p><h5><em>Which moment spoke to you most this week? I&#8217;d love to know.</em></h5><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/d8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16254,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/172966439?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!neGk!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd8e9c745-aff2-4d12-b12e-8890cc8ab5f2_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Dare to Begin Again - Weekly Dose of Fiction]]></title><description><![CDATA[Read on for end of last weeks Daily Dose of Fiction!]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/dare-to-begin-again-weekly-dose-of</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/dare-to-begin-again-weekly-dose-of</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 29 Aug 2025 22:39:42 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!hLO9!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa6397cbe-a448-46dd-92aa-6f1a23ae8ced_500x500.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3>Read on for end of last weeks <em><strong>Daily Dose of Fiction</strong></em>!</h3><p>Last week in Daily Dose of Fiction we have explored what it means to begin again later in life. Not in spite of our age, but because of it.&nbsp;</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp" width="1024" height="1024" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1024,&quot;width&quot;:1024,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:394816,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/webp&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/172303011?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!dZys!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F3d64d615-e810-4071-99e9-899e46467a20_1024x1024.webp 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>&#128211; Daily Dose of Fiction &#8211; Dare to Begin Again (Day 4)</strong></p><p>Skylar set her notebook on the kitchen table, staring at the stack of marked-up drafts beside it. Three novels sat on her bookshelf with her name on the spine, proof of a career that had taken her from dusty dig sites to university lecture halls.</p><p>Jim walked in with two mugs of tea, sliding one toward her. &#8220;You&#8217;ve done more than most,&#8221; he said, as if reading her thoughts.</p><p>She smiled faintly, picking up her phone. With a swipe, the photo appeared: Raven&#8217;s foal, legs splayed, eyes wide with newness. She turned the screen so Jim could see.</p><p>&#8220;He stood up within minutes,&#8221; she whispered. &#8220;No one told him he was too young, too weak. He just began.&#8221;</p><p>Jim studied the picture, then her face. &#8220;And you think you&#8217;re too old?&#8221;</p><p>The words sank deep. Enough felt like surrender. She thought of all the civilizations she had studied, people who had built, created, written until the very end.</p><p>Skylar closed her notebook, fingers brushing the worn leather. Was her purpose complete, or simply waiting for a new form?</p><p>She stepped out into the backyard, scooping up a handful of soil from the flower bed. The grains slipped between her fingers, gritty and insistent.</p><p>Not finished. Not yet.</p><p>She looked back at Jim through the open door. &#8220;What if there&#8217;s still another story?&#8221;</p><p><strong>&#128014; Daily Dose of Fiction &#8211; Dare to Begin Again (Day 5)</strong></p><p>The morning sun slanted across Echo Canyon as Val swung awkwardly into the saddle. &#8220;I&#8217;m too old for this,&#8221; she muttered, tugging at the reins.</p><p>Raven laughed from her horse. &#8220;You&#8217;re not too old. You&#8217;re just new. There&#8217;s a difference.&#8221;</p><p>They set off at a slow walk, hooves crunching over gravel. The canyon walls rose around them, warm and steady. Val&#8217;s body protested with every sway of the saddle, but she kept going, cheeks flushed with effort.</p><p>At a rise overlooking the barn, Raven drew her horse to a stop. The silence of the canyon pressed in, broken only by the faint call of a hawk.</p><p>Val exhaled slowly. &#8220;I want to begin again, but I don&#8217;t even know where to start.&#8221;</p><p>Raven reached across, squeezing her hand. &#8220;Then you&#8217;re already closer than you think. Most people never admit they want more.&#8221;</p><p>Val looked down at her hands, knuckles white around the reins. A blank canvas, that was all she could see ahead. Terrifying, yet beautiful in its possibility.</p><p>Val looked down at her hands, knuckles white around the reins. A blank canvas, that was all she could see ahead. Terrifying, yet beautiful in its possibility.</p><p>She tucked her chin, whispering more to herself than to Raven. &#8220;I keep thinking I should fade into retirement. But something in me rebels.&#8221;</p><p>That line shifted the night.</p><p>Little did Val suspect that she was not the only one ready to rebel.</p><p><strong>&#129300; Daily Dose of Fiction &#8211; Dare to Begin Again (Day 6)</strong></p><p>Riley knocked on Ben&#8217;s door, the desert dusk painting the sky in streaks of coral. He waved her inside, gesturing toward the two chairs angled toward his wide window. &#8220;You&#8217;ve been quiet,&#8221; he said, settling across from her.</p><p>She sighed, pulling her knees up and hugging them loosely. &#8220;I thought mentoring young architects would fill me. And it does, a little. But lately it feels like I&#8217;m circling instead of moving forward.&#8221;</p><p>Ben tilted his head. &#8220;So what do you want instead?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That&#8217;s the problem.&#8221; Riley&#8217;s throat tightened. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. I want the thrill of creating again, but there&#8217;s something more I can&#8217;t quite touch. Like I&#8217;m missing a piece of myself.&#8221;</p><p>Ben&#8217;s eyes softened. &#8220;Maybe Quinn can help you sort it out. Want me to patch her in?&#8221;</p><p>Riley hesitated, then nodded. Moments later Quinn&#8217;s image shimmered into the room, her voice crisp through the feed. &#8220;You called me twice in one week. That&#8217;s a first.&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled weakly. &#8220;I needed someone who knows me.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn studied her closely. &#8220;Then answer this. Are you done, or just afraid to begin again?&#8221;</p><p>The question hung heavy in the room, the kind that does not allow a quick reply.</p><p>Riley leaned back, heart pounding. For the first time in years, &#8230;</p><p>maybe ever&#8230;</p><p>she realized she did not have an answer.</p><h3><strong>It&#8217;s Not Too Late &#8211; Dare to Begin Again</strong></h3><h4>A long week, but the friends come together to surround themselves with love.</h4><p><em>You might have already read this story but I thought I&#8217;d include it here for those that missed it. </em></p><p>&#127924; The five women sat on Riley&#8217;s veranda, the canyon glowing copper in the late sun. Glasses of wine clinked against the table, a scatter of olives and bread between them. Conversation drifted at first, books, travel, the heat, but it always circled back to the same question that had been haunting them all week.</p><p>&#8220;Why does it still sting?&#8221; Skylar asked, folding her hands. &#8220;We&#8217;ve achieved things, each of us. And yet, one trip to the hardware store and suddenly we&#8217;re underestimated, dismissed, invisible.&#8221;</p><p>Val shook her head. &#8220;That is exactly it. I&#8217;m still kinda new here, and I keep thinking maybe I should just fade quietly into retirement. But something in me rebels. I want more. I just do not know what.&#8221;</p><p>Raven leaned forward, her voice steady. &#8220;That foal I showed you? It wasn&#8217;t ready. But it stood. That&#8217;s the only secret. You don&#8217;t wait for permission. You decide to begin again.&#8221;</p><p>Riley&#8217;s laugh was soft, almost self-conscious. &#8220;Easy for you to say. Your training center is thriving. You&#8217;ve known this was your next chapter for years. The rest of us&#8230; we&#8217;re fumbling.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Fumbling is a start,&#8221; Quinn said from her screen, her hologram glowing faintly in the desert twilight. &#8220;When I retired, I thought travel would be enough. It isn&#8217;t. Turns out beginnings are messier than endings.&#8221;</p><p>They sat with that, each woman measuring the truth of it against her own restlessness.</p><p>Skylar pulled out her phone, the photo of the foal filling the screen. She turned it so they could all see. &#8220;Every time I look at him, I think about how civilizations I studied built and created until their last breath. Why should we be different?&#8221;</p><p>Riley traced the rim of her glass. &#8220;Because the world keeps telling us our time is up. That&#8217;s the message, isn&#8217;t it? Too late to try. Too late to matter.&#8221;</p><p>Val lifted her chin. &#8220;But what if it isn&#8217;t? What if that&#8217;s the lie we&#8217;ve swallowed for too long?&#8221;</p><p>The silence that followed was like the hush before a summer storm.</p><p>Finally Raven raised her glass. &#8220;Here&#8217;s to the next thing. Whatever it looks like.&#8221;</p><p>Glasses lifted. Even Quinn&#8217;s image, pixelated but present, mimicked the gesture.</p><p>The canyon walls seemed to echo it back, a low hum in the evening air.</p><p>They did not solve anything that night. No grand declarations, no perfect answers. But each woman left with a spark, faint but insistent. Val had called it rebellion. By the time the glasses were empty, they all recognized the same urge within themselves.</p><p>It&#8217;s not too late. It never was.</p><div><hr></div><p><em>I hope you&#8217;re enjoying these stories. Please take a moment, click on the heart below, and write a comment if you are inclined. Not only do I appreciate hearing from you, but it helps others see the stories. </em></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!0_bW!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F761ef971-aab2-4b2e-bee6-5439776316e4_250x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!0_bW!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F761ef971-aab2-4b2e-bee6-5439776316e4_250x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!0_bW!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F761ef971-aab2-4b2e-bee6-5439776316e4_250x125.jpeg 848w, 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sangria.</p><p>One invitation. Four resistances. And a shared afternoon that changes more than the garden.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#128203; Sometimes we need to shove the to-do list aside, call our friends, and yank them out of their muck.</p></div><p>The light off the canyon wall was too good to waste on laundry. Riley leaned back in her chair, watching the ash trees tremble in the breeze. She thought about the women she loved, each buried in &#8220;important&#8221; things. The kind of &#8216;important&#8217; that could swallow a whole season.</p><p>Her pond garden had taken a beating from the monsoon winds. She could repair it alone, but where was the fun in that?</p><p>She pulled a notepad closer and wrote: Skylar. Quinn. Val. Raven.</p><p>She could picture their protests already: work, deadlines, responsibilities.</p><p>She would counter with grilled vegetables, crusty bread, and chilled sangria. Promise them the outdoor shower and a towel fresh from the line.</p><p>If she was lucky, they&#8217;d stay until dark, the pond lit by lanterns.</p><p>It had been a long time since she had planned a day like this, and longer still since she had wanted to.</p><p><strong>Tuesday</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#128105;&#127997;&#8205;&#10084;&#65039;&#8205;&#128139;&#8205;&#128105;&#127996;&#128149;&#128105;&#127995;&#8205;&#10084;&#65039;&#8205;&#128105;&#127995;A good friend knows when to let you work. A better friend knows when to interrupt.</p></div><p>Skylar&#8217;s voice was muffled, probably because she was half-buried in a stack of maps at the historical society.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m busy, Riley. We&#8217;re cataloguing the Whitman papers. Do you know how long I&#8217;ve waited for access to these?&#8221;</p><p>Riley grinned. &#8220;You&#8217;ll still be cataloguing them tomorrow. And the next day. Meanwhile, I have sage seedlings with your name on them.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;re trying to tempt me with herbs?&#8221; Skylar asked.</p><p>&#8220;And sunshine. And friends. And sangria. You can bring your camera&#8212;photograph the garden if it makes you feel productive.&#8221;</p><p>A pause. &#8220;What time?&#8221;</p><p>Riley let out a breath she hadn&#8217;t realized she was holding. &#8220;Noon. Wear something you don&#8217;t mind getting muddy.&#8221;</p><p>She could see Skylar&#8217;s reluctant smile over the VID, but let it go. &#8220;She&#8217;ll be here.&#8221;</p><p>&#187; See what happens with Riley&#8217;s next call tomorrow!</p><p><strong>Wednesday</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#127864; Some things can wait. Stories over adult beverages and munchies aren&#8217;t one of them.</p></div><p>Quinn answered the VID on the second ring, sleeves rolled up, hair pulled back, sitting cross-legged on the floor. Around her were stacks of battered cardboard boxes.</p><p>&#8220;What&#8217;s in them?&#8221; Riley asked, seeing the clutter around Quinn.</p><p>&#8220;My old Homeland Security journals. I told myself I&#8217;d start sorting today.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And how&#8217;s that going?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn sighed. &#8220;Two hours in, I&#8217;ve reread exactly three entries. I might be here forever.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Or,&#8221; Riley said slowly, &#8220;you could come here, dig in the dirt, and let the past wait until tomorrow.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That&#8217;s your big pitch?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I also have marinated olives, your favorite cheese, and a bottle of that white wine you brought to my birthday.&#8221;</p><p>Silence. Then: &#8220;Fine. But I&#8217;m not weeding that far side. That muck is too deep.&#8221;</p><p><strong>Thursday</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#127774; When offered to trade a day of planning for a day with friends in the garden, take the trade.</p></div><p>Val&#8217;s kitchen table was covered in seed packets and open notebooks when Riley called.</p><p>&#8220;Are you planting?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Planning,&#8221; Val corrected. &#8220;I&#8217;m charting soil pH and companion plants. I want to replicate some natural medicines my grandmother used. This isn&#8217;t just gardening, it&#8217;s research.&#8221;</p><p>Riley laughed. &#8220;Important research. But one day away won&#8217;t derail it.&#8221;</p><p>Val hesitated. &#8220;The timing&#8217;s not ideal&#8230;&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll get fresh herb cuttings from my pond bed. And I need someone who knows how to keep mint from mutinying.&#8221;</p><p>A reluctant chuckle. &#8220;Mint&#8217;s a bully.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;So come wrangle it for me.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Alright,&#8221; Val sighed. &#8220;But I&#8217;m not wearing gloves.&#8221;</p><p><strong>Friday</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#127749; Even the busiest day has room for one invitation you shouldn&#8217;t turn down.</p></div><p>The VID camera showed a young mare circling the paddock, ears pricked, muscles rippling.</p><p>&#8220;Training?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;She&#8217;s almost ready for her first ride.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Almost ready means not today,&#8221; Riley countered. &#8220;Come get your hands muddy instead.&#8221;</p><p>Raven shook her head. &#8220;You&#8217;re impossible.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve been told. Besides, the mare will thank you for a day off. 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They remember the day they laughed until dark.</p></div><p>The air was thick with rosemary and wet earth. Skylar in a wide-brimmed hat, Val barefoot, Quinn rinsing her hands in the pond, Raven hauling lilies like trophies.</p><p>At first, there was only the sound of shovels biting into soil and the occasional splash. But soon came the laughter&#8212;about the last time they&#8217;d all worked together (when Raven swore she saw a snake and Skylar nearly fell in), about who had the best mud streaks on their cheeks.</p><p>&#8220;Do you know,&#8221; Skylar said, &#8220;I almost stayed home.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Me too,&#8221; Val admitted.</p><p>Quinn smirked. &#8220;I was going to spend the day re-reading my own old reports. This is better.&#8221;</p><p>They planted until the light softened, then sprawled on the veranda with plates of food and glasses that never seemed to empty. The air was warm, the pond gleaming.</p><p><strong>Sunday</strong></p><p>The garden was quiet now, the last streaks of sun fading into the canyon. Riley sat with damp hair, bare feet on the flagstone, a glass of wine at her side.</p><p>The pond glimmered, the lilies floating like they&#8217;d always been there.</p><p>She thought about the years she&#8217;d filled with &#8220;productive&#8221; work, ticking off lists until there was no room left for days like this.</p><p>It was easier than admitting what else she wanted.</p><p>She leaned back, feeling the warm stone at her back.</p><p>It had been a long time since she shared a day from start to finish with people she loved.</p><p>Longer still since she&#8217;d imagined sharing it with someone who might stay.</p><p><strong>Choosing Desire Over Duty &#8212; Without Guilt</strong></p><p>This week, the stories weren&#8217;t just about pond gardens, herb seedlings, or muddy feet. They were about choosing what makes us feel most alive, even when the world tells us something else is more &#8220;important.&#8221;</p><p>Which moment would you have said yes to?</p><div class="pullquote"><p>Riley&#8217;s not the only one seeking more connections. These women have more to say. And much more to hope for. </p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[ A Story for Every “One Who…” — and a Peek Behind the Scenes]]></title><description><![CDATA[Five women. Seven moments. One thread running through them all.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-story-for-every-one-who-and-a-peek</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-story-for-every-one-who-and-a-peek</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 01 Aug 2025 13:00:28 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Each of these seven short stories starts with &#8220;The one who&#8230;&#8221;</p><p>But by the end, you&#8217;ll wonder if they&#8217;re all about you. Fiction that explores the truth.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png" width="464" height="309.43956043956047" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/de9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:971,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:464,&quot;bytes&quot;:3112654,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/169274701?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qn2i!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fde9dd138-587f-4032-b355-24b4137cd5e6_1536x1024.png 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h2>&#127819; The One Who Left Out the Zest</h2><p>The lemon bars were cooling on the counter when Quinn walked in.</p><p>&#8220;Your famous ones?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>&#8220;Almost,&#8221; Riley said. &#8220;I forgot the zest.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn raised an eyebrow.</p><p>&#8220;You know,&#8221; she said casually, &#8220;I used to juice your lemons back in Vermont.&#8221;</p><p>Riley turned.</p><p>&#8220;What?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Remember when you baked for that guy who hated lemon zest? I&#8217;d take the lemons off the counter and juice them before you were home. No zest!&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You sabotaged my baking?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I was just trying to help. You always forgot and added zest. But to be honest, he wasn&#8217;t worth the effort, zest or no zest.&#8221;</p><p>They both laughed.</p><p>&#8220;He&#8217;s gone,&#8221; Riley said.</p><p>Quinn reached for a bar. &#8220;And the lemons are back.&#8221;</p><p>Later, Riley wrote a sticky note and tucked it in the recipe book:</p><p><em>    &#127819; Use zest. And don&#8217;t bake them for anyone who wouldn&#8217;t love it.</em></p><div><hr></div><h2>&#127807; The One Who Will Always Be There </h2><p>Val didn&#8217;t ask for help.</p><p>She never did.</p><p>So when Skylar showed up at her gate with gloves, pruning shears, and a cooler of lemonade, Val tried to wave her off.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m fine,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Just behind on trimming.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar didn&#8217;t argue. She just opened the gate, walked to the back, and started cutting back the overgrown salvias like she&#8217;d been invited.</p><p>They worked in companionable silence until the last branch was hauled to the compost bin.</p><p>Val poured two glasses of lemonade and finally said, &#8220;Thank you for not making me ask.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar raised an eyebrow, then looked around the blooming chaos.</p><p>&#8220;You need a bigger garden,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Val laughed. &#8220;You offering to help plant it?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar just shrugged. &#8220;You&#8217;d do the same.&#8221;</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#127793; Quiet friendship. Unspoken support. The kind that shows up with gloves and stays until the work is done.</p></div><div><hr></div><h2>&#129716; The One Who Lost the Seeds</h2><p>Riley had searched everywhere &#8212; kitchen drawers, garden tote, glove box.</p><p>The wildflower seeds she bought to honor her mother were gone.</p><p>Quinn watched her tear through the shed again.</p><p>&#8220;Where did you have them last?&#8221; she asked cautiously.</p><p>Riley sighed. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. Maybe I never brought them in from the car.&#8221;</p><p>Later, while putting away laundry that had been sitting around forever, she found her mother&#8217;s gardening apron folded in the back of a drawer.</p><p>In the pocket: the seed packet.</p><p>She stared at it for a long time.</p><p>That afternoon, Riley and Quinn knelt in the corner of the yard and pressed seeds into warm soil.</p><p>No big speeches. Just a pause between birdsong and breeze.</p><p>&#8220;You okay?&#8221; Quinn asked.</p><p>Riley nodded. &#8220;I think she&#8217;d like it here.&#8221;</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#129530;  Memory has its own way of resurfacing&#8212;softly, in the folds of an ordinary day.</p></div><h2><strong>&#128148; The One Who Knows</strong></h2><p>At the community center plant exchange, Sue stood frozen over a cracked terracotta pot and a wilted basil plant.</p><p>Tears welled up.</p><p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know why I&#8217;m crying,&#8221; she whispered.</p><p>Skylar stepped forward but hesitated.</p><p>Before she could speak, Eleanor stepped in and knelt beside Sue, gently touching her arm.</p><p>&#8220;I cried like that over a broken pot once,&#8221; she said softly. &#8220;But it wasn&#8217;t really about the pot.&#8221;</p><p>Sue gave a small, startled laugh &#8212; then let the tears come.</p><p>Skylar returned a few minutes later with a spare pot and fresh soil.</p><p>Together, she and Sue repotted the basil, gave it a deep drink of water, and carried it out to Sue&#8217;s car.</p><p>No one rushed her.</p><p>No one asked what it was really about.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#10084;&#65039;&#8205;&#129657;Sometimes the healing begins when someone sees your cracked pot and says, &#8220;Let&#8217;s plant anyway.&#8221;</p></div><h2>&#129716; The One Who Changed Her Mind</h2><p>&#8220;I almost retired south of the border,&#8221; Val said, sipping her tea.</p><p>They were gathered under the mesquites, the late afternoon sun casting dappled light across the table.</p><p>&#8220;I bought a condo&#8212;furnished. Gated community. Everything was beige.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn blinked. &#8220;You?&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded. &#8220;Walked in, took one look around, and thought, this isn&#8217;t me. I stayed one night. Packed up the next morning.&#8221;</p><p>Riley grinned. &#8220;And came here instead. You never told us this before.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;It was only one day of my life. I planted herbs, pollinators and veggies instead of golf course grass,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;Learned the names of my neighbors. And my birds.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar raised her glass. &#8220;To second thoughts and better instincts.&#8221;</p><p>They all drank to that.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#127793; The freedom to pivot. And the power of choosing again.</p></div><h2>&#128506;&#65039; The One Who Knew a Shortcut</h2><p>Ben and Raven loaded the last bag of compost into the truck and started down the road to the community garden.</p><p>Ben turned toward Main Street.</p><p>&#8220;Nope,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;We&#8217;re taking the ridge road.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s slower.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s better.&#8221;</p><p>He didn&#8217;t argue. He knew better than to go against his cousin&#8217;s wishes.</p><p>They bumped along the dusty trail, windows down, Raven pointing out patches of prickly pear in bloom and the exact hill where their Aunt Jo once broke a shovel digging out an agave.</p><p>Ben pulled over. They gathered fruit from a low-hanging cactus and laughed over who got stuck the least.</p><p>&#8220;You ever think she took us this way just to tell stories?&#8221; he asked.</p><p>Raven smiled. &#8220;Of course she did.&#8221;</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#128506;&#65039; Some shortcuts aren&#8217;t about saving time. They&#8217;re about remembering who taught you how to take the long way.</p></div><h2><strong>&#129681; The One Who Left a Chair Empty</strong></h2><p>Riley set six chairs in a circle on the spacious verandah.</p><p>Quinn nudged them into a better arc. &#8220;Circles should never be square.&#8221;</p><p>Val brought out lemon and lavender tea, plus her usual rosemary almonds.</p><p>Skylar fluffed the cushions she&#8217;d insisted everyone needed.</p><p>Ben adjusted the umbrella to provide shade from the setting sun.</p><p>Raven pulled out her phone to take a picture, then didn&#8217;t.</p><p>Riley added one more chair, just slightly outside the circle, near the railing on the edge of the porch.</p><p>&#8220;Expecting someone?&#8221; Ben asked.</p><p>Riley shook her head with a slight smile, almost a wink. &#8220;Just in case.&#8221;</p><p>No one pressed further.</p><p>They told stories instead - old ones, ridiculous ones, the kind that wander.</p><p>Raven reenacted a scorpion-in-the-hiking-boot incident.</p><p>Skylar purposely misquoted a poem.</p><p>Val laughed so hard she spilled tea on Quinn&#8217;s sandal.</p><p>No one sat in the extra chair.</p><p>But they all noticed it.</p><p>Maybe for someone who hadn&#8217;t arrived yet.</p><p>Or someone who needed to know there was space waiting.</p><div class="pullquote"><p><strong>&#129681;</strong><em> Sometimes what matters most is the chair no one sits in &#8212; holding space for the ones not present &#8212; yet still felt. </em></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg" width="204" height="45" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:45,&quot;width&quot;:204,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:3394,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/169274701?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!n_tl!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F43ed8abb-e6dc-49d3-8a41-7f9c90e6fd99_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div></div><p><strong>Be sure to watch for next week&#8217;s </strong><em><strong>Daily Doses</strong></em><strong>, either daily on Substack or here in your inbox on Friday. </strong></p><p><strong>The theme for next week will be:</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p><strong>Why Did I Stop?</strong></p><p><strong>And what would happen if I started again?</strong></p><p><strong>&#127800; The Question We Don&#8217;t Often Ask</strong></p></div><p>See you then!</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/e2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:15581,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/169274701?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!SN56!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2b99195-a835-4cab-ab11-f251b331023a_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Meet Marisol]]></title><description><![CDATA[Her story begins with an unanswered message&#8212;and a question she can&#8217;t shake.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/meet-marisol</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/meet-marisol</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 24 Jun 2025 13:03:07 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Ie0b!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff698146c-747b-4d07-a885-09aca6703390_1024x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="pullquote"><p>Some stories come from a plan. Others begin with a spark&#8212;a need to fill in the lives of characters who won&#8217;t stay silent.</p><p>Marisol&#8217;s story begins with a message she hasn&#8217;t opened&#8212;and a voice she&#8217;s not sure she&#8217;s ready to hear.</p><p>Readers sometimes ask me, &#8220;Do you know where Marisol is headed?&#8221;</p><p>I tell them, not exactly. But life is full of possibilities, isn&#8217;t it?</p></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Ie0b!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff698146c-747b-4d07-a885-09aca6703390_1024x1024.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Ie0b!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff698146c-747b-4d07-a885-09aca6703390_1024x1024.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Ie0b!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff698146c-747b-4d07-a885-09aca6703390_1024x1024.png 848w, 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Predictable. Quiet.</p><p>Friends called it peaceful.</p><p>She called it safe.</p><p>Riley had left.</p><p>Marisol stayed behind.</p><p>She kept the box of memories, just in case.</p><p>But that message? She didn&#8217;t open it.</p><p>Not yet.</p><p>But she didn&#8217;t delete it either.</p><h3>The Life She Chose Instead</h3><p>The message sat unopened.<br>Marisol cooked dinner like always&#8212;chopping mindlessly, the knife keeping time against the board. She fed the neighbor&#8217;s cat. Folded laundry. Paid a bill.<br>The rhythm of a life she had designed to be fine.</p><p>She allowed the memories to flow through. <br>Everyone said she was the steady one. The one who stayed. The one who managed.<br>But sometimes, she wondered what it had cost. Did she want to be known as steady? Was that boring?<br>She used to sketch at night. Stay up arguing about shapes and space, beauty and what mattered.</p><p>She hadn&#8217;t touched a pencil in months.<br>She&#8217;d told herself she didn&#8217;t miss it.<br>But lately, something had begun to stir.<br>The feeling wasn&#8217;t loud, but it was insistent.<br>Not regret exactly.<br>More like a whisper:</p><p>Is this all there is?<br>Marisol turned off the stove and opened the window wide.<br>She let the night air in.<br>And for once, she didn&#8217;t push the thought away.</p><h3>Designing Buildings But Not My Life</h3><p>Marisol lay in bed, eyes open, staring at the ceiling fan&#8217;s slow rotation. The house was quiet. She used to love that. Now, it echoed a little too much.</p><p>What am I doing with my life?</p><p>The question had been with her for months. Not in a dramatic, crisis way. Just&#8230; persistent. A tap on the shoulder at 2 a.m.</p><p>She used to think she&#8217;d design beautiful buildings. Spaces that made people feel something.</p><p>Instead, she ran budgets. Approved tile samples. Smiled through meetings. And on weekends? She &#8220;rested,&#8221; but never felt restored.</p><p>She closed her eyes and tried to picture what she wanted next. Nothing came clearly.</p><p>But something inside her whispered:</p><p><em>    It&#8217;s time to find out.</em></p><h3>The Message Still Sits Unopened</h3><p>Her fingers hovered over the screen.<br>Riley&#8217;s message still sat unopened. But tonight, Marisol didn&#8217;t care about that.</p><p>She just wanted to hear her voice.<br>She tapped Contacts.<br>Paused.<br>Her thumb hovered over Riley&#8217;s name.<br>That familiar flutter in her chest returned.<br>So much had changed.</p><p>And yet, part of her still felt 25, curled on a couch with Riley, sketching dreams on napkins. She imagined Riley answering. What would she say?</p><p>But this time, she didn&#8217;t put the phone down because of fear. She put it down because she realized she wasn&#8217;t calling to fix the past.</p><p>It had been too long.</p><p>She was hoping for something that probably did not exist anymore.<br></p><p>     <em>But&#8230; Riley had messaged her. . .</em></p><div class="pullquote"><p>Marisol&#8217;s not the only one with unfinished business &#8212; these women have more to say.</p></div><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">Marisol&#8217;s not the only one with unfinished business. 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