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To be read Friday through Sunday while taking a break from a working mindset. ]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/s/daily-dose-of-fiction</link><image><url>https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Lp-k!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa9dee312-0bab-4e60-a28e-c5ef6181f7a0_482x482.png</url><title>Knowing Yourself Through Fiction: Short Stories of Fiction</title><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/s/daily-dose-of-fiction</link></image><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Sat, 18 Jul 2026 08:27:48 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/feed" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><copyright><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:owner><itunes:email><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></itunes:email><itunes:name><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></itunes:author><googleplay:owner><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></googleplay:owner><googleplay:email><![CDATA[maryleepangman@substack.com]]></googleplay:email><googleplay:author><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></googleplay:author><itunes:block><![CDATA[Yes]]></itunes:block><item><title><![CDATA[The Chair No One Sat In]]></title><description><![CDATA[When she looked at the empty chair, her face did not change, but the room around her seemed to.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-chair-no-one-sat-in</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-chair-no-one-sat-in</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 12 Jul 2026 13:02:59 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/021c6b55-fa4a-4c42-8e46-7db50b6ca939_1254x1254.png" length="0" 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It was a challenge to bring the five friends of Echo Canyon to a table with a 1500 piece table and five different approaches to solving a puzzle.  But as always, they showed me the way and let their voices be heard  </em></p><p><strong><span>Part 1 - Edge Pieces</span></strong></p><p><span>Val had not expected to miss jigsaw puzzles.</span></p><p><span>She had expected to miss Steve in obvious places. The empty side of the bed. The second mug she no longer reached for. The quiet after dinner when the day used to loosen and become theirs. She had expected all of that. What surprised her was missing the table.</span></p><p><span>Not any particular table, exactly. The old card table her mother pulled from the closet on rainy Sundays. The kitchen table she and Steve cleared after supper. The folding table they once set up in the den during a winter storm because the puzzle had grown too large for the breakfast nook and no one wanted to put it away. What she missed was the permission of a puzzle spread open in the middle of a room.</span></p><p><span>A puzzle said the work could wait. A puzzle said no one had to finish anything tonight. A puzzle said people could sit together without needing a reason more important than finding the right piece.</span></p><p><span>Her cabin on Raven&#8217;s ranch had room for what she needed. That was what she told herself when she moved in. More than a studio. Less than a full one bedroom. A small sofa. A narrow kitchen table. Shelves for books. A place for her good dishes. A porch that caught the morning light. It was enough, and most days she was grateful for the enoughness of it. But there was no room to leave a thousand-piece puzzle out for days, and Val had learned there were some pleasures that required space.</span></p><p><span>She mentioned it to Raven one afternoon while they were carrying baskets of clean towels to the guest cabins. She had not meant to make it sound sad. She had only said, &#8220;I used to love puzzles,&#8221; the way a person might say she used to love a certain song, or a bakery that had closed, or a dress that no longer fit.</span></p><p><span>Raven stopped halfway up the path. &#8220;Then we should do one.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val laughed because that was how Raven said things. As if an idea could become real simply because she had made room for it in a sentence. &#8220;Where?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;In the long room,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;The table in there is big enough.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That table is for meetings.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That table is for what is needed.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val looked toward the house, where the long room opened onto the veranda, and you could often find Raven there when the evening light came. &#8220;A puzzle is needed?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven shifted the towel basket against her hip. &#8220;Maybe.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>By Thursday, Raven had found a fifteen-hundred-piece puzzle in the storage cabinet, still wrapped in plastic. The picture on the box showed Echo Canyon after a deep spring rain, the ocotillo tipped in red, the palo verde blooming yellow, the rocks lit gold in the low sun. She showed it to Val, who held it with both hands and felt something in her chest lift before she had time to make sense of it.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Too big?&#8221; Raven asked.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;Perfect.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Good. I told the others to come after supper.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val looked up. &#8220;You invited everyone?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Riley said yes before I finished asking. Skylar asked whether we were allowed to look at the box. Quinn asked if there would be a strategy. I told her there would be snacks.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val smiled. &#8220;And you?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I asked Sam to bring more chairs.&#8221;</span></p><p><strong><span>Part 2 - The Extra Chair</span></strong></p><p><span>By the time they gathered, the long room had softened into evening. The doors to the veranda stood open, and the outdoor string lights glowed beyond the screens like low stars caught in the mesquite. The table had been cleared of papers and maps, then covered with a pale cloth Raven said would make the pieces easier to see. Val had set out bowls of grapes, blueberries, salted almonds, and cubes of cheese. Riley brought a loaf of rosemary bread she claimed she had not baked. Skylar arrived with a small notebook, which Raven immediately told her to put away. Quinn came last, carrying a pitcher of ice water in one hand and a bottle of white wine in the other, as if she did not want anyone to accuse her of choosing.</span></p><p><span>Val had made citrus mint spritzers in a glass pitcher, with sliced oranges, lime, and cucumber floating on top. &#8220;With or without wine,&#8221; she said, setting the pitcher near the glasses. &#8220;No rules tonight.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Dangerous thing to say at a puzzle table. How about sparkling wine?&#8221; Quinn said.</span></p><p><span>Riley was already leaning over the unopened box. &#8220;Fifteen hundred pieces. That&#8217;s not a puzzle. That&#8217;s a seasonal commitment.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar reached for the lid, then stopped. &#8220;Are we looking at the picture or not?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val glanced around the table. &#8220;In my family, the box stayed on the table with the picture up.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Growing up,&#8221; Riley said, &#8220;we looked at the picture, argued with the picture, blamed the picture, and still lost three pieces under the sofa.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn pulled out a chair. &#8220;The picture is evidence.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar lifted one eyebrow, looking at Quinn oddly. &#8220;The picture is a crutch.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is a reference point,&#8221; Quinn said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is a form of cheating.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is not cheating if the manufacturer provides it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven opened the box and poured the pieces into the center of the table. The sound was surprisingly satisfying, a rush of cardboard against cardboard, a small storm falling into place before any order existed. Everyone leaned in, even Quinn, though she pretended she was only making room for the pitcher.</span></p><p><span>That was when Riley noticed the empty chair.</span></p><p><span>It sat between Raven and Val, angled slightly toward the table, pulled out enough to look intentional. It had a glass in front of it, though no plate. No napkin. No one&#8217;s sweater over the back. Just a chair, waiting with the patience of furniture that knew more than people did.</span></p><p><span>Riley looked at it, then at Raven. &#8220;Is someone else coming? Ben? Sam?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No,&#8221; Raven said.</span></p><p><span>Val&#8217;s hand paused over a blue piece. Skylar looked at the chair for a long moment, then at Raven, then back at the chair. Quinn did not look at it twice. She reached for a handful of edge pieces and began turning them right side up.</span></p><p><span>Riley, who had never been good at leaving a question unbothered, said, &#8220;Then why is there an extra chair?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven sorted through the pieces near her hand. &#8220;My grandmother always left one place open.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;For whom?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;For what might arrive.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one spoke for a moment. Outside, an owl called in the dark, the sound faint but familiar. Val felt the sentence move around the room and settle into the corners.</span></p><p><span>Riley was the first to recover. &#8220;That sounds like something I should pretend I understand.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You don&#8217;t have to understand it,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;You only have to not fill it too quickly.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn&#8217;s fingers tightened around a corner piece. &#8220;That may be the most Raven answer you&#8217;ve ever given.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven smiled. &#8220;Thank you.&#8221;</span></p><p><strong><span>Part 3 - Corners</span></strong></p><p><span>They began the way people begin when there are too many pieces and not enough agreement.</span></p><p><span>Val wanted all the pieces turned over first. She said this with the calm authority of someone who had managed hospital units, holiday meals, and grief. &#8220;You can&#8217;t find what you need if half the pieces are hiding.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley agreed in theory but kept stopping to make small piles of color because she could not resist a pattern once she saw it. &#8220;This is obviously sky. This is probably rock. This is either ocotillo or someone spilled chili powder into the puzzle factory.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You memorized the picture.&#8221; Quinn looked around to make sure the box was out of sight.</span></p><p><span>Skylar objected to the word obviously. She did not believe in the obvious until evidence had earned it. She began collecting pieces by texture, not color, separating the rough-looking stone from the smoother sky, then made a third pile for pieces she called suspicious. Quinn watched her do this with the expression of a woman deciding whether to admire the method or arrest it.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You have a category called suspicious?&#8221; Quinn asked.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Some pieces pretend to be one thing and later reveal themselves to be another.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley pointed a bread crust at her. &#8220;That is either brilliant or deeply annoying.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It can be both,&#8221; Skylar said, winking at Riley.</span></p><p><span>Raven did not sort much at first. She moved pieces aside slowly, as if listening for which ones wanted attention. Val had seen Raven do that with horses, with people, with decisions that seemed ordinary until they turned into something sacred. Raven did not hurry. She did not impose. She noticed.</span></p><p><span>Quinn took command of the edges.</span></p><p><span>No one had asked her to. She simply began gathering them, lining them in front of her, placing corners first because corners told the truth. There were only four of them. They were either corners or they were not. You could build from that. You could establish boundaries. You could say the puzzle begins here and not somewhere else.</span></p><p><span>Val watched Quinn&#8217;s hands and thought how competent they were. Not rushed. Not fussy. Calm in a way that looked like ease until you understood how much vigilance could hide inside calm. Quinn found one corner, then another, then slid them toward the center of the table with quiet satisfaction.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Corners first?&#8221; Riley asked.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Always.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;What if there&#8217;s a more interesting section?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;There is no section until there is a frame.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar made a small sound. &#8220;That is not how stories work.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is how investigations work.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Not always,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;Sometimes you start with the thing that bothers you and work outward.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn did not answer. She fitted two edge pieces together, then tested a third that did not belong. Her face changed almost imperceptibly when it failed. Val might have missed it once. She did not miss such things now.</span></p><p><span>Raven saw it too. She did not say anything. She only moved the empty chair a fraction closer to the table, not enough for anyone to accuse her of doing it on purpose.</span></p><p><strong><span>Part 4 - The Picture</span></strong></p><p><span>Half an hour later, they had most of the pieces turned over, four corners found, and one edge line stretching along the lower side of the table. Riley had created several promising islands of color, none of which connected to anything else. Skylar had started building a section of canyon wall without consulting the box, and Val had become deeply invested in a cluster of pale yellow flowers that refused to join the rest of the desert. Raven had found two small pieces of horse fence, none of which had been noticed in the picture, though no one was supposed to be looking at the picture because the box had been placed lid-down on a side table after a vote that was not as fair as Quinn claimed.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;This is inefficient,&#8221; Quinn said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is relaxing,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Those can coexist,&#8221; Quinn said, but she did not sound convinced.</span></p><p><span>Skylar slid three pieces together and smiled. &#8220;There. Palo verde.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley leaned over. &#8220;Are you sure?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Then why are you smiling?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Because I like the possibility.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn looked toward the overturned box. Val could see the struggle on her face, and because Val loved her, she did not rescue her from it.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You can look,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;No one is stopping you.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar&#8217;s head came up. &#8220;I am stopping her.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You are not in charge of Quinn&#8217;s eyes,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>Riley laughed. &#8220;That may be the best sentence ever spoken in this room.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn did not laugh right away. She looked at the box, then at the pieces, then at the extra chair, and something closed briefly behind her expression. Not noticeable. Quinn&#8217;s training had taught her to show nothing when a scene changed.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I don&#8217;t like not knowing what I&#8217;m making,&#8221; she said.</span></p><p><span>Raven reached for a piece near the empty chair. &#8220;Most of the time, we don&#8217;t.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That is not comforting.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;But it&#8217;s often accurate.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn picked up a piece of sky and turned it between her fingers. &#8220;When you have the picture, you can see where everything belongs.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar&#8217;s voice gentled. &#8220;Sometimes the picture lies.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn looked at her.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Not intentionally,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;But the picture on the box is too smooth. It shows the finished thing. It doesn&#8217;t show the hours when nothing connects, or the pieces that look useful and aren&#8217;t, or the person who keeps trying the same wrong piece because she wants it to fit.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley stopped sorting. Val looked at the piece she was trying to force into place.</span></p><p><span>Quinn set the sky piece down. &#8220;You are enjoying this too much.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I am not enjoying your discomfort,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;I am enjoying the puzzle.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That distinction is thin.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is still a distinction.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven reached across the table and turned over one last hidden piece near Quinn&#8217;s elbow. It was an edge piece. Quinn saw it at once. Her hand moved before she could pretend she did not care.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Well,&#8221; Riley said, &#8220;look at that. The missing edge was hiding in plain sight.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn fit it into place. It clicked softly against the others. No one made the obvious comment, which made the obvious comment louder.</span></p><p><strong><span>Part 5 - The Empty Place</span></strong></p><p><span>By the second hour, the table had become a map of different minds.</span></p><p><span>Val worked steadily, not claiming much space but noticing what everyone else needed. She slid the cheese closer to Skylar when Skylar forgot to eat. She refilled Riley&#8217;s glass when Riley began gesturing too close to the puzzle with an empty one. She moved a bowl of blueberries before Quinn&#8217;s sleeve knocked it over. She was not managing them, exactly. At least she hoped she was not. But she had spent a lifetime sensing needs before they became requests, and even now, when no one needed her to carry the evening, her hands wanted a job.</span></p><p><span>She looked at the extra chair and understood, suddenly, why it bothered her.</span></p><p><span>Not because no one sat in it. Because no one was asking anything from it.</span></p><p><span>The chair did not need a plate filled, a blanket brought, or a story smoothed over. It was simply there. A place held open without being assigned a duty. Val had not known, until that moment, how strange that looked to her. How almost wasteful. How beautiful.</span></p><p><span>Riley saw something else.</span></p><p><span>She had been building a section of green near the corner, convinced it belonged to one patch of canyon growth until Raven pointed out that it matched the shadow beneath the fence instead. Riley frowned, then laughed at herself, then began taking apart what she had built. &#8220;I hate when I&#8217;m attached to the wrong solution.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You love being attached to the wrong solution,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;You just prefer to call it design development.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That is rude&#8230; and accurate.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley slid several pieces apart and began again. Her eyes drifted to the empty chair. Val watched her look at it the way Riley looked at unfinished plans, as if seeing walls no one else had drawn yet.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;The greenhouse,&#8221; Riley said quietly.</span></p><p><span>Raven looked up. &#8220;What about it?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I keep thinking I&#8217;m trying to build a place for plants.&#8221; Riley moved one green piece away from another. &#8220;But maybe I&#8217;m trying to build a place where I don&#8217;t have to justify wanting beauty to take up room.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one answered too quickly. They had learned that about each other. Sometimes a sentence needed to remain whole for a few breaths.</span></p><p><span>Skylar looked at the empty chair next. &#8220;Mine is the page,&#8221; she said, as if continuing a conversation they had not admitted they were having. &#8220;Not the published page. Not the clever page. The page before I know whether it deserves to exist.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It deserves to exist because you do,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>Skylar gave her a soft, grateful look. &#8220;That sounds simple when you say it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is simple. But it&#8217;s not easy.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven had been quiet. She was fitting together a narrow line of fence, piece by piece, patient as dusk. When she looked at the empty chair, her face did not change, but the room around her seemed to.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;My grandmother left a chair for what might arrive,&#8221; she said. &#8220;When I was young, I thought she meant a person. A traveler. A neighbor. Someone hungry. Later, I thought she meant spirit. Ancestors. Memory. Now I think she meant the future. Not the future we plan. The future that comes only if we leave room.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val looked at Raven&#8217;s hands, at the horsewoman&#8217;s strength in them, the steadiness of a life shaped by purpose and loss and land. &#8220;What future?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven smiled, but not fully. &#8220;That is the point. I don&#8217;t know yet. None of us do&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn stood then, too abruptly. &#8220;I&#8217;m going to get more ice.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The pitcher was still half full.</span></p><p><span>No one stopped her.</span></p><p><strong><span>Part 6 - The Missing Piece</span></strong></p><p><span>Quinn returned with ice they did not need and sat down without comment. The empty chair remained between Raven and Val, angled toward the table, patient as before. Purposely, Quinn did not look at it, aware of it every second.</span></p><p><span>The puzzle had begun to take shape. Not enough to satisfy Quinn. Enough to make the others believe it was possible. The lower edge was complete. One corner had spread into canyon rock. Riley&#8217;s green section had found its place near the fence after all, though not where she first insisted it belonged. Skylar&#8217;s palo verde was real. Val&#8217;s yellow flowers had finally connected to a strip of desert floor, and she felt a small, ridiculous pride every time she saw them.</span></p><p><span>Quinn reached for a piece, tried it, rejected it, then tried another. &#8220;You know what bothers me?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;The list is long,&#8221; Riley said.</span></p><p><span>Quinn ignored her. &#8220;When a piece almost fits.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar nodded. &#8220;The dangerous pieces.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;They make you doubt the right shape,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;You keep trying to force them because the color is close or the line seems close, and after a while you start thinking the problem is your eyesight, not the piece.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>They all stopped what they were doing, some with a piece in their hand, midflight.</span></p><p><span>Quinn kept her eyes on the table. &#8220;In an investigation, that kind of mistake can cost you. You decide too early what the picture is. Then you start making the evidence serve it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar leaned back. &#8220;That is also how people stay in the wrong story.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn&#8217;s mouth tightened. For a moment, Val thought she would pull away, but Quinn surprised them. She picked up a piece from Skylar&#8217;s suspicious pile and placed it near the edge she had built. It did not fit where she first tried it. It did not fit the second place either. On the third try, it locked into a small gap none of them had noticed.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Well,&#8221; Riley said, almost defiantly.</span></p><p><span>Quinn stared at it.</span></p><p><span>The piece had not been missing. They had only been looking for it in the wrong place.</span></p><p><span>Outside, the night deepened. The veranda lights glowed against the windows, and the room held the comfortable disorder of people working together and finally becoming ok without being finished. Glasses half full. Napkins wrinkled. Bowls shifted from where Val had placed them. Puzzle islands waiting to be joined. The extra chair still empty, though it no longer looked lonely.</span></p><p><span>Yawning, Val reached for another piece. &#8220;Should we leave it out?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;The puzzle?&#8221; Riley asked.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;All of it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven nodded. &#8220;Yes.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;For tomorrow?&#8221; Skylar asked.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;For as long as it takes,&#8221; Raven said.</span></p><p><span>Quinn finally looked at the empty chair.</span></p><p><span>Not long. Not with any explanation. But she looked.</span></p><p><span>Val saw it and said nothing. She understood now that the chair had never been waiting for a person to arrive and complete the table. It had been holding space for whatever each of them had not known how to bring in with her.</span></p><p><span>For Riley, maybe it was the greenhouse before it had walls. For Skylar, the page before the words behaved. For Raven, a future she had not yet named. For Val, a life that did not have to earn its place by being useful.</span></p><p><span>And for Quinn, Val thought, it might be the truth she was still walking around.</span></p><p><span>That was another thing puzzles taught you. You did not have to force every piece into place the moment you found it. Some pieces needed to sit near the opening for a while. Some needed the picture around them to grow clearer before they could be received.</span></p><p><span>Riley lifted her glass. &#8220;To wrong pieces, suspicious piles, and not looking at the box.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn lifted hers reluctantly. &#8220;I reserve the right to look at the box.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Noted,&#8221; Skylar said.</span></p><p><span>Raven raised her glass last. &#8220;To leaving room.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>They drank to that.</span></p><p><span>And for the rest of the evening, no one sat in the extra chair. No one needed to. It was not empty anymore.</span></p><div><hr></div><h4>Paid Subscribers, aka Story Insiders, sit with these women for every story. 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No meeting. No planning. No one bringing a problem to solve or a casserole dish to return. Just a bowl of olives, a pitcher of something cold, and the rare agreement that nobody had to be anywhere else for a while.</span></p><p><span>Val arrived first and immediately rearranged the napkins because &#8220;folded napkins at happy hour are a cry for help.&#8221; Skylar brought crackers no one had asked for and a wedge of cheese wrapped in a towel because she had never trusted plastic wrap. Raven came in from the ranch with dust on her boots and washed hands that still carried the faint, clean scent of ranch life. Quinn arrived last, carrying a chilled bottle of gin and the careful look of a woman still learning that late did not always mean wrong.</span></p><p><span>They settled in slowly, chairs scraping, ice clinking, bodies remembering what friendship felt like when it wasn&#8217;t squeezed between obligations.</span></p><p><span>Riley went back inside for more glasses and returned with a thin brown notebook tucked under her arm.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;What&#8217;s that?&#8221; Val asked.</span></p><p><span>Riley looked down, as if surprised to find it there. &#8220;I found it in a drawer. I think I bought it for garden ideas.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar reached for it before asking permission, then caught herself and pulled her hand back.</span></p><p><span>Riley laughed and set it in the middle of the table. &#8220;There&#8217;s nothing in it. That&#8217;s the problem.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one answered right away.</span></p><p><span>The notebook sat between them, blank and oddly patient, while the sun lowered itself behind the ridge.</span></p><p><span>Skylar was the first one to open it.</span></p><p><span>She handled it carefully, the way someone handles an old map or a rare manuscript.</span></p><p><span>The first page was empty except for a faint smudge near the top, maybe from Riley&#8217;s thumb, maybe from whatever life the notebook had lived before this one.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I used to fill these,&#8221; Skylar said.</span></p><p><span>Riley looked over. &#8220;Journals?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Not exactly.&#8221; Skylar ran one finger down the lined page. &#8220;Field notes, mostly. Weather. Soil. The way a woman in a village described rain. The name of a bird I couldn&#8217;t identify. Something a child said while following us too close to the dig site.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val smiled. &#8220;That sounds like journaling to me.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar shook her head. &#8220;Journaling sounds too intentional. This was messier than that. Half observation, half eavesdropping, half trying to catch a place before I left it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That&#8217;s three halves,&#8221; Quinn said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I was an archaeologist. We make room for fragments.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>They all laughed, while Skylar kept looking at the page.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;At some point, the notes became official. Measurements. Catalog numbers. Grant documentation. Everything had to prove something.&#8221; She closed the notebook but kept her hand on top of it. &#8220;I think I stopped writing down the things that didn&#8217;t have a use.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven leaned back in her chair and looked toward the canyon.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Maybe those were the useful things,&#8221; she said.</span></p><p><span>Skylar didn&#8217;t answer. She only opened the notebook again and wrote one word in the upper corner.</span></p><p><span>Evening.</span></p><p><span>Val took the notebook next, though she pretended she was only moving it away from the condensation ring under Quinn&#8217;s glass.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I was never one of those women with pretty journals,&#8221; she said. &#8220;You know the kind. Matching pen. Good handwriting. Thoughts organized enough to deserve a ribbon bookmark.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley raised her glass. &#8220;I have never once had a thought organized enough for a ribbon bookmark.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Exactly.&#8221; Val tapped the page. &#8220;Mine were lists. Groceries. Medication schedules. Chores. Who needed a ride. Which pasture gate needed fixing. What Steve forgot to pick up even though I reminded him twice.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven grinned. &#8220;Only twice?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I was young then.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The laughter came easily, but Val&#8217;s smile softened as she looked down. &#8220;After Steve died, I kept writing lists because lists knew what to do with me. They gave the day a shape. Call the insurance office. Pick up prescriptions. Buy dog food. Water the basil. Change the sheets.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar watched her across the table, quiet now.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I don&#8217;t think I noticed how many years went by without writing anything that wasn&#8217;t about keeping life from falling apart.&#8221; Val picked up Riley&#8217;s pen, then put it down again. &#8220;I don&#8217;t remember the last time I wrote something just because I wanted to remember how I felt.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn slid the bowl of olives toward her. &#8220;You could start with your complaint against the freezer.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val laughed, which was exactly what Quinn had intended.</span></p><p><span>Then she picked up the pen and wrote beneath Skylar&#8217;s word.</span></p><p><span>The freezer has betrayed me again.</span></p><p><span>Raven wanted nothing to do with the notebook.</span></p><p><span>She said it so plainly that everyone turned toward her.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I keep records,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Training notes. Feed changes. Injury updates. Student progress. Which horse spooked at what, which child needs quiet before instruction, which parent thinks three lessons should fix grief.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That last one sounds very specific,&#8221; Riley said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It is.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar nudged the notebook toward her. Raven nudged it back.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I&#8217;m serious. I don&#8217;t write like that.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Like what?&#8221; Quinn asked.</span></p><p><span>Raven looked at the blank page waiting beyond Val&#8217;s freezer complaint. &#8220;Like something might matter just because I noticed it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one teased her for that.</span></p><p><span>The sky had deepened by then, the gold thinning into violet near the ridge. From somewhere below the veranda came the faint rustle of leaves and the occasional shift of gravel under a lizard or bird or whatever small creature had decided the evening belonged to it.</span></p><p><span>Raven reached for her glass, then stopped.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I used to write down what the horses taught me,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Not for anyone. Just phrases. Sunny does not trust fast hands. The mare knows before the girl does. Grief has weight, even in the reins.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val&#8217;s face changed. &#8220;Raven.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven looked away. &#8220;I forgot about those.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley placed the pen beside her hand, not in it.</span></p><p><span>For a long moment, Raven only looked at it.</span></p><p><span>Then she wrote one line.</span></p><p><span>The horse always knows the story first.</span></p><p><span>Quinn read Raven&#8217;s sentence twice, then a third time, as if repetition might make it less dangerous.</span></p><p><span>The horse always knows the story first.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That sounds like something people would put on a plaque,&#8221; Val said, trying to rescue the table from getting too tender.</span></p><p><span>Raven gave her a look. &#8220;Do not put me on a plaque.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I make no promises.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley poured the last of the gin into Quinn&#8217;s glass and topped everyone else with sparkling water. By then, the notebook had begun to look less like Riley&#8217;s forgotten purchase and more like something that had arrived with its own assignment.</span></p><p><span>Quinn reached for it without meaning to.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I wrote reports,&#8221; she said. &#8220;That was my writing. Clear, precise, useful. No unnecessary detail.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar lifted an eyebrow. &#8220;I&#8217;m fond of unnecessary detail.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I know.&#8221; Quinn smiled faintly. &#8220;I used to be, too.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>She turned the pen between her fingers. &#8220;Before my work got serious, before everything had to be documented for someone else, I kept a little notebook when I traveled. Nothing important. The light on the water. A woman at an airport who looked relieved to be leaving. A red scarf caught on a chair. Things I didn&#8217;t want to forget.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley was very still.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;What happened to it?&#8221; she asked.</span></p><p><span>Quinn looked toward the darkening garden. &#8220;I stopped carrying it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one asked why.</span></p><p><span>That was one of the gifts of this table.</span></p><p><span>Quinn wrote slowly, then sat back.</span></p><p><span>I still notice.</span></p><p><span>By the time the first stars showed over the canyon, the notebook had made its way back to Riley.</span></p><p><span>She had meant to put it away. That was the sensible thing. They had eaten the olives, finished the cheese, complained about freezer meals, threatened karaoke, and agreed that Skylar should never again be allowed to estimate portions for crackers.</span></p><p><span>The evening could have ended there and still been good.</span></p><p><span>But the notebook sat beside Riley&#8217;s hand, no longer blank, holding four small entries that did not add up to anything practical.</span></p><p><span>Evening.</span></p><p><span>The freezer has betrayed me again.</span></p><p><span>The horse always knows the story first.</span></p><p><span>I still notice.</span></p><p><span>Riley turned to the next page.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I bought this for garden ideas,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Probably a container plan or plant combinations or some brilliant system I was going to invent and then forget to use.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val leaned over. &#8220;That sounds exactly like you.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley smiled, but she was thinking of all the notebooks she had filled with measurements, schedules, client sketches and lists of what needed to be done. Useful pages. Pages that moved projects forward.</span></p><p><span>She had written very little that let her just sit on her own veranda at twilight with friends she loved.</span></p><p><span>So she wrote the date.</span></p><p><span>Then, underneath it, one sentence.</span></p><p><span>Before we called it writing, we were only trying to save what mattered.</span></p><p><span>She read it aloud.</span></p><p><span>No one said a word.</span></p><p><span>They didn&#8217;t need to.</span></p><p><span>~~~~~</span></p><p><span>This is one of the short stories I&#8217;m writing inside the larger world of Echo Canyon. I share this in Fridays and Saturday&#8217;s Notes. And them collect them into one post for subscribers  </span></p><p><span>Some moments become chapters.</span></p><p><span>Some become </span><em><span>Life&#8217;s Threads</span></em><span> reflections.</span></p><p><span>Some are simply a place to sit longer with these women.</span></p><p><span>If you&#8217;d like more stories about women who are not done growing, beginning, wondering, changing, or finding their way back to themselves, I&#8217;d love to have you here.</span></p><p><span>Subscribe to </span><em><span>Knowing Yourself Through Fiction</span></em><span> and come back to Echo Canyon with me.</span></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Don&#8217;t leave them yet&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Don&#8217;t leave them yet</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Cost of Silence – A Story in Five Voices ]]></title><description><![CDATA[A Weekend Story from Echo Canyon]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-cost-of-silence-a-story-in-five-c17</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-cost-of-silence-a-story-in-five-c17</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 28 Jun 2026 13:03:12 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!h2vJ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0a7e8a0-fc39-496a-8ad3-e34b69a46e54_1774x887.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Plates still sat on the table beside torn bread, a bowl of olive oil, and wine glasses that had been filled, emptied, and filled again. The conversation had slowed into the kind of comfortable quiet that usually felt easy among them.</span></p><p><span>Tonight it didn&#8217;t.</span></p><p><span>Skylar turned her glass slowly between her hands. She had been doing that for the better part of five minutes, watching the last light catch the rim, then disappear.</span></p><p><span>Riley noticed first. &#8220;You&#8217;ve been quiet.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar gave a small laugh. &#8220;That&#8217;s actually the problem.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven looked over.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;The hardware store bothered me more than I wanted to admit,&#8221; Skylar said.</span></p><p><span>Riley frowned. &#8220;The compressor?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar nodded. &#8220;I asked the young man about the air compressor, and he looked straight past me and said I should bring my husband back.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val winced.</span></p><p><span>Raven&#8217;s jaw tightened.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I&#8217;ve spent decades speaking in lecture halls and boardrooms,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;I&#8217;ve challenged men who underestimated me more times than I can count.&#8221; She paused and looked down at her hands. &#8220;And I said nothing.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The veranda went still except for the soft clink of Riley setting down her fork.</span></p><p><span>Skylar looked at each of them then. At Riley, who had built a life from plans and courage. At Val, who had spent years keeping peace in rooms where no one noticed the cost. At Raven, who could read a horse, a person, or a silence before anyone else knew it was there. And at Quinn, who sat with one hand around her glass, watching the dark gather beyond the railing.</span></p><p><span>Skylar&#8217;s voice dropped. &#8220;What does silence cost us?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one answered right away.</span></p><p><span>Then Riley leaned back in her chair and stared into the darkness beyond the veranda. &#8220;I had my greenhouse plans out last week.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar turned. &#8220;The big one?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley nodded. &#8220;The one I&#8217;ve been sketching for three years.&#8221; A small smile touched her mouth, but it didn&#8217;t last. &#8220;I had everything spread across the kitchen island. Drawings. Measurements. Budget. Irrigation. Materials.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;That sounds like you,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It does, doesn&#8217;t it?&#8221; Riley folded her arms and looked toward the dark outline of the garden. &#8220;I was ready.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven studied her. &#8220;So what happened?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley was quiet for a moment. &#8220;A voice in my head told me to stop being ridiculous. It said, Riley, you&#8217;re fifty-five. Be practical. You don&#8217;t need to start something this big now.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one interrupted her.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;So I rolled up the plans and put them away,&#8221; Riley said.</span></p><p><span>Skylar&#8217;s expression softened. &#8220;Who told you to do that?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley gave a short laugh. &#8220;No one.&#8221; She looked down at her hands. &#8220;That&#8217;s the problem. No one said it to me. I said it to myself.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The words settled over the table. No one rushed to smooth them away.</span></p><p><span>Val reached for her glass but didn&#8217;t drink. &#8220;At the community dinner last month, someone asked how I&#8217;d been. Then she smiled and said, &#8216;You must miss your old life. You were so useful then.&#8217;&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley&#8217;s eyebrows lifted. Skylar muttered something under her breath.</span></p><p><span>Val gave a small shrug. &#8220;She probably thought it was harmless.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven said nothing.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I had ten replies ready,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;What kind of replies?&#8221; Riley asked.</span></p><p><span>A faint smile touched Val&#8217;s mouth. &#8220;Oh, some excellent ones.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>That earned a small laugh, but it faded quickly.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;But I said none of them,&#8221; Val said. The night air moved softly through the veranda, and she looked down at the table as if the answer might be written there. &#8220;I was raised to be polite. To smooth things over. Not make people uncomfortable. Keep the peace.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Her eyes lifted.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No one ever warned me that politeness can slowly make a woman smaller.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar nodded, but she didn&#8217;t speak.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I think silence cost me pieces of myself,&#8221; Val said.</span></p><p><span>Raven set her glass down. &#8220;A few weeks ago, I was at a dinner in town.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Her tone was so even Riley almost missed the shift. There were maybe a dozen people there, Raven said, a nice enough group gathered around a long table under soft lights. The kind of evening where people asked easy questions and gave polished answers.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;One by one, people started asking each other what they were doing these days,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;One woman was launching a consulting business. Someone else had just sold a company. Another was writing a book.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Val leaned forward slightly.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;The conversation moved around the table,&#8221; Raven said. Her mouth curved, though not quite into a smile. &#8220;And skipped me.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one spoke for a moment.</span></p><p><span>Riley frowned. &#8220;They didn&#8217;t ask?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No.&#8221; Raven looked out toward the canyon. &#8220;They assumed I was retired.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar muttered, &#8220;Because you&#8217;re over sixty?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;It wasn&#8217;t cruel,&#8221; Raven said, and somehow that landed harder. &#8220;They looked at me and saw a woman past sixty. They assumed whatever I had been, I had already done.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley&#8217;s voice softened. &#8220;What did you say?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven gave a short breath that might have been a laugh. &#8220;Nothing.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Then she finally looked at them. &#8220;I could have told them I still train horses. I could have told them I still work. I could have told them I&#8217;m still becoming. But correcting other people&#8217;s assumptions is exhausting.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>She reached for her glass and took a sip.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Sometimes silence is easier,&#8221; she said. Then, more quietly, &#8220;That doesn&#8217;t mean it&#8217;s free.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The table went quiet again.</span></p><p><span>No one looked at Quinn at first. Then, slowly, they all did.</span></p><p><span>Quinn hated being read by women who knew her this well. It was different from being watched by strangers or questioned by colleagues. These women were not looking for weakness. They were looking for truth, which was worse.</span></p><p><span>Riley spoke gently. &#8220;You don&#8217;t have to say anything.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I know.&#8221; Quinn&#8217;s voice was calm. Too calm. She stared at the stem of her glass and turned it slowly between her fingers. &#8220;When I worked for Homeland Security, people assumed big threats were the dangerous ones.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Raven didn&#8217;t move.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;They weren&#8217;t,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;Not usually. Most of the time, it was the small inconsistencies. The thing that didn&#8217;t fit. A delayed answer. A missing detail. A story that technically made sense.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar said nothing.</span></p><p><span>Quinn&#8217;s fingers tightened around the glass. &#8220;I was very good at noticing what was wrong.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley&#8217;s chest tightened because she already knew where this was going.</span></p><p><span>Quinn lifted her eyes then, and for the first time that night, the steadiness in her face slipped. &#8220;Which is why this is hard to admit.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The wind moved through the mesquite beyond the veranda.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I knew,&#8221; Quinn said.</span></p><p><span>No one moved.</span></p><p><span>Not even Raven.</span></p><p><span>Skylar spoke first. &#8220;Knew what?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Quinn&#8217;s jaw tightened. She looked past them toward the darkness, as if the answer might be easier to give if she didn&#8217;t have to watch it land. &#8220;That something was wrong.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The words came carefully now. Not polished. Not rehearsed. Just chosen one at a time.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;As small things began changing, I noticed,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;I noticed when goodnight became words instead of touch. I noticed when affection started feeling scheduled. I noticed when I began explaining her behavior before anyone asked.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I always had a reason,&#8221; Quinn said. Her voice stayed low, but every word seemed to cost her. &#8220;She&#8217;s tired. She&#8217;s stressed. She&#8217;s distracted. She loves me.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>The last one broke something in the quiet. Riley reached toward her, then stopped before her hand crossed the space between them.</span></p><p><span>Quinn closed her eyes. When she opened them again, she looked directly at the women around the table. &#8220;The worst part wasn&#8217;t what Robbie hid from me. It was how long I helped hide it from myself.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Skylar&#8217;s question returned to the table, not spoken this time, but present in every face.</span></p><p><span>&#8216;What does silence cost us?&#8217;</span></p><p><span>Quinn answered without hesitation.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Everything.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>No one rushed to make it better.</span></p><p><span>That was the first kindness.</span></p><p><span>Riley didn&#8217;t tell Quinn it wasn&#8217;t her fault, though it wasn&#8217;t. Val didn&#8217;t reach for the nearest comfort. Skylar didn&#8217;t turn the moment into language she could manage. Raven simply sat with her, steady as stone.</span></p><p><span>The canyon darkened around them. Somewhere beyond the veranda, a night bird called once and fell silent.</span></p><p><span>After a while, Riley picked up the bread basket and passed it to Quinn.</span></p><p><span>Quinn looked at it, then at Riley.</span></p><p><span>It was such a small thing. Bread passed across a table. A hand extended. A room that did not require her to explain herself before she was allowed to be held.</span></p><p><span>Quinn took a piece.</span></p><p><span>The silence changed then.</span></p><p><span>It did not disappear.</span></p><p><span>But it stopped swallowing them.</span></p><div><hr></div><p>To stay with the women on the veranda, where the stories never end, </p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;Https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come inside.&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="Https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Come inside.</span></a></p><p></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Better Dirt Than Dead]]></title><description><![CDATA[Sometimes the hardest part of letting go is facing the space it leaves behind.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/better-dirt-than-dead</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/better-dirt-than-dead</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 21 Jun 2026 13:03:11 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3><em><span>An Echo Canyon Weekend Story - It&#8217;s not really about the garden.</span></em></h3><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png" width="1225" height="1284" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/aab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1284,&quot;width&quot;:1225,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:2920033,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/202594899?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nt6F!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faab6bf91-2510-4525-9dbc-2ec100a82fb4_1225x1284.png 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><span>Riley stood on the veranda staring at a pot she had been avoiding for nearly a week. The pentas looked great. The scaevola was trailing fabulously over the edge exactly as it should. And right in front, where everyone climbing the steps could see it, sat a nasty brown plant that was very clearly dead.</span></p><p><span>She folded her arms. The plant did not appear concerned.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You&#8217;ve been standing there a while.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley turned. Ben was coming up the path carrying two mugs of coffee.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;I paid good money for that plant,&#8221; she said.</span></p><p><span>Ben handed her a mug and looked into the pot. &#8220;I don&#8217;t think it&#8217;s worried about getting your money&#8217;s worth.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley laughed despite herself. She looked back at the plant. The thing was beyond saving. Brittle. Brown. Finished.</span></p><p><span>Still, she had left it there. Every morning she noticed it. Every evening she noticed it. And every day she found a reason not to pull it out.</span></p><p><span>Ben studied her for a moment.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Do you think it&#8217;s coming back?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;No.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Then why is it still there?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley opened her mouth, then closed it again. The truth sounded ridiculous once she tried to say it out loud.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Because then there&#8217;ll be a hole.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Ben nodded. As if that explained everything.</span></p><p><span>Maybe it did. The dead plant bothered her. The empty space would bother her too. At least with the dead plant she could pretend she hadn&#8217;t given up on it.</span></p><p><span>Ben pointed toward the garden bench where a trowel lay in the shade.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Better dirt than dead.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley smiled.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;You&#8217;ve said that before.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Because it&#8217;s true.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>She set down her coffee and crouched beside the pot. The stem snapped between her fingers. No resistance.</span></p><p><span>No surprise.</span></p><p><span>Just confirmation.</span></p><p><span>A moment later the plant was out. She brushed a little soil back into place and stood. The pot wasn&#8217;t perfect. There was an obvious gap where the plant had been.</span></p><p><span>There were still decisions to make. But somehow it looked better.</span></p><p><span>Ben took a sip of coffee.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;See?&#8221;</span></p><p><span>Riley nodded.</span></p><p><span>The strange thing was that the empty space didn&#8217;t bother her nearly as much as she thought it would.</span></p><p><span>The dead plant had been asking something of her every time she walked past.</span></p><p><span>Fix me.</span></p><p><span>Save me.</span></p><p><span>Do something.</span></p><p><span>The empty space asked for nothing at all.</span></p><p><span>It simply waited.</span></p><p><span>For whatever might come next.</span></p><p><span>Riley looked out across Echo Canyon, the morning sun just beginning to touch the far ridge.</span></p><p><span>Not every problem needed to be solved immediately.</span></p><p><span>Not every ending needed to be hidden.</span></p><p><span>Sometimes the best thing you could do was remove what was clearly done and give yourself room to decide what came next.</span></p><p><span>She picked up her coffee.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Better dirt than dead,&#8221; she said.</span></p><p><span>Ben grinned.</span></p><p><span>&#8220;Now you&#8217;re getting it.&#8221;</span></p><p><span>&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;&#10175;</span></p><p>There&#8217;s more to this story than what appears on the page. There always is. Story Insiders come inside to see the layers&#8212;the private journals, the complete reflections, the full chapters as I write them. If you&#8217;re ready to sit closer, I invite you&#8230;</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come inside.&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Come inside.</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[What Am I Waiting For? ]]></title><description><![CDATA[The question arrived on an ordinary evening.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/what-am-i-waiting-for</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/what-am-i-waiting-for</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 14 Jun 2026 12:31:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/df29f917-11c3-46da-ac91-fd86a10fbdd6_1254x1254.png" length="0" 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A journal rested open in her lap, one she hadn&#8217;t touched in years. A folded sketch slid from between the pages. She recognized it immediately.</p><p>It was a building with stone arches and curved windows. A place she had designed long before she moved to Echo Canyon. A greenhouse.</p><p>Back then, she had called it impractical. It was way too expensive and probably too ambitious. Whenever she pulled out the sketch again, she told herself she was too busy. Years went by, and she simply stopped thinking about it.</p><p>Tonight, sitting alone on her veranda, the sketch still tugged at her. The canyon&#8217;s breeze rippled a corner of the page. The dream hadn&#8217;t disappeared. It seemed like it had been waiting.</p><p>Riley closed the journal and looked into the darkness. The dream had waited. Waiting for what?</p><p>The question followed Riley into the next morning. She stood in the kitchen looking out at her expansive back garden. Could she build the greenhouse out there? When she had told herself she wasn&#8217;t building anything anymore?</p><p>She found Quinn on the veranda with a cup of coffee growing cold beside her.</p><p>Quinn was staring toward the canyon rim.</p><p>&#8220;What are you thinking about?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>Quinn laughed softly. &#8220;That&#8217;s the problem. I don&#8217;t think I am.&#8221;</p><p>Riley sat down.</p><p>&#8220;For thirty years, my life was schedules, reports, investigations, and problems to solve. Every day had a purpose.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And now?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Now I think about groceries. Bills. Appointments.&#8221;</p><p>The words hung between them.</p><p>&#8220;When did I stop imagining how things might be different?&#8221; Quinn asked.</p><p>Riley smiled.</p><p>&#8220;I asked myself the same question last night.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn looked at her. &#8220;I used to think about possibilities. Now I think about errands.&#8221;</p><p>The thought stayed with both Riley and Quinn all day.</p><p>That evening, the women gathered for dinner like they often did, on Riley&#8217;s veranda.</p><p>The conversation wandered on the normal topics, moving from horses to books to whatever Val happened to be growing.</p><p>Then Raven set down her wine glass. &#8220;Let&#8217;s try something.&#8221;</p><p>Four pairs of eyes narrowed suspiciously. Raven ignored them.</p><p>What would you regret not doing before your time here is done?&#8221;</p><p>The women put down their glasses and quieted.</p><p>&#8220;Not what you&#8217;ve accomplished,&#8221; she clarified. &#8220;Not what you want to buy or what you&#8217;ve given to everyone else. What do you still want for yourself?&#8221;</p><p>No one spoke. Then Riley surprised herself. &#8220;I want to build a greenhouse. For me.&#8221;</p><p>The others turned toward her. &#8220;A real one. I designed it decades ago and never built it. The sketch tumbled out of an old journal last night.&#8221; Murmurs of appreciation filled the night air.</p><p>Quinn nodded slowly. &#8220;I&#8217;m not trying to copy Riley.&#8221; She looked at Riley and winked. &#8220;I want to create a home, here in Echo Canyon. A place I own. I have never owned a house. I don&#8217;t count the condo. That has always felt like a rental.&#8221;</p><p>Val stared at the table. When she finally spoke, her voice was barely above a whisper.</p><p>&#8220;I want to feel wanted for myself.&#8221;</p><p>Her honesty settled over the group. Nobody spoke. Somewhere below the veranda a coyote called from the canyon.</p><p>Val stared at her hands.</p><p>Skylar looked down at her plate, pausing to gather her thoughts.</p><p>&#8220;I was going to say that I want to stop being afraid. But that&#8217;s not it. &#8220;I want enough time to write all the stories still waiting for me.&#8221;</p><p>Raven smiled.</p><p>&#8220;Good.&#8221;</p><p>Then the four women turned toward her.</p><p>&#8220;Oh no,&#8221; Raven said.</p><p>Raven tried to get away without answering her own question.</p><p>&#8220;Oh yes, Raven,&#8221; Quinn replied. &#8220;You started this. I think we know you well enough to know you already have your answer.&#8221;</p><p>Raven laughed. OK, but you&#8217;re going to laugh.</p><p>Raven looked down into her wine. &#8220;I&#8217;d like to know what it feels like.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;What?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;To fall in love.&#8221;</p><p>The table went quiet. Raven laughed softly. &#8220;See? I told you.&#8221;</p><p>No one laughed. Raven picked up her wine in the silence.</p><p>&#8220;Really?&#8221; Skylar finally broke the silence.</p><p>Raven nodded. &#8220;Our people teach us to stand on our own. As a Shaman, I was never encouraged to pursue a lifelong partnership.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;So you&#8217;ve never been in love?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Even in the silence of your rules?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No.&#8221;</p><p>The answer felt much larger than the single word.</p><p>Skylar was the one to say what everyone was thinking. &#8220;I&#8217;m so sorry, Raven.&#8221;</p><p>Later that week, Val found Skylar in her garden.</p><p>The fountain murmured beside them while the late afternoon sun filtered through desert willows.</p><p>&#8220;I keep thinking about what I said,&#8221; Val admitted.</p><p>&#8220;About wanting to feel wanted?&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded.</p><p>&#8220;I spent most of my life helping people. Nursing. Volunteering. Taking care of things.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I convinced myself that wanting more was selfish.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar studied her friend. &#8220;You know what I think?&#8221;</p><p>Val shook her head.</p><p>&#8220;I think wanting something is often how we discover what&#8217;s missing.&#8221;</p><p>Val blinked. The words landed somewhere deeper than she expected.</p><p>For a long time, neither woman spoke. The garden did the talking for them. Water trickled, and birds sang as they darted in and out of the spray. The scent of rosemary drifted on the breeze.</p><p>Finally, Val smiled. &#8220;Maybe I need to stop apologizing for wanting things.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar squeezed her hand. &#8220;If I had lived your life, I would be agonizing too. But, that sounds like a good place to start.&#8221;</p><p>Before Val left, Skylar walked her through the garden. They paused beside the fountain.</p><p>&#8220;This place almost never happened,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>Val looked around in surprise. &#8220;What do you mean?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I dreamed about this garden for years.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar swept her hand toward the arches, the pots overflowing with color, the carefully placed stonework.</p><p>&#8220;I kept telling myself it was foolish. Too much money. Too much effort. Too indulgent.&#8221;</p><p>Val laughed. &#8220;It doesn&#8217;t look foolish.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No.&#8221; Skylar smiled. &#8220;It looks exactly like the dream I almost talked myself out of.&#8221;</p><p>A few nights later, after a busy day in town, Riley returned to her veranda. The sketchbook still rested beside her chair. The canyon stretched beneath the stars. She thought about Quinn, Val, Skylar and Raven.</p><p>She recalled all the things they had quietly stopped imagining. They didn&#8217;t lose sight of their dreams because they died. Because life had gotten loud, somewhere along the way, they had stopped asking themselves what they still wanted.</p><p>Riley opened the sketchbook again. The greenhouse waited on the page exactly where she had left it.</p><p>As she looked at her sketch, she smiled and took a deep breath of the night air. For the first time in years, she didn&#8217;t see an abandoned dream. She saw a beginning.</p><p>And this time, she knew she wasn&#8217;t alone in her thoughts.</p><div><hr></div><div class="callout-block" data-callout="true"><p>Many readers tell me they don&#8217;t want to leave the women of Echo Canyon when a story ends.</p><p>That&#8217;s exactly why I created <em>Story Insiders</em>.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come inside.&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Come inside.</span></a></p><p></p></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Echo Canyon Weekends: The Invitation ]]></title><description><![CDATA[A good friend knows when to let you work. A better friend knows when to interrupt.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/echo-canyon-weekends-the-invitation</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/echo-canyon-weekends-the-invitation</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 07 Jun 2026 13:31:22 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tHWT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1ea7b063-3101-4ace-9e1b-704769e8a7da_1774x887.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tHWT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1ea7b063-3101-4ace-9e1b-704769e8a7da_1774x887.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div 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Think of it as a story that unfolds one note at a time between Friday and Saturday, then comes to its natural conclusion. The entire story is in subscribers&#8217; inboxes on Sunday.</p><h2>Echo Canyon Weekend<br>The Invitation</h2><p>The light off the canyon wall was too good to waste on laundry.</p><p>Riley leaned back in her chair, watching the ash trees tremble in the breeze. She thought about the women she loved, each buried in &#8220;important&#8221; things. The kind of important that could swallow a whole season.</p><p>Her pond garden had taken a beating from the monsoon winds. She could repair it alone, but where was the fun in that?</p><p>She pulled a notepad closer and wrote:</p><p>Skylar<br>Quinn<br>Val<br>Raven</p><p>She could picture their protests already. Work. Deadlines. Responsibilities.</p><p>She would counter with grilled vegetables, crusty bread, and chilled sangria. Promise them the outdoor shower and a towel fresh from the line.</p><p>If she were lucky, they&#8217;d stay until dark, the pond lit by lanterns.</p><p>It had been a long time since she had planned a day like this, and longer still since she had wanted to. She knew it was time to shove the to-do list aside, call her friends, and yank them out of their muck.</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s voice was muffled, obviously because Riley could see she was half-buried in a stack of maps in her gigantic office.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m busy, Riley. We&#8217;re cataloguing my next book&#8217;s chapters. Do you know how long I&#8217;ve waited to get these done?&#8221;</p><p>Riley grinned.</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll still be cataloguing them tomorrow. And the next day. Meanwhile, I have sage seedlings with your name on them.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;re trying to tempt me with herbs?&#8221; Skylar asked.</p><p>&#8220;And sunshine. And friends. And sangria. You can bring your notebook if it makes you feel productive.&#8221;</p><p>A pause.</p><p>&#8220;What time?&#8221;</p><p>Riley let out a breath she hadn&#8217;t realized she was holding.</p><p>&#8220;Noon. Wear something you don&#8217;t mind getting muddy.&#8221;</p><p>She could see Skylar&#8217;s reluctant smile through the VID.</p><p>One down.</p><p>Quinn answered the VID on the second ring.</p><p>She was sitting cross-legged on the floor, sleeves rolled up, surrounded by stacks of battered cardboard boxes.</p><p>&#8220;What&#8217;s in them?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;My old Homeland Security journals. I told myself I&#8217;d start sorting today.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And how&#8217;s that going?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn sighed.</p><p>&#8220;Two hours in, I&#8217;ve reread exactly three entries. I might be here forever.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Or,&#8221; Riley said slowly, &#8220;you could come here, dig in the dirt, and let the past wait until tomorrow.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That&#8217;s your big pitch?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I also have marinated olives, your favorite cheese, and the bottle of that white wine you brought to my birthday.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn stared at her. Silence stretched between them. Then she laughed.</p><p>&#8220;Fine. But I&#8217;m not weeding that far side. That muck is too deep.&#8221;</p><p>Riley&#8217;s next call was to Val.</p><p>When the screen opened, Val&#8217;s kitchen table had disappeared beneath seed packets and open notebooks.</p><p>&#8220;Are you planting?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Planning,&#8221; Val corrected. &#8220;I&#8217;m charting soil pH and companion plants. I want to replicate some natural medicines my grandmother used. This isn&#8217;t just gardening. It&#8217;s research.&#8221;</p><p>Riley laughed.</p><p>&#8220;Important research. But one day away won&#8217;t derail it.&#8221; She told Val her plans.</p><p>Val hesitated.</p><p>&#8220;The timing isn&#8217;t ideal.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll get fresh herb cuttings from my pond bed. And I need someone who knows how to keep mint from mutinying.&#8221;</p><p>A reluctant chuckle escaped.</p><p>&#8220;Mint&#8217;s a bully.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;So come wrangle it for me.&#8221;</p><p>Val sighed.</p><p>&#8220;Alright. But I&#8217;m not wearing shoes.&#8221;</p><p>Raven answered from the paddock.</p><p>A young mare circled behind her, ears forward, muscles rippling in the morning sun.</p><p>&#8220;Training?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;She&#8217;s almost ready for her first ride.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Almost ready means not today,&#8221; Riley replied. &#8220;Come get your hands muddy instead.&#8221;</p><p>Raven shook her head.</p><p>&#8220;You&#8217;re impossible.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve been told.&#8221;</p><p>The mare trotted past behind her.</p><p>Riley smiled.</p><p>&#8220;Besides, the mare will thank you for a day off. And so will I.&#8221;</p><p>Raven studied her for a long moment. The sound of hooves drifted through the speaker. Then she smiled.</p><p>&#8220;But if you make me plant cattails, I&#8217;m walking out.&#8221;</p><p>Now Riley had all four.</p><p>The air was thick with rosemary and wet earth. Skylar arrived in a wide-brimmed hat. Val kicked off her shoes almost immediately. Quinn rinsed her hands in the pond and declared the mud situation worse than advertised. Raven hauled water lilies across the garden like trophies.</p><p>At first there was only the sound of shovels biting into soil and the occasional splash.</p><p>Then came the stories. Then the teasing.Then the laughter.</p><p>&#8220;Do you know,&#8221; Skylar said, wiping dirt from her cheek, &#8220;I almost stayed home.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Me too,&#8221; Val admitted.</p><p>Quinn shook her head. &#8220;I was planning to spend the day rereading old reports. This is better.&#8221;</p><p>The work slowed as the afternoon softened. Nobody seemed to care.</p><p>The lanterns swayed gently in the canyon breeze.</p><p>The mud had been rinsed from hands. The tools were put away. The pond glimmered like it had always been whole.</p><p>The five women sprawled across Riley&#8217;s veranda with plates of food and glasses that never seemed to empty.</p><p>Riley curled her toes against the stone floor and watched them. Her friends had resisted at first. Yet one by one they had come and not one of them regretted it.</p><p>A long silence settled comfortably over the group. A kind that only arrives among people who know each other well. Riley looked toward the pond, leaning back into the warmth of her seat.</p><p>No one would remember the chores they skipped that day. Nor the emails unanswered, the reports unread, the plans postponed. But they&#8217;ll remember this day. The irises replanted, the mud streaked on cheeks, the laughter that lasted until dark.</p><p>She closed her eyes, lantern light flickering through her lids, and wondered if maybe this was the kind of day she could keep choosing.</p><p><strong>The End</strong></p><p>If you enjoy spending time in Echo Canyon, Story Insiders receive a new chapter of <em>Mirage of Trust</em> every week as it&#8217;s being written.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come inside&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Come inside</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Those Who Stay ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Where the story continues, long after the others have gone. A Dose of Fiction from Echo Canyon]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-stay</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-stay</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 03 Apr 2026 12:31:28 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!scX-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28ae5930-678b-4fb3-ad60-dfa0fe1465c5_1526x984.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!scX-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28ae5930-678b-4fb3-ad60-dfa0fe1465c5_1526x984.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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Someone opened the back door to the veranda without saying anything, and one by one, they drifted outside and down to the fire pit.</p><p>The fire had been started earlier in the evening. It didn&#8217;t need much. Just a small shift of wood, a nudge to the embers, and it came back to life.</p><p>No one said they were sticking around.</p><p>They just&#8230; stayed.</p><p>Raven settled into her chair and looked around at the others. &#8220;Funny, isn&#8217;t it? All week I kept thinking, why do we always end up the last ones? And then I realized&#8230;because we like it that way.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn smiled into her mug. &#8220;At the library, the whole meeting was polite. You know the kind. Everyone saying the right things, no one really saying anything. The real conversation didn&#8217;t start until it was just Skylar and me. I almost left. If I had, I would&#8217;ve missed the part where she told me beginnings come when the room empties.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar let out a soft laugh. &#8220;I was only half-serious. But there&#8217;s truth in it. I used to think leaving early meant I was being considerate. Now I think staying might be the more honest choice.&#8221;</p><p>Val tipped her chair back slightly, balancing without thinking. &#8220;At the dance hall, Raven and I stayed behind to help clean up. We grabbed the brooms and ended up waltzing across the floor. No music left, no one watching. Just us, laughing like we were twenty again. I couldn&#8217;t tell you what songs they played earlier, but I&#8217;ll remember that dance.&#8221;</p><p>Riley ran her finger along the rim of her mug, the motion slow, thoughtful. &#8220;I used to leave first. I told myself I was just ready to go home. One night I stayed, and Ben was still outside, tending the fire. I sat down for a minute, and somehow that turned into a conversation I didn&#8217;t know I needed. Turns out the best part hadn&#8217;t even started yet.&#8221;</p><p>Raven glanced toward the edge of the canyon where the desert night pressed close, quiet but present. &#8220;The canyon does that too. Remember the trail ride? Everyone else pushed ahead, but when Skylar slowed down, the rest of us followed. That light&#8230; it didn&#8217;t show up until it was just us out there. Like the canyon was waiting.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar nodded, her voice softer now. &#8220;That was the first time I stopped trying to keep pace with everything around me. I let things meet me where I was instead. I think that&#8217;s why these moments feel different. They&#8217;re not rushed. They don&#8217;t belong to anyone else.&#8221;</p><p>Val leaned forward, her tone shifting, not heavier, just more grounded. &#8220;It&#8217;s more than the time. It&#8217;s what we get from each other when we&#8217;re not trying to get somewhere else. I told you I&#8217;d trade my stars for their city noise, Skylar. I meant that. These moments&#8230; they give something back.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn nodded. &#8220;People think staying late means holding on. But it doesn&#8217;t feel like that. It feels like choosing. Choosing not to leave the part that matters.&#8221;</p><p>Riley reached for the teapot and poured slowly, steady hands, no need to rush. &#8220;It&#8217;s like the garden after pruning. Once you clear out what isn&#8217;t needed, what&#8217;s left has room to breathe. Staying does that. It leaves space for what&#8217;s real.&#8221;</p><p>No one spoke for a while after that.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t the kind of silence that needed filling. It was the kind that settles in comfortably, as if it&#8217;s been invited. The desert carried on in its own rhythm, a bird calling once, then again, a breeze moving through as if it had somewhere to be but wasn&#8217;t in a hurry to get there.</p><p>Raven broke it first, a small smile returning. &#8220;So maybe we&#8217;ve had it wrong. We&#8217;re not the last to leave.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar lifted her mug slightly. &#8220;We&#8217;re the ones who choose to stay.&#8221;</p><p>There was a soft clink as the mugs met, nothing formal, nothing announced.</p><p>Just a quiet agreement.</p><p>And as the night deepened around them, no one reached for their keys.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Stay Inside the Story&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Stay Inside the Story</span></a></p><p>This story isn't a full chapter.</p><p>It's a moment.</p><p>The kind that happens after most people have gone home.</p><p>The new chapters start soon.</p><p>You don&#8217;t have to leave.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Not Now. Not Yet. ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Five women at the edge of what comes next, and the courage it takes to wait without disappearing.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/not-now-not-yet</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/not-now-not-yet</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 17 Jan 2026 22:09:30 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QH_6!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F21ea78f3-5da8-4889-aa55-5113006535b6_2145x2382.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Like my life right now  </p><p>Nothing gets decided. No one has a breakthrough. The women are still carrying the same questions they were last week, but now they&#8217;re listening to them more carefully.</p><p>Skylar asks for help she knows she&#8217;ll need.</p><p>Raven has to say not now.</p><p>Quinn opens the boxes of a finished life.</p><p>Riley feels the edge of not knowing, and lets it stay there.</p><p>This is a week about timing. About restraint. About learning the difference between not now and not yet.</p><p>Here are the five stories, together.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; You didn&#8217;t ask yet, but not now.</strong></p><p>Skylar calls before she drives out.</p><p>&#8220;Are you home?&#8221;</p><p>Then, after a pause, &#8220;And do you have time?&#8221;</p><p>Raven says yes, though she already knows time is the wrong word.</p><p>Skylar arrives without a bag, without papers. They walk the fence line together. Skylar asks careful questions. About who decides what gets shared. About how trust works when history isn&#8217;t yours.</p><p>Raven answers what she can. She notices what Skylar doesn&#8217;t ask.</p><p>When they stop, Skylar turns to her.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going to need your help,&#8221; she says. Not asking yet. Just stating it.</p><p>That night, Raven opens her calendar.</p><p>Not now, she thinks.</p><p>And closes it.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Publishing Teaches Patience</strong></p><p>Skylar tells herself she understands.</p><p>She&#8217;s waited before. Publishing teaches patience, whether you want it or not. Still, the pause sits heavier than she expected.</p><p>She rereads her notes. Edits a paragraph that doesn&#8217;t need editing. Starts a list she doesn&#8217;t finish.</p><p>Not now sounds too much like maybe never when the ground you&#8217;re standing on isn&#8217;t yours.</p><p>She doesn&#8217;t call Raven.</p><p>She waits.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Volumes of Journals</strong></p><p>Quinn hasn&#8217;t opened the boxes in years.</p><p>They&#8217;re stacked neatly, labeled in her handwriting. Dates. Locations. Case names that still carry weight.</p><p>She and Riley sit on the floor. Quinn lifts a lid.</p><p>Inside are journals. Hundreds of pages. Observations. Decisions. Consequences. All of it reviewed, approved, redacted, released.</p><p>&#8220;This is my life,&#8221; Quinn says. Not proudly. Just factually.</p><p>Riley flips through a few pages, careful.</p><p>&#8220;So what will you do with them?&#8221; she asks.</p><p>Quinn shrugs. &#8220;I don&#8217;t know. But they&#8217;re done.&#8221;</p><p>Riley feels it before she understands it.</p><p>Done is a word she can&#8217;t use yet.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Who Am I Now?</strong></p><p>Riley talks too much at dinner.</p><p>She circles ideas she doesn&#8217;t believe in. Teaching. Consulting. Something adjacent. Something useful.</p><p>Quinn listens. She doesn&#8217;t interrupt.</p><p>Finally, she says, &#8220;You don&#8217;t have to decide tonight.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I know,&#8221; Riley snaps back, sharper than she means to.</p><p>But what she hears is something else.</p><p>You don&#8217;t know yet.</p><p>Later, when Ben stops by, he doesn&#8217;t ask how she&#8217;s doing.</p><p>He asks if she wants to ride tomorrow.</p><p>&#8220;Bring your sketchbook,&#8221; he says, already turning away.</p><p>Riley hesitates.</p><p>Then she says yes.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Not Empty</strong></p><p>Ben takes them higher into the canyon than Riley expects.</p><p>The trail narrows. The horses move easily, sure-footed. When they stop, it isn&#8217;t at a lookout with a sign or a bench. It&#8217;s a bend in the trail where the canyon rises straight up.</p><p>Riley dismounts. The rock face towers in front of her, layered and uneven, catching the light along one sharp edge.</p><p>She pulls out her sketchbook.</p><p>For thirty years, she&#8217;s drawn buildings. Plans. Structures meant to hold.</p><p>She studies the rock the way she once studied sites. Where it breaks. Where it holds. Where it refuses symmetry.</p><p>She draws one edge of the canyon wall as it climbs, then cuts back on itself.</p><p>A short distance away, Ben and Quinn sit talking quietly. She can&#8217;t hear the words.</p><p>Riley finishes the edge and stops. She doesn&#8217;t fill it in. She doesn&#8217;t label it.</p><p>She closes the sketchbook.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/184905554?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!jiha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F59af28d2-0eca-475f-8f67-a61c58b1db30_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>By the end of the week, nothing is solved.</p><p>But something has shifted.</p><p>A pause has weight now. Waiting has shape. Not knowing isn&#8217;t quite as empty as it felt a few days ago.</p><p>The canyon doesn&#8217;t offer answers. It never has. But it does offer edges. Places to stand. Something solid to look at when the path forward isn&#8217;t clear.</p><p>Next week, the women will move again. Not all at once. Not in the same direction.</p><p>For now, this is where they are.</p><p>And it&#8217;s enough to stay here a little longer.</p><div><hr></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Stop Talking Yourself Out of What You Want]]></title><description><![CDATA[A Dose of Fiction - Five women face the pull they&#8217;ve been postponing for years.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/stop-talking-yourself-out-of-what</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/stop-talking-yourself-out-of-what</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 09 Jan 2026 13:02:53 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4CUY!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ba6e4b4-e061-47d3-8120-ebdcf7e078d7_1290x843.jpeg 424w, 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Not goals. Just the quieter questions that tend to surface later in life. Why did I stop wanting things? What would it mean to start something now? What if I can&#8217;t stay with it?</p><p>No one made a plan. No one announced a new identity.</p><p>What happened instead was smaller and more honest. They named a pull they&#8217;d been managing quietly for years.</p><p>Below is the full collection from this week, read straight through.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Question That Wouldn&#8217;t Stay Small</strong></p><p>They were halfway through dinner on Riley&#8217;s veranda when the conversation drifted, the way it often did, toward what came next.</p><p>Not plans. Not goals. Just that loose, unsatisfying word. Next.</p><p>Val picked at her food. &#8220;I&#8217;m so tired of saying this but I&#8217;m going to anyway. I still don&#8217;t know what I want anymore,&#8221; she said, almost apologetically.</p><p>Riley nodded too quickly. &#8220;I&#8217;m right there with you.&#8221; She felt that familiar tug toward the notebook she kept near her desk, the one she told herself was just for lists and sketches. She rarely allowed herself to reach for it.</p><p>Quinn leaned back in her chair. &#8220;I keep thinking I should want something,&#8221; she said. &#8220;But I can&#8217;t tell if that&#8217;s real or just leftover momentum from work.&#8221;</p><p>Raven listened. She always did. Calm, grounded, entirely at ease in herself. She&#8217;d made her choices and lived inside them long enough to trust her footing. Her thought went to her horse and rider training center. Her legacy.</p><p>Skylar hadn&#8217;t spoken yet. The others knew her story. Three novels. All published. All bestsellers. When she did speak, it was usually because it mattered.</p><p>She lifted her glass, then set it down untouched.</p><p>&#8220;It seems we&#8217;ve all asked that question as we get older. When we leave our jobs, or pivot from them.&#8221; she said evenly. &#8220;We don&#8217;t know how to answer it. I believe I have suggested at some point, to most of you, to try journaling&#8221;</p><p>The table went still.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s face flushed. She remembered the very day she and Val shook hands on that very suggestion. She stole a quick glance at Val who lifted her shoulders in an apologetic shrug.</p><p>Neither said anything. They didn&#8217;t need to. The question had already landed, and it wasn&#8217;t leaving.</p><p>Breaking the silence, Riley picked up the casserole dish and passed it to Quinn. &#8220;Seconds anyone?&#8221;</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; What&#8217;s the Point of Starting Now</strong></p><p>Knowing the answer, Raven asked Skylar how her new book was going. Everyone stopped eating to listen.</p><p>Skylar didn&#8217;t hesitate. &#8220;I&#8217;m deep in the research. I&#8217;ve met several times with the Sab&#225;kari Council of Elders. It&#8217;s going to be the most challenging book I&#8217;ve done. It&#8217;s not about old bones and their mysteries this time.&#8221;</p><p>No one was surprised. If Skylar wrote it, it would be published. That wasn&#8217;t up for debate.</p><p>&#8220;This one&#8217;s different,&#8221; Skylar added. &#8220;It&#8217;s about the Sab&#225;kari, their lives, culture, beliefs. Their stories. Their first ancestors. It&#8217;s&#8230; important.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And terrifying?&#8221; Val said gently, smiling.</p><p>Skylar smiled. &#8220;That too.&#8221;</p><p>Riley watched Skylar closely. She&#8217;d expected excitement. Pride. What she saw instead was concern.</p><p>&#8220;Do you want to go through all of it again?&#8221; Quinn asked. &#8220;Agents, editors, deadlines?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar shrugged. &#8220;Eventually. Maybe. Right now, it just needs to exist.&#8221;</p><p>That caught Riley off guard. She frowned. &#8220;What if it doesn&#8217;t go anywhere?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar met her eyes. &#8220;Then it will still have been written.&#8221;</p><p>Riley felt a flush of something she couldn&#8217;t name. She thought of her notebook. Of the guilt that came with wanting to sketch when she had nothing to build. Of the voice that said it was frivolous now.</p><p>Skylar leaned back. &#8220;The point isn&#8217;t publishing. The point is not ignoring the pull.&#8221;</p><p>No one argued. They didn&#8217;t need to. The point had already been made.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Who Decides What Counts</strong></p><p>The talk turned practical, almost by habit.</p><p>&#8220;How long does something like that take?&#8221; Quinn asked.</p><p>Skylar answered easily. Timeframes. Research. Discipline. She didn&#8217;t romanticize it.</p><p>&#8220;And the industry?&#8221; Val asked. &#8220;Does it even want stories like that anymore?&#8221;</p><p>Skylar paused. &#8220;Publishing is a way,&#8221; she said. &#8220;It isn&#8217;t the only way.&#8221;</p><p>That surprised them.</p><p>Quinn thought of the boxes in her storage unit. Case journals from Homeland Security. Notes she&#8217;d written every night on assignment. She&#8217;d never called it writing. It never occurred to her to.</p><p>Riley stared at the grain of the table, her fingers itching to draw something, anything.</p><p>&#8220;I wouldn&#8217;t even know how to start,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;I&#8217;m too old to learn a whole new thing.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar shook her head. &#8220;You&#8217;re not learning a new thing. You&#8217;re just writing. There&#8217;s a difference. You learned how to nurse. After you got your license, you learned by doing. That&#8217;s how it is. You just write &#8230;. something. Anything.&#8221;</p><p>Raven finally spoke. &#8220;You don&#8217;t lose the ability to learn just because time has passed.&#8221;</p><p>Her confidence wasn&#8217;t loud. It didn&#8217;t need to be. She knew who she was.</p><p>Skylar added, &#8220;Getting something onto the page matters long before anyone else sees it.&#8221;</p><p>The room shifted. Something heavy moved aside.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; The Fear of Not Finishing</strong></p><p>Later, when the light softened and the food was mostly gone but the wine glasses were full, the doubts crept in. Not loudly. The way they always did, once no one was pretending anymore.</p><p>&#8220;What if I start and can&#8217;t finish?&#8221; Val asked.</p><p>She didn&#8217;t say the rest, but everyone heard it anyway.</p><p>What if I disappoint myself. What if I prove I waited too long.</p><p>Riley felt that one land hard. Energy wasn&#8217;t endless anymore. Neither was time. Starting something felt heavier now, not because she couldn&#8217;t do it, but because she didn&#8217;t want to abandon it halfway through like so many other quiet desires.</p><p>Skylar nodded. &#8220;This book scares me more than the others,&#8221; she admitted. &#8220;Not because of sales. Because of responsibility.&#8221;</p><p>No one interrupted her.</p><p>&#8220;If I begin it,&#8221; Skylar continued, &#8220;I have to stay with it. I can&#8217;t rush it. I can&#8217;t fake it. And I can&#8217;t walk away without knowing I listened all the way through.&#8221;</p><p>Raven watched the canyon darken beyond the railing, the shadows settling into familiar shapes. &#8220;My prot&#233;g&#233; writes every day,&#8221; she said. &#8220;She&#8217;s sixteen. No goal. No audience. She just writes because she has to.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That must be nice,&#8221; Quinn said.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s not about age,&#8221; Raven replied. &#8220;It&#8217;s about permission. Somehow she has it. Her mother and grandmother never told her to make it practical. They gave her the space.&#8221;</p><p>Riley swallowed. She thought about how often she pushed past her own signals. How often she told herself later, when there was more time, more clarity, more reason.</p><p>Skylar said quietly, &#8220;Finishing isn&#8217;t the promise. Depending on what you&#8217;re writing, it might be listening. Or patience. Or just staying present long enough to see what wants to happen.&#8221;</p><p>That settled something Riley hadn&#8217;t realized she&#8217;d been holding.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t about failing to finish.</p><p>It was about starting something honest and being willing to stay with it, even when it got uncomfortable.</p><p>No one rushed to speak. They didn&#8217;t need to. The fear had finally been named, and it no longer held the room.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Because You Can&#8217;t - Not</strong></p><p>By the time the evening began to wind down, no one was trying to convince anyone of anything.</p><p>The conversation had slowed. Plates were stacked. The canyon air cooled, moving across the veranda in steady breaths.</p><p>Riley reached for her notebook without comment and began to sketch. Not a plan. Not an idea she intended to explain. Just a few lines. A doorway. A shadow. Enough to start.</p><p>Quinn watched her for a moment, then said, almost to herself, &#8220;I might open one box of journals. Just one. I&#8217;ve never looked at them all together.&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded. &#8220;I want to write something that doesn&#8217;t have to be useful. Just something that sounds like me.&#8221;</p><p>Raven didn&#8217;t say anything. She didn&#8217;t need to. She sat back in her chair, certain in a way that came from having already chosen her own work in the world. She trusted what she was seeing.</p><p>Skylar looked around the table and felt something ease. Not excitement. Not triumph. Recognition.</p><p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t think this starts with wanting to write,&#8221; she said. &#8220;I think it starts with realizing we can&#8217;t not.&#8221;</p><p>Riley kept sketching. &#8220;Maybe I&#8217;ll write in sketches,&#8221; she said. &#8220;That might be how it comes out.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar smiled. &#8220;Then that&#8217;s how you write.&#8221;</p><p>No one applauded. No one announced a plan. No one promised to finish anything.</p><p>But something had shifted.</p><p>Not toward publishing.</p><p>Not toward outcomes.</p><p>Toward honesty.</p><p>Toward listening to ourselves, to the signals we&#8217;ve learned to ignore.</p><p>Toward letting what had already been waiting finally have a place to land.</p><p>And that was enough to begin.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/a0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/183502130?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RT86!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa0855ed6-0018-46fc-9b4c-256447dc84b6_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>I wrote these pieces while thinking about how many women carry the urge to write for years without knowing what to do with it. Not because they lack discipline or confidence, but because they don&#8217;t want to turn it into a whole new project they have to manage.</p><p>For readers who want a way to begin without overcomplicating it, I put together a short free resource called<strong> 3 Steps to Finally Start Writing the Stories Only You Know</strong>.</p><p>It isn&#8217;t expert-driven. It doesn&#8217;t assume you&#8217;re trying to publish. It simply offers three methods for getting something honest onto the page and staying with it, even when it gets uncomfortable.</p><p>You will get the link when you join as a subscriber.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p>No pressure. No timeline. Just a place to start if the pull you felt this week isn&#8217;t going away.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[You’re Not Broken — The Path Just Changed ]]></title><description><![CDATA[This Week&#8217;s Dose of Fiction]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/youre-not-broken-the-path-just-changed</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/youre-not-broken-the-path-just-changed</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 20 Dec 2025 13:01:57 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ij-9!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F554ed81d-9f97-46e5-b4b3-211b8cbe1295_939x515.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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We&#8217;re trained to fix. To patch. To return things to the comfort of what once worked.</p><p>But sometimes, the old path isn&#8217;t wrong. It&#8217;s just finished.</p><p>That&#8217;s what this week&#8217;s fiction explores.</p><p>Not collapse, but a quiet change.</p><p>Not drama, but adjustment.</p><p>If something in your life has stopped flowing, this story is for you.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Shift</strong></p><p>Riley noticed the change because she walked the canyon every morning.</p><p>About halfway down the usual route, where the wall curved inward and held the night&#8217;s cool a little longer, the ground no longer felt right. The gravel slid under her boot instead of holding. The slope pulled in a way it hadn&#8217;t before.</p><p>She stopped and looked around. The canyon itself looked the same. Same walls. Same scrub. Same quiet.</p><p>Only the path had shifted.</p><p>Riley assessed it the way she always did. Angle. Drainage. What the last storm might have done. It wasn&#8217;t dangerous. Not yet.</p><p>She felt a brief hesitation in her body, a tightening she didn&#8217;t have a name for. She stepped past it and kept going.</p><p>At breakfast she mentioned it to Val, casually.</p><p>&#8220;Part of the canyon path slipped,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Val looked up. &#8220;Which section?&#8221;</p><p>Riley told her.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll walk it tomorrow,&#8221; Val said.</p><p>The canyon sat outside the windows, unchanged, as if it had nothing to add.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Canyon Resists</strong></p><p>Val went early, before the sun reached into the canyon.</p><p>She followed Riley&#8217;s route until she felt the shift under her own feet. The canyon wall rose close on one side, rock dark and cool. The ground there had thinned, the gravel no longer settled the way it should.</p><p>Val knelt and touched the soil. She didn&#8217;t think of it as damage. She thought of it as imbalance.</p><p>She gathered flat stones and reset the edge of the path, reinforcing the section that had slipped. It took time, but by late morning the canyon path looked stable again.</p><p>That evening, Val felt satisfied in the quiet way she trusted.</p><p>The next morning, she returned.</p><p>The stones had moved. Not far. Just enough. The canyon path had softened again in the same place.</p><p>Val stood there longer this time. The canyon wasn&#8217;t dramatic about it. It hadn&#8217;t washed the work away. It had simply declined to hold it.</p><p>Later, she told Riley, &#8220;It didn&#8217;t stay.&#8221;</p><p>Riley nodded. She didn&#8217;t ask why.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Standing in the Canyon</strong></p><p>They stood together where the path narrowed, canyon walls rising on either side.</p><p>Riley talked through solutions. A wider cut. A more permanent grade. Something that would hold, no matter what the canyon did next.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s workable,&#8221; she said. &#8220;I can make it solid.&#8221;</p><p>Val listened, eyes on the ground, then on the rock face beside them.</p><p>&#8220;Why this path?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>Riley answered quickly. It was efficient. Familiar. It had always been the best way through this part of the canyon.</p><p>As she spoke, she felt something tighten in her chest. She kept going anyway.</p><p>Val didn&#8217;t argue. She didn&#8217;t agree either.</p><p>The canyon stayed quiet. Wind moved higher up, out of reach.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; How Heavy is Waiting?</strong></p><p>Riley drew the plan that afternoon.</p><p>It would solve the problem. It meant cutting deeper into the canyon slope and redirecting how they moved through that section. Not a disaster. Just a change they&#8217;d feel every day.</p><p>Val studied the drawing. She felt her usual instinct rise, the one that wanted to soften the impact, to suggest an alternative.</p><p>She noticed the instinct and let it pass.</p><p>Riley watched her, waiting for a response. The lack of one landed heavier than approval would have.</p><p>Outside, the canyon held its shape. No signal. No resistance. No permission.</p><p>Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction</p><p>You&#8217;re Not Broken &#8212; The Path Just Changed</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Moving Through the Canyon</strong></p><p>They didn&#8217;t talk it through again.</p><p>They took a different route through the canyon instead. Longer. Less direct. It required more attention, more pacing.</p><p>After a few days, it stopped feeling like a decision and started feeling like reality.</p><p>The original path remained unreliable. Not blocked. Just uninterested.</p><p>Riley noticed how often her body had registered a change before she&#8217;d allowed herself to consider it.</p><p>Val noticed how often she&#8217;d stepped in out of habit, not necessity.</p><p>The canyon didn&#8217;t change. But it breathed more easily.</p><p>They moved through it differently now, enjoying the fresh breeze, knowing they would listen more closely to what they felt before trying to make it cooperate.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/182141927?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3mop!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1e9b1d0a-7289-4fc9-a654-e011a7798f42_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p>A familiar path in Echo Canyon stops holding the way it always has. Nothing dramatic happens. No collapse. No danger. Just a quiet refusal to cooperate.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s instinct is to fix it. Val&#8217;s instinct is to stabilize it. Neither approach works. Over the course of the week, they stop trying to force a solution and instead adjust how they move through the canyon.</p><p>The shift isn&#8217;t external. The canyon stays the same. The change happens in how they listen to their bodies and instincts, and the limits they&#8217;ve been overriding.</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Do I want this to become my life now?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Dose of Fiction - A week when one decision changed everything]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/do-i-want-this-to-become-my-life</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/do-i-want-this-to-become-my-life</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 14 Dec 2025 21:23:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3sIx!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F430b44b8-a06d-4262-8b20-16042e7a0ce3_1024x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>The Choice That Shifted the Ground</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a 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class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><em>This week&#8217;s Daily Dose follows Raven through a decision that looks simple from the outside and anything but simple on the inside.</em></p><p><em>An offer arrives. Prestigious. Time-consuming. Impressive.</em></p><p><em>She can say yes. She has every credential to do so.</em></p><p><em>But she has also just claimed the life she wants.</em></p><p><em>What unfolds across these five short episodes is not about ambition. It&#8217;s about alignment. It&#8217;s about the pivots we make later in life when the question shifts from &#8220;Can I?&#8221; to &#8220;Does this belong to me now?&#8221;</em></p><p><em>Below is the full arc.</em></p><p><em>If you want to step inside the deeper layers of her decision, I wrote a Life&#8217;s Threads reflection that grew directly from this story. You can find that here.</em></p><p>Raven did not plan to pivot again.</p><p>Not after the Centennial Celebration. Not after deciding she was done traveling and ready to build a life where the horses came to her. But this week reminded me of something real. Later in life, the pivots don&#8217;t arrive with fanfare. They arrive in a single message, a quiet offer, or a question that forces us to stop and ask what we actually want now.</p><p>Raven can do anything. That has never been the question.</p><p>The real tension is whether she should.</p><p>This arc follows her through the kind of decision women make every day in their sixties and seventies, even if the world doesn&#8217;t notice. The cost of saying yes. The truth of saying no. And the possibility of shaping a third option that fits who she has become.</p><p>Here is the full story.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; The Holo-Message at Dawn</strong></p><p>Raven was brushing down Spirit when her comm blinked with a soft blue ring she did not see often. A secure message. National Equine Therapeutics Council. She wiped her hands on her jeans before opening it.</p><p>The holo projection rose above her palm, clear and formal. An invitation. A request for her to lead a three-month advanced training for horse trainers across the country. All expenses. High honor. Prestigious placement. Something she would have accepted without hesitation years ago.</p><p>She read it twice. Then turned off the projection and slipped the comm into her pocket.</p><p>Her rhythm with the horses was off. Spirit felt it. Sam noticed from across the corral. Val, cutting herbs for the day, watched Raven&#8217;s jaw tighten as she adjusted a saddle that did not need adjusting.</p><p>They had no idea the world was about to shift.</p><p>Just when she had decided she was done traveling, she was being asked to reconsider everything.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Impossible Choice</strong></p><p>Raven told Sam first. She always did. They stood by the feed bins, early light catching dust in the air.</p><p>&#8220;I will not leave for three months,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Shik&#225;ni cannot do this alone.&#8221;</p><p>Sam studied her. &#8220;You earned the offer.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;That is not the point.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;It might be.&#8221;</p><p>Later, Ben found her stacking hay bales one at a time, too methodically for a woman who usually worked in a rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s a good thing,&#8221; he said gently.</p><p>&#8220;It is also a bad time.&#8221;</p><p>Val brought over a thermos of tea and sat beside her on the fence.</p><p>&#8220;What do you want?&#8221; Val asked. &#8220;Not what the canyon needs. Not what everyone expects. What do you want?&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not answer.</p><p>Not because she didn&#8217;t know.</p><p>But because she did.</p><p>She wanted to go.</p><p>She wanted to stay.</p><p>And both truths carried weight.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; The Council Calls Back</strong></p><p>By mid-afternoon, the Council called her directly. Not a holo message this time. A live call.</p><p>&#8220;We would like your decision,&#8221; the organizer said. &#8220;Your methods after the Centennial event drew national attention. We designed the program around your approach.&#8221;</p><p>Raven stepped outside the barn. The canyon wind met her face. She listened. She thought. She tried to find a compromise.</p><p>&#8220;I cannot leave Echo Canyon for three months,&#8221; she said. Her voice was steady. &#8220;My people need me. My animals need me. And there is no one ready to take my place.&#8221;</p><p>She expected the organizer to thank her and end the call.</p><p>Instead, there was a pause.</p><p>A long, thoughtful pause.</p><p>Then the organizer said, &#8220;If you cannot come to us, perhaps we should come to you. Would you consider hosting the training in Echo Canyon?&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not speak.</p><p>Not out of fear.</p><p>Out of calculation.</p><p>This was a different kind of game-changer.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Do What Instead?</strong></p><p>Raven repeated the words quietly. &#8220;Host it here.&#8221;</p><p>Sam had been nearby and froze.</p><p>Ben, carrying tack from the truck, stopped mid-stride.</p><p>Val nearly dropped her basket of tools.</p><p>Echo Canyon was small.</p><p>Beautiful.</p><p>Sacred.</p><p>But small.</p><p>They did not have lodging for dozens of trainers.</p><p>Or enough space for their horses.</p><p>Or infrastructure for a national program.</p><p>The organizer continued. &#8220;Your demonstration proved Echo Canyon is a place of learning. We would adjust our scale. We would work with your limitations. We want the training centered on your methods, in your environment.&#8221;</p><p>Raven did not commit.</p><p>She only said, &#8220;I will consider it.&#8221;</p><p>When the projection faded, the quiet that followed was thick.</p><p>Sam finally spoke. &#8220;This would change everything.&#8221;</p><p>Val added, &#8220;It would lift all of you, not just you.&#8221;</p><p>Ben said nothing, but his expression told her he agreed.</p><p>Raven looked out across the canyon and felt the pull of two futures.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Living With the Decision at Dusk</strong></p><p>Raven gathered everyone that evening. Sam. Shik&#225;ni. Ben. Val. Quinn. Skylar. Riley. They sat outside the barn, the last of the sun turning the canyon walls deep gold.</p><p>She showed them the message. Both offers.</p><p>She told them the truth.</p><p>&#8220;I do not want to leave. But I do not want to shut the door on something that could lift this place.&#8221;</p><p>They talked in low voices.</p><p>Not over each other.</p><p>Not quickly.</p><p>Like a community that understands decisions have weight.</p><p>They discussed lodging, access roads, feed storage, water constraints.</p><p>They discussed pride.</p><p>Possibility.</p><p>Growth.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni, who had been silent most of the time, finally spoke.</p><p>&#8220;If they come here,&#8221; she said, &#8220;they learn our way. On our land. With our horses. That matters.&#8221;</p><p>Raven nodded slowly.</p><p>Then lifted her comm.</p><p>She sent a short message back.</p><p>&#8220;We will host it.&#8221;</p><p>No announcement.</p><p>No applause.</p><p>Just a choice that shifted Echo Canyon in the space of a breath.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/181605985?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!tVeu!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fce23fc29-f76d-4e4e-9231-b1d025743aed_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Raven did not chase the offer. She didn&#8217;t shut the door on it either. She let herself stand in the space between ability and desire, between what was possible and what was right for her life now.</p><p>In the end, she didn&#8217;t choose the old path or the expected one.</p><p>She shaped something new.</p><p>A pivot that fit her age, her wisdom, her community, and the woman she has grown into.</p><p>Most of us learn this late in life.</p><p>The question is not &#8220;Can I?&#8221;</p><p>The question is &#8220;Do I want this to belong to my life now?&#8221;</p><p>Raven answered in her own way.</p><p>And the canyon shifted with her.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>Coming next this week is my reflection on this story and for Story Insiders, (paid subscribers), an invitation to sit at my desk and the next entry to Riley&#8217;s Private Journal. I invite you to &#8230;</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Turn the page&#8230;&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Turn the page&#8230;</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Call No One Wants]]></title><description><![CDATA[The kind of news that pulls the ground out from under a person.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-call-no-one-wants</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/the-call-no-one-wants</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 06 Dec 2025 18:42:38 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Fh3K!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa4ac3907-8209-4c02-bb05-c995e2a4ba91_1199x600.jpeg 424w, 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One moment it was an ordinary morning, sunlight on marigolds, quiet between neighbors. The next, everything in him shifted. A brother he had not spoken to in years. A voice asking him to come. The kind of news that pulls the ground out from under a person.</p><p>Most of us have had a moment like that. A call that sends us back into a part of our life we thought was settled. A choice we do not feel ready for. A fear we hoped we would never have to face.</p><p>This is the full arc of that week. Quiet courage, one decision at a time. No drama. No quick fixes.</p><h2>Here is the whole story.</h2><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; No Ordinary Morning</strong></p><p>Ben was watering the flower beds between his house and Riley&#8217;s. He liked starting the day this way. Hoses, soil, sunlight, nothing complicated.</p><p>Riley was on her porch drinking coffee when his comm buzzed on the table beside him. A Florida number.</p><p>He almost let it ring.</p><p>&#8220;Hello?&#8221; he said, still watching the stream of water arc over the marigolds.</p><p>Then his whole body went still.</p><p>Riley set her cup down. She knew the difference between everyday silence and the kind that redraws a life.</p><p>Ben turned off the hose but did not move.</p><p>He looked at Riley, confused, pale, trying to form the words.</p><p>&#8220;It&#8217;s my brother,&#8221; he said quietly. &#8220;He&#8217;s really sick. They want me to come.&#8221;</p><p>The hose dripped onto his boots.</p><p>The marigolds waited for more water.</p><p>Nothing in the yard moved.</p><p>In a single breath of an ordinary morning, everything changed.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; The Choice He Did Not Want</strong></p><p>They sat in Riley&#8217;s kitchen, the late-morning light warming the tile. Ben kept his hands around the mug she had given him, but he never drank from it.</p><p>&#8220;I have not talked to him in ten years,&#8221; he said. &#8220;Not since the fight. I do not even know if he wants me there.&#8221;</p><p>Riley did not tell him what to do. She never did. She just listened. It made it harder to look away from the truth.</p><p>He stared out the window at the path between their houses.</p><p>&#8220;You think it means something that he asked?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You know it does,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Ben closed his eyes for a moment. The years between them rose like a tide.</p><p>If he went, everything unresolved could surface again.</p><p>If he stayed, regret would follow him for the rest of his life.</p><p>The trap was not his brother.</p><p>It was time, and how little of it anyone ever gets.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; When the Day Forced His Hand</strong></p><p>By afternoon, the call came from his brother&#8217;s partner. The words were simple. The tone was not.</p><p>&#8220;He is fading in and out. If you want to come, you should come now.&#8221;</p><p>Ben walked outside and tried to start his truck.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>Tried again.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>He put both hands on the steering wheel and breathed, slow and uneven. For the first time all day, he looked like a man trying not to break.</p><p>Raven found him that way. Sam behind her.</p><p>&#8220;We will cover the ranch,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Ben Junior will too. You go.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I do not even know what I will say to him,&#8221; he whispered.</p><p>Raven touched his shoulder. &#8220;You do not have to know that yet.&#8221;</p><p>Riley came out with her keys.</p><p>&#8220;I am driving you to the station,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Ben did not argue.</p><p>Sometimes the moment decides for us.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; The Door He Chose to Walk Through</strong></p><p>The station was quiet, late-day sun warming the benches. Ben carried one small bag. That was all he had packed. That was all he could manage without shaking.</p><p>Riley waited beside him, her turn to be steady.</p><p>&#8220;You can still turn back,&#8221; she said.</p><p>He shook his head. &#8220;No. I can&#8217;t.&#8221;</p><p>When the transport opened its doors, he paused.</p><p>&#8220;I do not know how this ends,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t get to know that. I&#8217;m sorry Ben,&#8221; Riley said.</p><p>She placed a folded photo into his hand.</p><p>The five women. The canyon behind them. His other family.</p><p>&#8220;Bring yourself back. That&#8217;s all we ask.&#8221;</p><p>Ben stepped inside.</p><p>The doors closed.</p><p>The world shifted.</p><p>One image stayed with him as the transport lifted.</p><p>His brother&#8217;s face, the last time they spoke, tight with anger, neither of them willing to bend. He wasn&#8217;t even sure what the argument was about.</p><p>Now that same face waited for him, changed by years he wished he had not wasted.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; After the Visit, the Quiet</strong></p><p>Five days later, Ben returned.</p><p>No announcement. No fanfare.</p><p>Just the sound of his boots on the gravel path between his house and Riley&#8217;s.</p><p>She met him at their gate.</p><p>He looked older. Softer. Something in him had been revised.</p><p>He sat at her table and let the quiet settle.</p><p>Finally he said, &#8220;He looked at me when I walked into the room.&#8221;</p><p>Riley did not move.</p><p>Ben&#8217;s voice thinned. &#8220;He just said, &#8216;You came.&#8217; That was it. Like it was the only thing that mattered.&#8221;</p><p>He reached into his pocket and set a small seashell on the table. Faded white. Smooth from years in water.</p><p>&#8220;I found it on his nightstand,&#8221; he said. &#8220;So I brought it home.&#8221;</p><p>Riley closed her hand over his. She did not try to fill the silence.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/180897889?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!_Gk2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fca164d34-9b25-4494-844b-66ececd86edc_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Some moments do not need words.</p><p>Some moments change us without asking permission.</p><p>Ben took one step toward what he feared most.</p><p><strong>If you were sitting at the table with Ben, what would you hope he does next?</strong></p><div class="pullquote"><p>I&#8217;m writing the stories I always wished existed for women our age. The private moments. The secret pages the women never meant anyone to see. Come inside to hear what they never say out loud.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Turn the page&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Turn the page</span></a></p></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Thanksgiving at Echo Canyon ]]></title><description><![CDATA[The older we get, the more grateful we become for the people who sit beside us at the end of the day.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/thanksgiving-at-echo-canyon</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/thanksgiving-at-echo-canyon</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 26 Nov 2025 16:28:37 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<h1>Happy Holidays!</h1><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!MeNh!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5caa14e1-d5f5-4e8e-acd8-e7adc7e81d54_1024x1024.png 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">The Women of the Canyon, (L-R) Raven, Riley. Quinn, Val, Skylar</figcaption></figure></div><p>Thanksgiving in Echo Canyon never arrives all at once. It builds slowly, one small kitchen disaster at a time. Riley destroying the first three pies. Val hunting for cranberries in a store that ran out. Skylar and Shik&#225;ni covering half the kitchen in flour. Quinn trying to wrangle Cameron and Channing in the wine aisle. All of it ordinary. All of it theirs.</p><p>What I love about this week is how simple it is. Every character preparing in their own way, making messes, magic, and showing up at Raven&#8217;s house with food, laughter, and a little chaos. One of those rare weeks where nothing dramatic needs to happen for a story to feel full.</p><p>This is the whole arc. A celebration of the people who have become family, even the ones who arrived by accident.</p><p>Here is the full story.</p><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; Riley&#8217;s Pie Disaster</strong></p><p>Riley decided she would make the pumpkin pies this year. It seemed simple. Flour. Spice. A recipe Sam swore by. What she forgot was that every oven she had ever used ran colder than the one in her Echo Canyon kitchen.</p><p>The first pie puffed too high. The second spilled over. The third baked unevenly. By the fourth, Riley leaned against the counter, laughing so hard she had to hold her side. Ben walked over from next door after hearing the smoke alarm chirp.</p><p>He took one look at the row of lopsided pies and the scorch mark on the bottom rack.</p><p>&#8220;You need help,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;I do not,&#8221; Riley insisted.</p><p>Her fifth pie came out perfectly.</p><p>Ben said it was because she finally let him turn down the oven.</p><p>Riley said it was because she refused to be defeated by dessert.</p><p>Either way, the house smelled like Thanksgiving.</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Val and the Missing Cranberries</strong></p><p>Val started the morning the way she always did before a holiday. A list on the counter. Ingredients lined up like soldiers. A quiet confidence that came from decades of knowing how to pull a meal together even when everything else in life felt unpredictable.</p><p>She was halfway through rinsing sage leaves when she stopped.</p><p>Cranberries.</p><p>Not in the bowl.</p><p>Not in the tote.</p><p>Not anywhere.</p><p>She checked the pantry twice.</p><p>Opened the tote again even though she had already looked.</p><p>Stepped outside and checked the truck bed as if the universe might have tucked the bag under a tarp just to be kind.</p><p>Nothing.</p><p>She sat in the driver&#8217;s seat for a moment before turning the key. Holidays had a way of reminding her that she was the one who kept traditions alive now. No one else.</p><p>At the small market outside the canyon, the cranberry shelf looked like a battlefield someone else had won. Empty.</p><p>Sam stood in line with flour and yams. He saw her face and held up a bag.</p><p>&#8220;You are not going to like this,&#8221; he said.</p><p>&#8220;What?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I bought the last two.&#8221;</p><p>Val crossed her arms.</p><p>Sam handed one over without a comment, just a soft smile she pretended not to notice.</p><p>Back home, she tipped the berries into the pot. The kitchen filled with their bright popping.</p><p>For a moment, standing there alone in the warm, sweet air, Val felt something settle.</p><p>The day had not gone the way she planned.</p><p>But the sauce would be perfect.</p><p>And that counted for something.</p><p>And she&#8217;d remember to thank Sam.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; Skylar and Shik&#225;ni Make a Mess</strong></p><p>Skylar offered to bring bread and stuffing. Shik&#225;ni insisted on helping. It should have been simple. It never was.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni chopped vegetables with the precision of a surgeon. Skylar measured nothing.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni followed a recipe. Skylar &#8220;felt it out.&#8221;</p><p>Halfway through, flour covered the table, the cat, and most of Skylar&#8217;s sweater. Shik&#225;ni had sage in her hair.</p><p>But there was laughter. Big, belly-deep laughter. The kind that only shows up when two women who adore each other attempt to cook from completely different worlds.</p><p>When the bread finally came out of the oven, warm and golden, Skylar tore off a piece and handed it to Shik&#225;ni.</p><p>&#8220;We did this,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni nodded. &#8220;Even though you refused to measure.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar bumped her shoulder. &#8220;Some things do not need measuring.&#8221;</p><p>The kitchen smelled like home.</p><p>The mess could wait.</p><p><strong>4&#65039;&#8419; Quinn, Cameron and Channing - Do the Impossible</strong></p><p>Quinn had one job. Bring the wine.</p><p>Cameron and Channing insisted on tagging along.</p><p>The problem began when Cameron announced that they should &#8220;pair the wines properly.&#8221; The second problem arrived when Channing decided they needed something &#8220;fun,&#8221; which Quinn suspected meant sparkling with fruit in it.</p><p>The third problem was that Quinn did not actually like asking for help, but she was stuck with these two and their overflowing enthusiasm.</p><p>At the store, Cameron debated oak versus steel barrel. Channing announced she found &#8220;the cutest cider ever.&#8221; Quinn looked at her list and wondered why she had not gone alone.</p><p>In the end, they bought everything.</p><p>Quinn hated the chaos.</p><p>She loved the company.</p><p>Back in the canyon, she set the bottles on Raven&#8217;s counter.</p><p>Raven raised an eyebrow.</p><p>Quinn said, &#8220;Do not ask.&#8221;</p><p>Raven replied, &#8220;I was not going to.&#8221;</p><p>They both laughed. The good kind.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; Thanksgiving at Raven&#8217;s House</strong></p><p>Raven&#8217;s home filled slowly. First the smells. Then the voices. Then the warmth of people who have lived through enough years to know what gratitude feels like.</p><p>Ben brought Riley&#8217;s perfect fifth pie, but snuck in another - the best imperfect one of the four. Val carried her cranberry sauce in both hands like a fragile treasure. Skylar and Shik&#225;ni brought bread still warm from the oven. Quinn placed her towers of wine on the counter and shook her head at the memory of it.</p><p>Cameron and Channing helped set the table, arguing joyfully about which napkins were &#8220;festive enough.&#8221;</p><p>Sam checked on the turkeys in the smoker.</p><p>Raven watched everyone move through her home and felt it. This was family, even the ones who were not born into it.</p><p>They ate. They talked. They teased each other.</p><p>There was no formality.</p><p>Just a group of people who had made it through another year, sitting shoulder to shoulder.</p><p>When the plates were cleared, Raven looked at them and smiled.</p><p>She did not say it out loud, but the truth settled in her chest.</p><p>They had built a life here.</p><p>Together.</p><p>Closer.</p><p>Thanksgiving ended the way the best evenings do. The dishes stacked in the sink, chairs pulled close, and the kind of quiet that settles when people feel safe together.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s pie. Val&#8217;s sauce. Skylar&#8217;s bread. Quinn&#8217;s mountain of wine. All of it part of the same table. All of it a reminder that the older we get, the more grateful we become for the people who sit beside us at the end of the day.</p><p>This was one holiday in Echo Canyon. There will be others.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg" width="524" height="94" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:94,&quot;width&quot;:524,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:6387,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/180035537?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!e84r!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F61659199-811a-4ae6-9e78-2996e01b8ac4_524x94.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[A CRAVING TO BELONG ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction, A 5-chapter series of micro-fiction stories. On trust, belonging, and the beauty of being invited in.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-craving-to-belong</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/a-craving-to-belong</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 09 Nov 2025 13:02:46 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4Oo8!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8ff8647c-3056-4121-b678-04b3d5a69aac_600x600.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16462,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/178374415?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Avha!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ead0813-94c9-4e40-8308-a7692f8e21b4_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Have you ever been invited behind the scenes?</p><p>Before everything was ready. The lights still warming up.</p><p>That moment when you&#8217;ve been invited into something still in the making. There&#8217;s a kind of magic in that space.</p><p>Pride for being included. Trusted with the mess. That quiet thrill of being part of what comes before the world sees it.</p><p>It stirs something deeper too.</p><p>A craving to belong. To be asked inside before the others.</p><p>See how this unfolds for the five friends from Echo Canyon in a recent micro-fiction series, Doses of Fiction. </p><h3><strong>Being Asked Inside Before the Others</strong></h3><h4>1&#65039;&#8419; Before The Doors Open</h4><p>Jack met Riley at the back door with a paper cup of coffee and the ring of keys.</p><p>&#8220;Maryanne is icing cinnamon rolls,&#8221; he said. &#8220;You get the patio.&#8221;</p><p>He set one key apart from the rest. &#8220;Yours, if you want it.&#8221;</p><p>Riley turned it over in her palm. Not heavy, but it felt like something.</p><p>The caf&#233; was quiet the way a stage is quiet before the curtain lifts. Chairs stacked. Floor swept. The hush of a room that remembers last night and still forgives you for it.</p><p>Maryanne waved from the kitchen window, flour on her cheek. &#8220;Go,&#8221; she mouthed, smiling. &#8220;Before everyone arrives.&#8221;</p><p>Outside, the air was cool against the stone. The old wall caught the first light. Riley walked the perimeter, fingertips grazing the rough edge where the new rail would run. She could already see it, the way chairs would angle toward each other, how people would lean in without noticing, how laughter would travel along the flagstone like water finding its line.</p><p>She took out her notebook and wrote the sentence her father gave her years ago.</p><p>Please, help us make this a place people want to sit.</p><p>Being invited in, before the doors, did something to her breathing. She didn&#8217;t feel hired. She felt trusted. It was the difference between consulting and belonging, between plans on paper and a key in your hand.</p><p>Behind her, the lock clicked as Jack opened the side door.</p><p>&#8220;Need anything?&#8221; he asked.</p><p>Riley looked up at the empty morning. &#8220;Just time,&#8221; she said. &#8220;And a few good chairs.&#8221;</p><h4><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; Horse Troughs and Thyme</strong></h4><p>Val backed her truck up to the patio with the precision of someone who&#8217;d done this a few times too many.</p><p>Six galvanized troughs rattled in the bed.</p><p>&#8220;Please tell me these aren&#8217;t all for herbs,&#8221; Riley inquired, not scolding.</p><p>Val smirked. &#8220;Herbs, color, and conversation. We&#8217;re building a mood, remember?&#8221;</p><p>Jack poked his head out the caf&#233; door. &#8220;Maryanne says to make it smell like hope.&#8221;</p><p>Val grinned. &#8220;Mint and basil it is.&#8221;</p><p>They worked through the morning in companionable silence, hands in the dirt, sleeves rolled up.</p><p>Riley handed Val the water hose. &#8220;You know,&#8221; she said, &#8220;when my dad talked about design, he always said, &#8216;Don&#8217;t build for the view. Build for the pause.&#8217;&#8221;</p><p>Val nodded, pressing a clump of thyme into soil. &#8220;Then we&#8217;d better give them a reason to linger.&#8221;</p><p>By noon, the troughs lined the stone wall, soft green against silver.</p><p>Maryanne appeared with lemonade. &#8220;Looks like somewhere I&#8217;d want to stay awhile,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Riley stood back, brushing dirt from her palms. &#8220;That&#8217;s the idea.&#8221;</p><p>The breeze shifted, carrying the scent of mint through the open doorway.</p><p>Inside, chairs scraped against tile. The day crowd would come soon, but for now, it was just them. The ones who got to see it first.</p><h4>3&#65039;&#8419; <strong>The Recipe That Remembers</strong></h4><p>The kitchen filled with a kind of music. Metal spoons on bowls, oil hitting hot pans, the low hum of voices that knew how to work together.</p><p>Shik&#225;ni stood beside her grandmother, who rolled dough with a steady rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;Food tastes different when it knows your story,&#8221; she said without looking up.</p><p>Riley leaned against the counter, notebook forgotten. She watched their hands, measured, patient, sure.</p><p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t really use recipes, do you?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>Navari smiled. &#8220;Memory is the recipe.&#8221;</p><p>Raven sprinkled roasted corn across a sheet pan. &#8220;She&#8217;s right. You don&#8217;t learn it, you feel it.&#8221;</p><p>Riley nodded. &#8220;That&#8217;s how I design. You build with memory, not measurements.&#8221;</p><p>Jack peeked in from the hallway, arms crossed, smiling. &#8220;I should&#8217;ve hired a poet.&#8221;</p><p>Maryanne swatted his shoulder. &#8220;You did. You just call her an architect.&#8221;</p><p>Laughter rippled through the kitchen, but it quieted into something else. A shared stillness that felt like reverence.</p><p>The scent of corn and warm dough rose around them, and Riley thought, <em>This is what it means to belong in the making of something.</em></p><p>Outside, the patio waited, the herbs catching afternoon light.</p><p>Inside, the room breathed as one.</p><h4>4&#65039;&#8419; <strong>A Place That Holds You</strong></h4><p>The patio was finished.</p><p>Ramada complete. Lights strung. Tables set. The herb troughs shimmered silver under the first light of day.</p><p>Riley arrived early, coffee in hand, the key still warm from her pocket.</p><p>She walked the perimeter like she had that first morning, but this time the air felt different, settled, expectant.</p><p>She chose a table near the wall, the one angled perfectly for conversation.</p><p>The kind of table her father would have lingered at, sketching plans on napkins.</p><p>Maryanne stepped outside, wiping her hands on a towel. &#8220;You came before the crowd again.&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled. &#8220;I like the quiet. It&#8217;s the only time you can feel what you built.&#8221;</p><p>Maryanne nodded. &#8220;You gave us a place that holds people.&#8221;</p><p>Riley looked around at the empty chairs and thought about all the hands that had shaped them. Contractors she knew she&#8217;d see again, Val&#8217;s soil-streaked, Raven&#8217;s flour-dusted, her own worn from years of designing spaces for everyone but herself.</p><p>A hummingbird darted between the planters, quick as breath.</p><p>She whispered, &#8220;A place that holds you,&#8221; and knew her father would&#8217;ve approved.</p><p>Inside, the first sound of dishes began, the start of the day. Maryann paused before going back in, a little shade of worry covered her face. &#8220;There&#8217;s more to come, Riley.&#8221;</p><p>5&#65039;&#8419; <strong>The Soft Opening - Come Inside</strong></p><p>The Canyon Caf&#233; glowed under the desert twilight.</p><p>The doors were still locked to the public, but inside, Jack and Maryanne had set the tables for twelve.</p><p>&#8220;Just family,&#8221; Maryanne said. &#8220;The ones who helped us build it.&#8221;</p><p>The gang arrived one by one. Raven, Navira and Shik&#225;ni carrying bread warm from the oven, Val with herbs clipped fresh from the troughs, Skylar balancing a tray of glasses, Quinn trailing behind with her camera.</p><p>The evening unfolded without fanfare.</p><p>No ribbon, no speeches. Just the easy clink of forks and the hum of conversation that fills a room when everyone already knows each other&#8217;s stories.</p><p>Riley watched from the edge for a moment, taking it in. The glow of the patio lights, the smell of frybread, the way laughter curled into the corners.</p><p>Maryanne came over in the quiet space. &#8220;Riley, I didn&#8217;t mean to say anything to you earlier. I don&#8217;t want you to think there&#8217;s anything to worry about.&#8221; Jack approached them, unknowingly cutting off his wife.</p><p>He pulled Maryanne in with his arm around her shoulder and looked into Riley&#8217;s eyes. &#8220;You made this happen.&#8221;</p><p>Riley shook her head. &#8220;We did.&#8221;</p><p>Later, as plates emptied and the sky deepened to indigo, Maryanne raised her glass.</p><p>&#8220;To the builders, the planters, the storytellers.</p><p>And to the ones who stayed long enough to see it come alive.&#8221;</p><p>For a heartbeat, the room was quiet.</p><p>Then someone laughed, someone sighed, and Riley thought, This is what inside feels like.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Come Inside!&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" 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flowers. Instead, they uncovered a buried story, a forgotten promise, and the kind of friendship that changes a neighborhood. Each piece this week invites you to imagine how an ordinary patch of dirt can become sacred ground.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg" width="736" height="416" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/eedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:416,&quot;width&quot;:736,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:471608,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/177206687?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!__K2!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Feedcf505-3660-4536-8eb0-ea33744511a9_736x416.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>1&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Day They Said Yes&#8221;</strong></p><p>Margaret stared at the strip of dirt between the women&#8217;s shelter and the chain-link fence. Weeds choked the ground; broken glass glittered in the sun. The fence sagged in places, offering zero privacy from the street.</p><p>&#8220;We could make this beautiful,&#8221; she said.</p><p>Her friend Linda snorted. &#8220;We&#8217;re seventy-two, Margaret. My knees creak when I stand up.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;So we&#8217;ll bring chairs.&#8221; Margaret scrolled through photos of climbing vines and latticework. &#8220;The shelter director said they&#8217;d love a garden. The kids have nowhere to play outside. The mothers feel exposed every time they step out the door.&#8221;</p><p>By Friday, they had five members and a plan. Rose brought her late husband&#8217;s tools. Patricia had seeds saved for years. Doris showed up with a pickup nobody knew she owned, bed loaded with cedar posts.</p><p>&#8220;For the new fence sections,&#8221; she said. &#8220;My nephew works construction. He donated materials and will help us install them.&#8221;</p><p>Margaret looked at the sad strip of earth. &#8220;We&#8217;re not just planting flowers. We&#8217;re planting safety.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;And hope,&#8221; Rose added quietly.</p><p>&#8220;When do we start?&#8221; Doris asked.</p><p>Margaret grinned. &#8220;How about now?&#8221;</p><p><strong>2&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Box Beneath the Roots&#8221;</strong></p><p>Week three, and the fence was taking shape. Cedar posts stood tall, waiting for the lattice panels. Patricia dug near the back corner, preparing a bed for climbing jasmine that would one day create a living privacy screen.</p><p>Her shovel hit something solid.</p><p>&#8220;Probably a rock,&#8221; Linda said, wiping sweat from her forehead.</p><p>But it wasn&#8217;t a rock. It was a metal box, rusted shut. About the size of a shoebox.</p><p>Rose grabbed a crowbar from Doris&#8217;s truck. The box opened with a screech that made them all wince.</p><p>Inside: old photographs, yellowed letters tied with ribbon, and a wedding ring with a small diamond that caught the light.</p><p>Margaret picked up a photo. A young couple, arms around each other, laughing. &#8220;Look at the back. &#8216;Love always, Thomas and Helen, 1952.&#8217;&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Someone lost their whole story,&#8221; Patricia whispered.</p><p>They stood in silence, five women holding someone else&#8217;s memories, aware that the shelter residents nearby understood loss in ways they probably didn&#8217;t.</p><p>&#8220;We find who this belongs to,&#8221; Margaret said.</p><p>The others nodded. Some things are too precious to leave buried.</p><p><strong>3&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Post That Changed Everything&#8221;</strong></p><p>Linda discovered Facebook was good for more than cat videos and arguments about politics.</p><p>She photographed the items carefully, posted them to local history groups:</p><p>&#8220;Found buried near Oak Street Women&#8217;s Shelter, 1952. Anyone recognize this couple?&#8221;</p><p>By noon, sixty shares.</p><p>By dinner, a woman named Carol commented: &#8220;That&#8217;s my parents. They lived in that house before it became a shelter. In the fifties.&#8221;</p><p>Patricia&#8217;s hands shook as she dialed the number Carol provided.</p><p>&#8220;Your mother&#8217;s wedding ring is here,&#8221; she said. &#8220;And love letters. About forty of them.&#8221;</p><p>Silence on the other end. Then soft crying.</p><p>&#8220;Mom died last year,&#8221; Carol said. &#8220;Dad&#8217;s in memory care now. He has Alzheimer&#8217;s. He talks about losing that ring every day. Says he failed her.&#8221;</p><p>Rose leaned in close to the phone. &#8220;Not anymore, honey. Tell him he protected it. He kept it safe all these years. It was just waiting for the right time to come home.&#8221;</p><p>More silence. Then: &#8220;Can I bring him to see where you found it?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Absolutely,&#8221; Margaret said. &#8220;And bring him to see what we&#8217;re building here.&#8221;</p><p>4&#65039;&#8419;<strong> &#8220;The Man Who Remembered&#8221;</strong></p><p>They met Carol and Frank at the shelter on Saturday morning. The garden was taking shape now. New fence sections were up, morning glories already beginning their climb.</p><p>Frank moved slowly with his walker, Carol steadying his elbow. He looked fragile and confused, his eyes distant and vacant.</p><p>Margaret knelt beside him as he sat on the new bench Doris&#8217;s nephew had built. &#8220;Frank? We found something that belongs to you.&#8221;</p><p>She opened her hand. The ring caught the morning sun, scattering tiny rainbows across the dirt.</p><p>Frank&#8217;s eyes sharpened. His fingers trembled as he took it, turning it over and over.</p><p>&#8220;Helen,&#8221; he whispered. &#8220;I lost Helen&#8217;s ring. I was supposed to keep it safe.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;You did,&#8221; Carol said through tears. &#8220;You buried it so it wouldn&#8217;t be lost. You were protecting it, Dad. You kept your promise.&#8221;</p><p>Frank looked up at the shelter, at the fence, at the women covered in dirt and hope.</p><p>&#8220;She would have liked this,&#8221; he said clearly. &#8220;Helen always said a garden could heal anything.&#8221;</p><p>He smiled. First time in months, Carol would tell them later.</p><p>&#8220;I kept my promise,&#8221; he said.</p><p><strong>5&#65039;&#8419; &#8220;The Garden That Remembered&#8221;</strong></p><p>Word spread through the neighborhood like wildflowers.</p><p>The garden drew donations: more lattice for privacy, shade trees, a small fountain that burbled softly. Someone planted climbing roses that would one day cover the fence, creating a living wall, and another donated motion-sensor lights.</p><p>Frank visited weekly with Carol, sitting among the flowers, telling stories about Helen to anyone who&#8217;d listen&#8212;shelter residents, their children, other volunteers.</p><p>The five original women kept gardening, but they weren&#8217;t alone anymore. Teenagers earning community service hours. A veteran who found peace in the early morning watering. Mothers from the shelter whose children now played safely, hidden from the street, protected by cedar, vine, and the watchful eyes of women who knew what sanctuary meant.</p><p>Margaret looked around one Saturday, dirt under her nails, back aching, heart impossibly full. A little girl laughed, chasing a butterfly between the tomato plants.</p><p>&#8220;We were just going to plant flowers,&#8221; Linda said softly.</p><p>&#8220;We planted something better,&#8221; Margaret replied. &#8220;We planted a place where people can remember they&#8217;re not just surviving. They&#8217;re living.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;We planted hope,&#8221; Rose added.</p><p>And watching from his bench, Frank smiled.</p><p>&#127802; They called it a garden. But it became something larger. A place that remembered every hand that helped it grow. This week&#8217;s story was one patch of earth in a much wider landscape. There are more. And they&#8217;re still blooming.</p><div class="pullquote"><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption"><strong>Knowing Yourself Through Fiction</strong> is where every story is a mirror, and every heroine shows us what&#8217;s still possible.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Is It Time to Set the Table Again? ]]></title><description><![CDATA[Not because you know who&#8217;ll come&#8212;but because you want to believe someone might.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/is-it-time-to-set-the-table-again</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/is-it-time-to-set-the-table-again</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 18 Oct 2025 23:29:23 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!UUAY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F07aaa18a-417d-4b28-96c6-0fe2dc9780e3_736x416.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Just six chairs and a hope.</p><p>Riley and Ben didn&#8217;t call it a potluck. It wasn&#8217;t a reunion. It was a gentle experiment: What would happen if they made space every week for something that looked like belonging?</p><p>And one by one, the women showed up. Some with food, some with stories, some with nothing but the ache of being missed. Together they filled the seats&#8212;and the silences&#8212;with what they didn&#8217;t know they&#8217;d been craving.</p><p>This week&#8217;s stories aren&#8217;t about grand confessions or dramatic gestures. They&#8217;re about showing up with store-bought rolls and mismatched chairs, sitting down anyway, and letting the pie be crooked. They&#8217;re about finding your place even if it wobbles a little.</p><p>Maybe your table&#8217;s been empty lately. Or maybe it&#8217;s been full, but missing something quieter. A pause. A joke. A second glass of lemonade.</p><p>What if it didn&#8217;t have to be perfect?</p><p>What if it just had to be shared?</p><p>Pull up a chair. There&#8217;s still room.</p><h4>1&#65039;&#8419; The Invite Wasn&#8217;t a Command. But It Felt Like One</h4><p>Riley had arranged the napkins three times. Folded. Unfolded. Diagonal. Then square again.</p><p>&#8220;This isn&#8217;t a restaurant,&#8221; Ben said gently.</p><p>She gave a tight smile. &#8220;I know.&#8221;</p><p>But she didn&#8217;t stop.</p><p>The table was too big for two, too hopeful for an ordinary Sunday.</p><p>Six chairs. Three candles. A vase of garden basil, already wilting.</p><p>Ben brought out the bread and set it down quietly. &#8220;Should we&#8217;ve called it a potluck?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;No,&#8221; Riley said. &#8220;It had to be a dinner. A real one. The kind I&#8217;ve missed for too long. Since I lived with my father.&#8221;</p><p>When the knock came, she nearly dropped the forks.</p><p>Val stood in the doorway, holding a plastic grocery bag. &#8220;I brought rolls. Don&#8217;t judge me.&#8221;</p><p>Ben grinned. &#8220;Store-bought counts.&#8221;</p><p>Val stepped onto the veranda and eyed the setup. &#8220;I&#8217;m just here early to pick my chair.&#8221; She took the seat to Riley&#8217;s left, the one with the better view into the garden, flickering with fairy lights.</p><p>They had just started to pass the olives when familiar boots sounded from the steps. No bag this time. Just Raven, in her faded denim shirt and that way she had of looking like she knew what this was all about.</p><p>&#8220;You asked,&#8221; she said. &#8220;So I came.&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled and nodded, hesitating before moving in to hug her. This time, Raven did not resist. </p><p>Ben welcomed his cousin and guided her to a chair next to Val. Val poured the wine. The candles flickered once, then held.</p><p>And in the space of three bites, the canyon whispered to those listening. &#8216;The other chairs will not be empty for long.&#8217;</p><h4>2&#65039;&#8419; She Almost Didn&#8217;t Go</h4><p>Skylar wasn&#8217;t avoiding the dinner. She just hadn&#8217;t said yes.<br>The invite sat on her counter beside a stack of unread mail. It wasn&#8217;t formal. Just a message from Riley: Sunday. Real food. No excuses.<br><br>She&#8217;d stared at it all morning, arms crossed, mentally cycling through reasons to stay home.<br>Her back hurt. She hadn&#8217;t cooked in a while. It was probably one of those touchy-feely things.<br><br>She opened the fridge, closed it again.<br>Then spotted the blue-striped apron hanging from the pantry door.<br>It still had a faded sauce stain across the front. Years ago, she&#8217;d worn it while running a pop-up kitchen for displaced elders&#8212;comfort food on a card table, mashed potatoes served with dignity.<br><br>Skylar reached for the apron like a dare. What the heck she muttered. Jim&#8217;s away. Why not?<br>Then, I pulled out the cast iron and began to cook.<br><br>She arrived twenty minutes late, arms full. A casserole in one hand, a glass bowl of coleslaw in the other, warm rolls wedged under her elbow.<br>Ben opened the door and blinked. &#8220;You brought five sides?&#8221;<br>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t want to come empty-handed.&#8221; She said it like a joke, but her eyes searched the table.<br><br>Raven scooted over. Val stood to help.<br>Riley offered the chair nearest the candles.<br><br>Skylar hesitated, then sat.<br>The chair creaked a little. But it held.</p><h4>3&#65039;&#8419; No One Knew</h4><p>Quinn sat in her truck, engine off, hands on the wheel. She had just gotten back to town from Hawaii. No one knew she was coming.</p><p>Through the windshield, she could see shadows flickering on the veranda, laughter, candlelight, and the shape of people leaning in.<br><br>She didn&#8217;t dislike gatherings. She disliked being expected to come. That&#8217;s why she didn&#8217;t tell. Not even Riley. <br><br>Somehow she knew they would all be there. It was Sunday. The day Riley&#8217;s family always had dinner.</p><p>Now, parked at the edge of the trees, she watched the dinner from a safe distance, the same way she&#8217;d once watched Fourth of July fireworks from her roof instead of joining the neighbors.<br><br>She reached for the door. Didn&#8217;t open it.<br><br>A laugh rang out. Skylar&#8217;s surprisingly warm.<br>Then Riley&#8217;s voice rose: &#8220;You&#8217;re not missing dessert, Quinn!&#8221;<br><br>She smiled. Of course, Riley knew she was there. Of course, she was going to call her bluff.<br><br>Quinn finally stepped out, adjusted her scarf, and took her time walking up the path.<br><br>When she reached the gate, no one stared.<br>Ben gave a nod. Val waved her fork in greeting.<br>Raven pulled out the last chair. An old patio rocker that didn&#8217;t match the rest.<br><br>Quinn sat down. The rocker leaned but didn&#8217;t tip. Riley handed her a drink and gave her a wink. <br>And for a minute, no one said a word.<br><br>She liked that.</p><h4>4&#65039;&#8419; Finding What Matters</h4><p>The wind rose just as Ben lit the citronella candle.</p><p>The flame bent sideways, then steadied again.</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s napkin took flight, landing squarely in her wine.</p><p>She fished it out, wrung it over the railing. &#8220;Adds body,&#8221; she said, and the laughter that followed loosened the edges of the night.</p><p>Plates were pushed aside, forks stacked like small truce flags.</p><p>It was the hour when the conversation got slower, deeper and truths crept in sideways.</p><p>Val swirled the candlelight in her glass.</p><p>&#8220;When I imagined this chapter of life,&#8221; she said, &#8220;I thought I&#8217;d be&#8230; more certain. That I&#8217;d finally know what mattered.&#8221;</p><p>Raven looked over, quiet but steady.</p><p>Riley reached for the basil centerpiece, brushing her fingers through the leaves. &#8220;You taught me how to grow these,&#8221; she said softly.</p><p>Val smiled. &#8220;I did, didn&#8217;t I?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn leaned back in her chair. &#8220;You also taught me to stop overwatering everything.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Except your jokes,&#8221; Ben muttered, and they all laughed.</p><p>Raven nodded toward Val. &#8220;And you got back on a horse this year. That counts for something.&#8221;</p><p>Val felt her face warm. &#8220;Maybe it does.&#8221;</p><p>The wind caught again, rustling through the lanterns.</p><p>Skylar refilled Val&#8217;s glass without asking.</p><p>Val looked around the table. Their mismatched faces in the glow of candlelight, the hum of friendship still new but real.</p><p>&#8220;I guess you&#8217;re right,&#8221; she said, &#8220;I just didn&#8217;t notice I&#8217;d already found what I was looking for.&#8221;</p><p>The candle flared, and blew out.</p><p>The canyon said good night,</p><p>but no one got up to leave.</p><p>5&#65039;&#8419; <strong>To what isn&#8217;t perfect</strong></p><p>Riley brought out a blueberry pie.<br>It had cracked in the middle. The crust drooped on one side.<br><br>She set it down and sighed. &#8220;It&#8217;s crooked.&#8221;<br><br>Quinn leaned forward, elbow on the table.<br>&#8220;So are we,&#8221; she said, slicing the air with her fork. &#8220;That&#8217;s why it fits.&#8221;<br><br>Riley smiled, but her eyes misted.<br>She&#8217;d made this pie every year with her mother. Years had passed and this was the first time without her.<br><br>Val reached for the pie cutter. &#8220;I say we eat the broken side first. Give the rest a chance to settle.&#8221;<br>Skylar passed clean plates without comment.<br>Raven poured what was left of the wine.<br><br>Ben cut six slices.<br>Quinn took the first one, crooked and warm, and lifted her fork like a toast.<br>&#8220;To what isn&#8217;t perfect,&#8221; she said.<br>&#8220;And why it doesn&#8217;t matter,&#8221; Skylar added softly.<br><br>No one reached for their phone.<br>No one looked at the clock.<br><br>And no one left early.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>&#129681;&#129383;&#128682;</p><p>No one tried to fix the empty spaces.</p><p>They just showed up with store-bought rolls and mismatched chairs, sat down anyway, and let the pie be crooked.</p><p>By the time dessert was gone, something softer had settled among them.</p><p>The quiet kind of knowing you can stay a little longer.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe 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fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>What begins as a tucked-away envelope becomes a key. This week, Riley found a letter she had written to Marisol on a winter night in Vermont and never mailed. It was not a manifesto. It was a half-formed truth about leaving, fear, and the air she needed to breathe. Finding it now loosened something the whole circle could feel.</p><p>As Riley&#8217;s story unfolded, each of her friends shared the times when dreams began to take hold of the daylight.</p><p>Rewriting, it turns out, does not erase. It reveals. It widens margins on each page. It lets what was unsaid finally stand in daylight and ask, kindly, what comes next.</p><h3>The Letter She Never Sent, Waited</h3><p>Riley found the envelope wedged in the back of her desk drawer, its edges yellowed, the flap unsealed. Her handwriting, steady and sure, spelled out Marisol. She remembered every line before she unfolded it. Words written on a night when the snow pressed against the windows and the house felt so small, a belt tightened around her.</p><p>The letter was not logistics. It was not a list of reasons. It was the truth she could not say to Marisol&#8217;s face. That the winters had soaked into her bones. That standing still felt louder than the wind. That leaving Vermont might be the only way to hear her own voice again.</p><p>She had planned to stop at the studio with hot coffee and goodbye. She had told herself she would. But when the morning came, fear got there first. Quinn&#8217;s place in Hawaii was a bridge to something new. The letter was supposed to be the apology left behind. The letter never reached Marisol&#8217;s hands.</p><p>The canyon breeze lifted the edge of the paper, as if the past was breathing. Riley pressed it flat and whispered, &#8220;I see it now.&#8221;</p><p>Some stories do not end. They wait. And sometimes they ask you to speak the part you swallowed.</p><p><strong>Read Between Lines That Were Never Written</strong></p><p>Quinn leaned forward, elbows on the table. &#8220;You came straight to Hawaii after that. Do you remember?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;How could I not?&#8221; Riley gave a wry smile. &#8220;I arrived at your house pretending I was fine. You poke bowl, like it was any other Tuesday. You didn&#8217;t ask questions.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t have to,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;Your silence was louder than your words. I knew there was someone you hadn&#8217;t said goodbye to.&#8221;</p><p>Riley looked at her, startled. &#8220;You knew?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Of course.&#8221; Quinn shrugged, smoothing the sleeve of her blouse. &#8220;I&#8217;ve made a career out of reading between lines. You didn&#8217;t need to tell me there was a letter. I could hear it in the way you avoided saying Marisol&#8217;s name.&#8221;</p><p>Riley pressed her palms flat against the table. &#8220;Why didn&#8217;t you ever bring it up?&#8221;</p><p>Quinn smiled, small and sad. &#8220;Because patience has its own kind of love. I figured one day you&#8217;d be ready. And here we are.&#8221;</p><p><strong>Sketches Breathing Again in Sunlight</strong></p><p>The box under Val&#8217;s bed wasn&#8217;t labeled, but she knew its weight. She slid it out and lifted the lid, releasing the faint scent of old paper. Inside lay stacks of her drawings: desert marigolds with petals so detailed you could feel the ridges, oak leaves shaded in green pencil, the anatomy of a dahlia blossom sketched from memory.</p><p>She had filled sketchbooks once, during evenings when the world quieted. She told herself it was practice, cataloging plants, capturing their form. But it was more. It was how she stayed tethered to beauty while life demanded so much else.</p><p>For years, she had thought the drawings were just a hobby, nothing serious. Yet here, spread across her bed, they looked like a record of devotion. A garden that had grown only on paper.</p><p>Val traced the edge of one sketch: a wildflower she remembered finding by the roadside decades ago. Its delicate form reminded her that not everything had to last forever to matter.</p><p>The question wasn&#8217;t whether she could draw again.</p><p>It was whether she was ready to let those quiet hours bloom once more.</p><p><strong>The Heritage Garden She Always Imagined</strong></p><p>Skylar leaned on the shovel, sweat beading at her temples. The neighbors shook their heads when they passed. &#8220;At her age? Too ambitious,&#8221; they whispered.</p><p>But Skylar knew this wasn&#8217;t about age. This was about time, finally hers.</p><p>For years, travel had kept her moving, her passport her garden. She collected not seeds but notebooks filled with notes and photographs of gardens she loved: cloistered courtyards in Spain, formal alleys in France, desert oases in Morocco. She&#8217;d promised herself, one day, she&#8217;d gather all those impressions into something of her own.</p><p>Now the beds curved with intention, echoing a monastery&#8217;s symmetry. Terracotta pots lined a path toward a carved wooden gate. Lavender filled the air, just as it had when she first fell in love with Provence.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t just a garden. It was a memory made solid. A heritage of everywhere she&#8217;d been, translated into soil and stone.</p><p>She pressed her palm into the earth and smiled.</p><p>This wasn&#8217;t indulgence. It was arrival.</p><p><strong>What If?</strong></p><p>The plane lurched, and Raven steadied herself against the window. Below, a blur of desert gave way to city sprawl. Another ranch, another rancher, another hotel where her boots felt out of place.</p><p>She had once loved the rhythm of travel. The way airports hummed, the chance to work in new places, the feeling of being sought after. But lately, the hum had turned to static. The canyon tugged at her in the silence between events.</p><p>In her notebook, she had scribbled ideas for the training facility she&#8217;d dreamed of building at home: apprenticeships, cultural exchange, a place where horses taught more than humans demanded. The vision grew sharper each time she sketched it.</p><p>The thought startled her. Maybe it was time to stop moving outward, and let the world come to her.</p><p>Raven closed her eyes as the plane droned on.</p><p>The real question wasn&#8217;t whether she could keep traveling.</p><p>It was whether she still wanted to.</p><div class="pullquote"><p>If there is a sentence you never spoke, a note you never sent, a plan you shelved because life was louder, consider this your gentle nudge. The page is still here. The pen still works. If you rewrote one small line of your story this week, where would you begin?</p></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/e2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16254,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/175982604?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!03F_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe2632fde-c372-4b67-aa37-2639d2bcdb83_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="pullquote"><p>The stories we bury don&#8217;t die. They wait.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s unsent letter wasn&#8217;t about leaving. It was about what she feared staying for.</p><p>What have you tucked away&#8212;under receipts, under years&#8212;that still wants to speak?</p><p>That&#8217;s the conversation we&#8217;re opening here.</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe Today &#128394;&#65039;&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Subscribe Today &#128394;&#65039;</span></a></p><p></p><p></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Why Did I Stop Dreaming?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Stories of women who dared to ask again.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/why-did-i-stop-dreaming</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/why-did-i-stop-dreaming</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 19 Sep 2025 12:01:23 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!6wY8!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F030ea500-3cc7-4eb1-b1a0-17c6d905b734_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Somewhere along the way, many of us stop dreaming. We tell ourselves it&#8217;s too late, or too impractical, or that we should be satisfied with what we have. Dreams feel like a luxury meant for someone younger, someone freer, someone else.</p><p>But what happens when we let the question back in?</p><p>This week in Today&#8217;s Dose of Fiction, the women of the canyon discovered what surfaces when you linger with that question. Around tables, in gardens, in quiet moments, they found themselves drawn toward long-buried desires and surprising wants. What began as hesitation turned into confession. What felt lost began to stir again.</p><p>Dreaming, they realized, isn&#8217;t about age or timing. It&#8217;s about aliveness.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png" width="740" height="765" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:765,&quot;width&quot;:740,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:1118128,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F4b98e034-7232-431f-8b14-ffdf1887b361_750x1624.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BCWn!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F69155982-d9b4-42bc-b0b3-d5878255ac4e_740x765.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>Sunday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>Dreams Don&#8217;t Expire, They Wait</strong></em></p><p>Riley leaned against the veranda rail, moonlight brushing the canyon walls. She thought about Vermont, about the sketches rolled in cardboard tubes under her bed. Designs she never built, ideas she shelved with the excuse that they were &#8220;impractical.&#8221;</p><p>But here, in the desert hush, she wondered: were they really impractical, or just unfinished?</p><p>She opened her journal, the one that still smelled faintly of cedar. A page from years ago caught her eye. A greenhouse with soaring glass, framed by stone arches. She traced the lines with her finger, almost tenderly.</p><p>It startled her, how much it still tugged. The dream hadn&#8217;t died. It had only waited.</p><p>Riley closed the book, exhaling slowly. &#8220;What else have I hidden from myself?&#8221; she whispered.</p><p>The night didn&#8217;t answer, but the sketch felt alive again, as if daring her to return.</p><p>This wasn&#8217;t nostalgia. It was a beginning waiting to be named. Tomorrow she thought. I&#8217;ll think about the question again.</p><p><strong>Monday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>She Realized She&#8217;d Stopped Imagining</strong></em></p><p>Quinn set down her coffee, staring at the canyon rim. For decades, her life was measured in schedules, border reports, and classified memos. Homeland Security demanded precision, not possibility.</p><p>Now, retired, she caught herself thinking only in errands. Groceries. Bills. A dentist appointment in Sab&#225;ka. She frowned. When had her mind stopped wandering?</p><p>Riley joined her, barefoot, a sketchbook under her arm. Quinn tilted her head. &#8220;Do you ever just&#8230; imagine something wild? Something pointless?&#8221;</p><p>Riley smiled gently. &#8220;Last night, actually.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn laughed, short and uneasy. &#8220;I can&#8217;t remember the last time I did. My whole career was built on anticipating threats, not daydreams. Somewhere along the way, I forgot how to dream.&#8221;</p><p>The admission sat heavy but freeing in the morning air.</p><p>&#8220;Then start small,&#8221; Riley said. &#8220;Don&#8217;t build a fortress. Build a doorway.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn looked back at the horizon. A doorway, not a wall. She could almost see it.</p><p>It wasn&#8217;t loss she felt&#8212;it was space. And space begged to be filled.</p><p><strong>Tuesday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>One Wish, Spoken Out Loud</strong></em></p><p>Dinner plates clinked, laughter softening into a lull. Raven leaned forward, elbows on the table. &#8220;All right,&#8221; she said. &#8220;Let&#8217;s be brave. Name one thing you still want. Not what you&#8217;ve done. Not what you&#8217;ve given. What you still want.&#8221;</p><p>The table went quiet.</p><p>Val shifted. Quinn cleared her throat. Skylar reached for her glass.</p><p>Finally, Riley said, &#8220;A greenhouse. One that&#8217;s mine.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn added, &#8220;To travel without duty attached. Just for me.&#8221;</p><p>Val whispered, &#8220;To feel wanted.&#8221;</p><p>The words seemed to loosen something in the air.</p><p>Skylar spoke without making eye contact. &#8220;To not be afraid.&#8221;</p><p>Then all eyes turned to Raven. She smirked, but her voice softened. &#8220;I want to fall in love again.&#8221;</p><p>A hush followed&#8212;not shock, but recognition.</p><p>The circle felt different now, like a flame had been lit in the middle.</p><p>Raven raised her glass. &#8220;There. I said it.&#8221;</p><p>And once one wish was spoken, the others couldn&#8217;t stay hidden for long.</p><p><strong>Wednesday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>What If Wanting Was Enough?</strong></em></p><p>Val sat on the stone bench, twilight painting the garden silver. She&#8217;d spent years pretending her life was full. Volunteering, nursing, helping others. But inside, there was a hollow shaped exactly like desire.</p><p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve always told myself wanting was selfish,&#8221; she admitted. Skylar sat beside her, listening. &#8220;Even when I wanted something small, like more laughter, more touch. I&#8217;d bury it under being sensible.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar reached for her hand. &#8220;Maybe wanting is sensible. Maybe it&#8217;s how you find what&#8217;s real.&#8221;</p><p>Val blinked back sudden tears. She&#8217;d never said it out loud before. Not like this.</p><p>The garden smelled of rosemary and earth. The lamps flickered as if they understood.</p><p>&#8220;What if wanting is enough?&#8221; Val asked softly, more to herself than to anyone else.</p><p>Skylar squeezed her hand. &#8220;Then I hope you never stop.&#8221;</p><p>The air shifted, as if her admission had opened a door. And tomorrow, Val would walk through with her own story.</p><p><strong>Thursday &#8212; </strong><em><strong>The Dream She Almost Forgot to Claim</strong></em></p><p>Skylar crouched by the fountain she&#8217;d coaxed from stone, her palms wet with its cool spray. The garden stretched around her. Arches of bougainvillea, desert willows trained like sculptures, pots bursting with improbable color.</p><p>&#8220;This was my gallery,&#8221; she told Val, who lingered with her. &#8220;Not with paintings or clay, but with living things. I dreamed of it for years but told myself it was foolish. Too expensive. Too indulgent.&#8221;</p><p>She laughed, shaking droplets from her hands. &#8220;And then one day, I decided indulgence was exactly what I needed.&#8221;</p><p>Val gazed at the lanterns, at the sheer audacity of beauty carved from desert rock. &#8220;It&#8217;s extraordinary.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s eyes softened. &#8220;It&#8217;s me. Every piece of it. And I almost let the dream wither.&#8221;</p><p>They sat together, listening to the trickle of water, the steady pulse of a dream brought to life.</p><p>Dreams don&#8217;t always roar. Sometimes they bloom, quietly, waiting for you to notice. And this week, the circle had begun to notice again.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg" width="204" height="45" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:45,&quot;width&quot;:204,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:3394,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!O4Od!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F86ae2287-8ad8-4119-90b0-5fdf5b0db5fd_204x45.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><div class="pullquote"><p>Maybe you&#8217;ve had a dream you told yourself was finished. But what if it wasn&#8217;t gone, only waiting? This was one week in Echo Canyon. The next thread is already tugging at the edge.</p></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.maryleepangman.me/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:16254,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173950434?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OQOR!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F514f6559-a6f6-4a9b-bc16-093a894da012_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Those Who are Last to Leave—and Love It]]></title><description><![CDATA[Seven stories of women who stayed a little longer&#8212;and found what mattered most.]]></description><link>https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-are-last-to-leaveand-love</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.maryleepangman.me/p/those-who-are-last-to-leaveand-love</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Marylee Pangman, Author]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 14 Sep 2025 12:02:16 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/34d35796-e37e-4a80-863c-0c60a4ad8ce3_500x500.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There&#8217;s something about the moment after the crowd thins. The music fades, chairs scrape, and most people hurry home. But for a few who linger, the air shifts. Conversations deepen, laughter rings truer, and sometimes a new beginning sneaks in through the quiet.</p><p>This week&#8217;s Dose of Fiction follows Skylar, Quinn, Raven, Val, Riley&#8212;and even Ben&#8212;through those in-between minutes. From a half-empty library to a broom-swept dance floor, from the hush of a garden bench to the gold light of the canyon, these are the stories of being &#8220;the last to leave,&#8221; and loving every second of it.</p><p>Each story ends where another one begins, weaving into a circle that holds friendship, discovery, and hope. By the time you reach the final night at Raven&#8217;s ranch, you may find yourself wishing the lights never went out.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/173537262?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!QyqT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddef6b01-bfcc-47e4-b4fd-45d40e7671b5_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p><strong>Day 1 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>When the Meeting Ends, the Story Begins</h2><p>The library smelled like paper and cinnamon tea. Folding chairs scraped, goodbyes floated, and the circle thinned to two. Skylar stacked paperbacks while Quinn reshelved a stack with sure hands.</p><p>&#8220;Your archaeology years,&#8221; Quinn said. &#8220;When did you write? Between flights?&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Airport floors,&#8221; Skylar laughed. &#8220;And hotel bathtubs, rickety bus seats, notebook on my knees.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn&#8217;s smile was soft and curious. &#8220;I keep telling myself there&#8217;s a next chapter. I just don&#8217;t know the first sentence.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar tipped her head toward the quiet stacks. &#8220;Sometimes it begins when the room empties.&#8221;</p><p>They walked the aisles slowly, reading spines like old friends. The librarian waved from the desk, lights a little dimmer now.</p><p>&#8220;Tell me one thing you loved that had nothing to do with duty,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>Quinn looked at a worn map of Vermont taped to a shelf. &#8220;Mornings at the border when fog wrapped the pines. I felt awake there.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Then we start with awake,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>They reached the door, but neither touched it.</p><p>The best part of book club had arrived, finally.</p><p>This was where the real story started. There was more on the next shelf.</p><p><strong>Day 2 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>The Last Dance Wasn&#8217;t on the Playlist<br></h2><p>The string lights blinked tiredly, but the wooden floor still felt alive. Volunteers swept in long swishes. Raven took a broom, spun it once, and Val snorted with laughter.</p><p>&#8220;Partner with good posture,&#8221; Raven said, hand to the broom&#8217;s imaginary waist.</p><p>Val slipped off her shoes. &#8220;I only dance with those who can keep time.&#8221;</p><p>They glided across the floor, bristles whispering like silk. A teenager collecting cups stopped to watch. &#8220;You two look like queens,&#8221; she said.</p><p>&#8220;Queens who know how to close a night,&#8221; Val answered.</p><p>Raven&#8217;s smile tilted. &#8220;Remember when we left early because we worried about being in the way?&#8221;</p><p>Val nudged her. &#8220;We were never in the way. We were the way.&#8221;</p><p>The last song lingered, the brooms made little crescents of sawdust that looked like moons.</p><p>&#8220;Next week?&#8221; the teen asked.</p><p>&#8220;If there is a floor and a broom,&#8221; Raven said, &#8220;there is a dance.&#8221;</p><p>They bowed to their bristled partners.</p><p>Sometimes the encore happens after the applause. Tomorrow would prove it.</p><p><strong>Day 3 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>What Starlight Reveals When You Stay<br></h2><p>Solar lanterns winked along the path, rays of sun spread wide on the ground. The laughter from the party had trailed off an hour ago. She used to leave with the crowd. Tonight she stalled, alone on the path connecting the cul-de-sac neighbors.</p><p>Ben&#8217;s fire pit sent up a new ribbon of smoke with sparks seeking the air. His porch light clicked on, then off, then on again. Riley stood, curiosity tugging her toward the low fence.</p><p>&#8220;You out here, Riley?&#8221; Ben&#8217;s voice, warm as a setting sun.</p><p>&#8220;I am,&#8221; she called. &#8220;Coyote patrol.&#8221;</p><p>He chuckled. &#8220;They&#8217;re stubborn. Kind of like me.&#8221;</p><p>They met at the fence line. The desert air held a hint of mint from someone&#8217;s crushed herb.</p><p>&#8220;Do you ever wish the party lasted longer?&#8221; she asked.</p><p>&#8220;I like when it gets quiet enough to hear what I have been thinking,&#8221; Ben said.</p><p>Riley looked at the ember glow. She thought of all the times she had packed up early to avoid being seen leaving alone. Yet here was company, precisely because she stayed.</p><p>&#8220;Coffee tomorrow?&#8221; Ben asked.</p><p>Riley smiled and nodded.</p><p>She would handle the aloneness until tomorrow.</p><p><strong>Day 4 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>The Golden Hour Belongs to those who stay<br></h2><p>The group photo was a blur of hats and sun. Trucks rumbled away one by one, tires crunching gravel. Skylar rolled her shoulders and slowed. Riley noticed. She eased back until their steps matched.</p><p>&#8220;You good?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Good enough,&#8221; Skylar said, breath steady but careful.</p><p>Ben waited under the juniper. Val and Raven saw the pause and drifted back. The canyon&#8217;s golden hour was arriving, cliffs taking on honey.</p><p>&#8220;Look at that,&#8221; Quinn said, pointing where light braided through a narrow cut.</p><p>They stood together, six figures in a pocket of quiet while the last engine faded on the road.</p><p>&#8220;I used to push to keep up,&#8221; Skylar said. &#8220;Now I ask the canyon to keep pace with me.&#8221;</p><p>Ben tapped his hat brim. &#8220;It just did.&#8221;</p><p>They watched a hawk balance on the evening wind. No one checked a watch. The trail gave them back the minutes they thought they had lost.</p><p>&#8220;Next week, same pace,&#8221; Raven said.</p><p>&#8220;Same gold,&#8221; Val added.</p><p>They did not win the race. They won the view. And it changed what they planned next.</p><p><strong>Day 5 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>Laughter Rose with the Steam</h2><p>Steam rose in soft ghosts from the clean dish. Someone&#8217;s peach cobbler clung to the pan like a secret. Raven and two church friends, Ada and Lila, worked in a cheerful rhythm.</p><p>&#8220;Who brought the jalape&#241;o cornbread?&#8221; Lila asked.</p><p>&#8220;Confess and be praised,&#8221; Raven said.</p><p>Ada grinned. &#8220;It was me. Extra kernels for courage.&#8221;</p><p>They laughed, and the sound filled the small kitchen better than any choir.</p><p>&#8220;Funny,&#8221; Raven said. &#8220;During the meal I felt a little invisible. Now I feel seen.&#8221;</p><p>Ada bumped her hip. &#8220;That is because this is the part where we tell the truth.&#8221;</p><p>They traded stories over the hum of the sanitizer. Lila admitted she was learning to date again. Ada was considering a road trip alone. Raven spoke about a dream she kept filing under &#8220;later.&#8221;</p><p>&#8220;Later is a slippery shelf,&#8221; Ada said.</p><p>Raven set the clean pan to dry. &#8220;Then I&#8217;ll put it on the counter where we allcan reach it.&#8221;</p><p>They locked up, last to leave, lights ticking off behind them.</p><p>The recipe was simple. Stay a little longer. Something good always rises.</p><p><strong>Day 6 &#8212; Those Who are Last to Leave</strong></p><h2>When the Quiet Turns Loud<br></h2><p>The community garden slept in tidy rows. Val brushed soil from her knees and dropped onto the bench. Skylar sat beside her, wedding band catching a lantern glint.</p><p>&#8220;I still forget to take the ring off when I pull weeds,&#8221; Skylar said.</p><p>&#8220;It reminds the lettuce who is boss,&#8221; Val replied.</p><p>They both laughed. The laughter softened into a companionable hush.</p><p>&#8220;Some nights I go home and the house is so quiet I can hear my heartbeat,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;I did not know quiet could be that loud.&#8221;</p><p>Skylar&#8217;s hand found hers. &#8220;I go home to noise. Dishes and shoes and a man who loves me. Some nights I still miss the part of me that wandered late with friends.&#8221;</p><p>Val squeezed. &#8220;So we share. You lend me noise. I lend you stars.&#8221;</p><p>A moth tapped the lamp glass, a tiny drummer.</p><p>&#8220;What is next for you?&#8221; Skylar asked.</p><p>&#8220;More benches,&#8221; Val said. &#8220;More nights like this.&#8221;</p><p>They stayed until the moth found the dark again.</p><p>When the crowd thins, the truth sits down beside you. Tomorrow, they would all take a seat.</p><p><strong>Day 7 &#8212; </strong></p><h1>When the Best Nights Never End on Time</h1><p>Raven&#8217;s ranch house still hummed after the potluck. Stray napkins. A guitar leaning in the corner as if it had something left to say. The big group had trickled away with hugs and foil parcels. What remained was the part they never planned and always loved.</p><p>Raven poured tea into mismatched cups. &#8220;There is cobbler left,&#8221; she announced. &#8220;Evidence that we exercised restraint.&#8221;</p><p>Ben raised a fork. &#8220;I call it foresight.&#8221;</p><p>They gathered around the fire pit, their favorite spot to end a night. As always, Ben claimed the wicker rocker. Quinn tucked her feet under her on the glider. Skylar stretched carefully, listening to her body. Val stole the Adirondack chair. Riley leaned against the chair where Raven sat, eyes on the slice of moon.</p><p>&#8220;This is the best part,&#8221; Val said.</p><p>&#8220;The party after the party,&#8221; Quinn added.</p><p>They traded small treasures from the week. Ben listened, smiling in that way elders do when the night is exactly as it should be. &#8220;You know,&#8221; he said, &#8220;people think staying late is clinging. The host wondering if they would ever leave. Looks to me like choosing.&#8221;</p><p>Raven nodded. &#8220;Choosing our own pace and knowing when the welcome lives on.&#8221;</p><p>Quinn lifted her cup. &#8220;Choosing the minutes no one else noticed.&#8221;</p><p>They sat while the house settled, boards giving tiny sighs. A night bird stitched a string of notes together.</p><p>&#8220;Same time next week?&#8221; Riley asked.</p><p>&#8220;Next week,&#8221; they echoed.</p><p>They did not bother to define what &#8220;this&#8221; was. They only knew to keep a space for it.</p><p>This was just one night on Raven&#8217;s porch. There are more. And the next thread is already tugging at the door.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Don&#8217;t miss these stories.&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://www.Maryleepangman.me/subscribe"><span>Don&#8217;t miss these stories.</span></a></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RBdM!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F846656ee-81d0-4c54-8b61-58e8a99ddf29_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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It calms our minds, asking us to slow down with the seasons. And it draws us together&#8212;around herbs in the kitchen, laughter on the veranda, and even the rustle of a night visitor.</p><p>This week in the canyon, Riley, Skylar, Val, Raven, Ben, Cameron, and Channing each found their own kind of medicine in the soil. Sometimes it looked like rosemary and sage, other times it looked like friendship held steady in the cool autumn air.</p><p>Here&#8217;s the full arc, gathered for you to read straight through. May it stir your own reflections on how tending a garden, and tending each other, carry us toward the holidays ahead.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg" width="400" height="125" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:125,&quot;width&quot;:400,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:14583,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://www.maryleepangman.me/i/172966439?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!8OGN!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F53610025-a4fe-43a3-a85d-d70a585e0e5b_400x125.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><h3><strong> The Garden Between Seasons<br></strong></h3><p><strong>Riley</strong></p><p>The pumpkins in Riley&#8217;s raised bed had taken on that deep, burnished orange that meant fall was truly here. She pressed a palm against one, feeling its cool weight. Her body moved slower these days too, joints aching when the mornings turned crisp. But the garden gave her reason to stretch, lift, bend. A kind of movement the gym had never offered.<br><br>As she clipped dried zinnias, she thought about how the season pulled everything inward, plants conserving, people gathering, the canyon itself leaning into its quiet. Yet, in that stillness, she felt something stir. A tug toward connection she couldn&#8217;t name.<br><br>When Quinn called from the veranda, Riley wiped her hands and turned. From the front of the house came a call she hadn&#8217;t expected. A voice that carried too many memories to mistake.</p><p><strong>Skylar &#8212; The Weight She Didn&#8217;t Expect</strong></p><p>Skylar always said she didn&#8217;t need exercise. &#8220;I lift life every day.&#8221; Yet as she carried a watering can down Riley&#8217;s path, her breath caught. She paused, leaning against the rosemary. The air was sharp with its scent, almost medicinal.</p><p>She laughed softly to herself. Who knew that lifting water, bending for weeds, stretching toward sagging trellises would become her training? Not for beauty, but for staying strong enough to keep showing up.</p><p>When she straightened, she caught Riley watching her. A quick look, then turned away, distracted. Skylar frowned. Riley wasn&#8217;t usually the one to drift off mid-moment.</p><p>Skylar whispered to the rosemary: &#8220;Don&#8217;t let me fade.&#8221; Then louder, with her old sparkle, &#8220;Who&#8217;s ready for cider?&#8221;</p><p>The others cheered from the veranda, unaware of the private conversation she&#8217;d just had with a plant.</p><p>But Riley was still listening to something else. A voice Skylar hadn&#8217;t heard. A voice that seemed to come from beyond the garden&#8217;s edge.</p><p>And later that night, Skylar would wonder &#8212; what had unsettled her friend in the middle of such a simple task?</p><p><strong>Val - Little Can Escape Her</strong></p><p>Val arrived with her basket of herbs, still damp from the garden. Basil, thyme, and sage. The scents reminded her of kitchens once filled with noise and laughter, before she moved away.</p><p>She laid the leaves on Riley&#8217;s table, inhaling deeply. Cooking together had become their ritual. Chopping, stirring, tasting, each woman adding a piece of herself. Tonight they&#8217;d make a stew hearty enough for the coming chill.</p><p>But as Val reached for the thyme, Riley slipped outside, almost unnoticed. When she returned, her eyes seemed brighter, though she said nothing. Val didn&#8217;t press. But later, as they stirred the pot, Val caught Riley touching her own wrist as if it had just been held.</p><p>And Val wondered, who was strong enough to shift Riley&#8217;s mood in the space of a single breath?</p><p><strong>Raven &#8212; The Breath Between Tasks</strong></p><p>The others worked quickly &#8212; chopping, stirring, and setting the table. Raven lingered outside, crouching by the late marigolds. Bees still hummed lazily, gathering what little remained.</p><p>She rose and turned toward the veranda. Just for a moment, she thought she saw someone slip past the fence. A figure too tall for Skylar, too quick for Ben. Raven blinked and it was gone.</p><p>When she finally returned inside, Skylar teased, &#8220;Lose your way among the flowers?&#8221;</p><p>Raven only smiled. &#8220;Maybe I found it.&#8221; But her thoughts drifted back to that shadow near the garden beds.</p><p>And she wondered, what else was the canyon holding between its silences?</p><p><strong>Ben &#8212; The Garden Drinks Too</strong></p><p>Ben was in charge of mixing drinks, which meant half the herbs vanished into cocktails instead of stew. Mint, basil, rosemary, each sprig muddled into a glass.</p><p>&#8220;Plants like a little celebration too,&#8221; he grinned, lifting a pitcher of sangria dangerously close to a flowerpot. The women shrieked in mock protest, laughter spilling into the night.</p><p>He raised his glass higher. &#8220;To the soil that feeds us. To the friends who keep us standing.&#8221;</p><p>The words hung longer than he expected. For a beat, silence. Then, from somewhere beyond the garden, a laugh joined theirs. Soft, unmistakably human.</p><p>Ben froze. The others glanced around. Riley&#8217;s face betrayed something more than surprise.</p><p>And in that moment, Ben realized this gathering was larger than the circle he could see.</p><p><strong>Cameron &amp; Channing &#8212; The Night Visitor</strong></p><p>The pair arrived late, flashlights in hand, after chasing the rustle near the garden beds. &#8220;We found tracks,&#8221; Cameron announced, dust on her knees. &#8220;Not deer. Maybe javelina.&#8221;</p><p>The group leaned close as she described the trail. But Riley&#8217;s gaze stayed fixed on the darkness beyond.</p><p>Channing lifted a half-eaten pumpkin. &#8220;Guess someone else is decorating early for the holidays.&#8221; Laughter rippled, but faltered when Riley turned sharply toward the fence. A shape moved there. Not an animal, not an illusion.</p><p>Riley&#8217;s lips parted as though to call out, then closed just as quickly.</p><p>And while the others argued about animals, Riley knew the garden had already welcomed someone else in.</p><h5><em>Which moment spoke to you most this week? 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